bigbacklife

SW: 244

to be skinnier, to be a force to be reckoned with, someone who doesn’t take up space in the room not only with lbs.

Where my calves aren’t too big to fit in those cute boots.

Where I look like I have respect for myself and not dress like adam sandler.

I was 150lbs, got my first job at a fast food place (horrible idea)

I put on 20lbs there

COVID happened which sent me into a spiral

Got into my first serious relationship which was a toxic shit show and gained another 20lbs and cut off all my hair (horrible idea)

left my first job and was at 200lbs got into a car accident and put on more weight-

NOW I’m in a new relationship passed through my first semester of Nursing but I put on another 30lbs.

My boyfriend is big and tall so I feel small next to him but that DOESN’T ACTUALLY MEAN IM SMALL.

Ate popcorn (390cal)

Gingerale (80 calories)

not only did i go from 130lbs to 210lbs in a matter of years, I realized that I usually relapse around octobers lmao but this time its for real. I'm starting to blog it everyday like I used to with calories and activity level. I'm getting old and graduating in the spring so I literally got to get back down to 160lbs to start as a first BIG goal. Goal 1: 200lbs Goal 2: 190lbs Goal 3: 175lbs Goal 4: 160lbs