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I never been the type to WEB MD. And just read symptoms and get worried because there a million and one symptoms for everything. However I’ve been feeling not too chipper lately. Mostly because I think way too deeply into things. And I’m thinking what is the point to which one should see that the way someone thinks very important. Important to their personality, to their actions, to the way they treat you. And the way people think is a learned behavior. Bits and pieces from everyone they come in contact with. So I wonder where do I get my behaviors from. Wondering what in my lifetime has impacted me to act the way I do. I think I’m way too selfless. I think it’s okay to be selfish. But why is it other before me. But I can be selfish as well. I am a person who thrives on solitude. And only my true friends understand that and the way I function. Sorry for all the friends I didn’t talk to. I just didn’t have it in me. Most of the times I lie when people ask me how I feel. If you aren't close to me. I don’t think you can comfort me. But how would I know anyway. Danielle is the only person which i tell everything, and even then sometimes I’m like eh.I don’t even know what to write because I’m just thinking too much. I just want to feel better. You know?

I have such a headache.