Getting Tinier

Saw someone just ranting/venting about having gone over their limit and binging. And some fucking bitch out of nowhere, who had not been asked for her opinion, goes  "okay, you've messed up, you're now closer to being a fat cow than a thin swan - is this what you wanted? If so, continue doing it. Otherwise fast for 48 hours then stick with your daily limit or you are going to fail."

So I’ve been going strong for two weeks now, or a little over. I have had bad days food-wise, but I’ve made up for it by working out harder. Generally I’ve stayed below 800 cals a day, sometimes 1000, at most about 1500. But I weigh 125 kg (275 lbs) so if I on those same days burn at least half of what I’ve eaten, I should be losing, right?

I’ve also been drinking a lot of water, a lot of green tea, and I’ve done different types of workouts. Mainly walking/jogging and sit-ups, push-ups, squats, and those sort of things because since I’m so heavy even doing a 20 second plank has me like almost screaming because it’s so fucking difficult. So I feel like I need to sort out my cardio and my flexibility first before going to heavier stuff, especially since I’m so big. 

And I have gained weight. Gained. Not lost. I’ve gained about 3 kgs (6 lbs) and I can’t for the life of me understand why. My scale is not the problem, it’s brand new and my mum’s is showing the same numbers. I don’t feel any difference in clothing or strength or whatever.

It’s really discouraging, because while I know that muscle weighs more than fat bla-bla I also know that it does not take simply 2 weeks to replace that much fat with muscles so that I’d gain that much. It takes waaaay longer. It’s freaking me out, now I hate food, I want to never eat again, and I feel like a fatass that’s always going to be fat and no matter what I do I will never get down to a healthy weight.

I also weigh myself only in the morning before consuming anything and after well, toilet business. 

Help, what am I doing wrong? I feel like crying I’m so gross and disgusting.