getting my thigh gap back

okay now that maintenance may is over, the real summer of starvation starts today

why do i have a headache?? *undereating every day* *not taking my medication* oh well, at least im hydrated

i do have my thigh gap back now and well, ive been so elated that ive just maintained for the last month... need the scale going down again

have been doing pretty decent in general but i think ive hit the point where im not going to weigh myself until i get my period bc i woke up so bloated

should be very easy to let my self hate fuel me rn haha

back to being so scared to weight myself and im so frustrated

need too be in deficit today, too many days of not counting have gone by now

sure ive basically been maintaining which is okay, i was at a new lw the last time i weighed but it's been pms time ever since and it feels pointless to weigh myself again before im not bloated and have actually taken a shit

down 1lb yesterday which felt good, just need to keep it going, no sweets today

maintained this past week and that's okay

didn't weigh myself this morning, but i have to trust that progress is happening, i miss the way my hip bones used to jut out, but i know it's not coming back overnight

weighed myself yesterday and im 10lbs more than i was three years ago, and 10lbs less than i was four months ago, so we're in a decent place... aiming to see more steady progress over the next week

didn't update for a bit because i was too suicidal to care about anything, but starving has been feeling great lately

woo! okay binge drank and got sick over the weekend, took a couple days to recover, am about to get my period, but still at a decent weight 🙏 even though everything else is a mess, im getting my old body back

did pretty well today, mostly veggies and protein, but i did have 140cals of dessert i couldn't stop myself from 🙃 should still be in deficit tho

did well today, pretty sure i kept a deficit, tho counting was hard... i'll make sure im absolutely sure tomorrow