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Malia: to be fair, it's not like i give you much of a choice. either i'm harassing you in class or i'm harassing you via text. 😊😊 but that's still pretty cute.

Malia: it's adorable when you do though. and hot, too. all aboard the 'rachel berry is always right' train, next stop is to malia's nerves~

Malia: cults aren't always bad!! they're just misunderstood!! then..what do i do? i'm at a loss. ugh, why couldn't ryan love someone else instead of basically my mortal enemy ever since CHILDHOOD. our colors are literally black and red, queen. they are full of color! HMPH!! Mmmm...it's real tempting to give ya the go ahead for funny business.

Malia: lord heavenly father, please lend me the strength to go on without the knowledge of this forbidden binder. this forbidden fruit. please, thank you, dismissed. :/ again. i'm pouting. jsyk. (if i feel stifled or if i need space, i'll let you know? i don't think it'll happen though. and for right now, definitely not too much.)

Malia: 👅👅👅👅👅👅 🍑🍑🍑🍑🍑🍑🍑🍑🍑 (i caught that and it was very cute and we're doing that tonight, thank youuu)

Rachel: and I love every last second of it. well, maybe not as much in class when I'm trying to learn, but any other time your harassment is my favorite thing in the world.

Rachel: I don't think I would call my cursing adorable, but I'll take it. I want to do it more, but for that we'd have to have even more sex than we already do, so. oh, really? I thought you'd be used to it by now 😇😇

Rachel: you know, this reminds me of a very particular conversation I had with Ainsley, shortly after I got here. One about you being a cult leader. you give him a chance? trust me, I'm a fan of the drama behind mortal enemies, and I'd love to have one or two myself, but he's likely gonna be a part of your family. it wouldn't be the worst thing in the world for you to be at least civil around him. I'm sure ryan would appreciate it. I'm not saying it's a bad color scheme!! you know I love black and red!!! I'm just saying that as far as sports go, it's not the most creative. if you don't, maybe I'll give the go ahead myself~

Rachel: again, you will find out about the binder someday. I'm 100% sure of that. I'll try not to bring it up as often, though. I feel like I'm teasing you with this. (that would be fair, yes, thank you. I'll do the same on my end, but I doubt it's gonna be necessary)

Malia: i'm always thinking about you, queen 🥰 I thought that much was obvious

Malia: yes, the /biggest/ kiss of your life and trust, that's a promise I'll be keepin'. also we're gonna have to agree to disagree on that last bit.

Malia: pffft, there's nothin' to worry about. uh...hm...I dunno, honestly. I dont wanna cross paths with nate and if its involving bama, I know I will. he has like, game days in his suite and ry said I'd be fine to come but I dunno. you're right, tho, she really would enjoy 'em. UNIMAGINATIVE??? /babe/, can you /not/. we dont talk shit about bama in this household. and if we do, we do it QUIETLY so it doesnt hurt Malia's soul :(( i..what kinda funny business 👀👀

Malia: I was thinkin' and I FOR SURE thought the contents of the 7th binder would be revealed, cause I'm your girlfriend now and all but I guess I'll continue to pout about it. (you're super super involved in my life, there's no question about that. but thank you~)

Malia: 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

Rachel: I know 😊 I'm always thinking about you too

Rachel: you know I don't curse often but I can't fucking wait for that. you can disagree all you want, princess, I know I'm right.

Rachel: it's a /cult/. how am I supposed to not worry about getting into one? are you sure? I know you have your problems with nate but you can't avoid him forever... not when he's so important with your sister. at least in an environment like that, you two would at least have something in common. I'm not talking shit!!! I'm just saying crimson can be very bland as far as color schemes go. why not bright yellow? hot pink? powder blue? it's much more fashionable. the last thing I want is to hurt your soul, though, I will support your team no matter how colorless they look. you know very well what kind of funny business, princess. the same kind of funny business we get into whenever we try to watch a movie.

Rachel: I figured that might happen, but no, the 7th binder isn't about us as girlfriends. I didn't want to make one in case things didn't go as planned... the secret binder is specifically about you. (hopefully not too much? I don't want to suffocate you or anything like that)

Malia: almost exclusively, huh? I can't say I disagree. or that I'm not in the same boat 🥰

Malia: oh my god, you're so fucking cute. you-- my girlfriend who happens to, in fact, already be the beat girlfriend in the world-- are gonna get the biggest kiss of your life.

Malia: :) cause it kinda is a cult. ya shoulda seen me and at the college tailgates back home. bama colors are crimson, white, and grey. so definitely not pink. y'know, this is probably gonna be just as hard for me. you're very distracting. 😘 and that's okay

Malia: how many binders would that make it?? 64? 44? something like that? (it makes me feel very special that you'd go and do research on it n' stuff, btw)

Malia: 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

Rachel: awww you're thinking about me. that's so cute!!!

Rachel: the biggest kiss of my life? that's quite the promise. I can think of at least two kisses that are almost impossible to be topped. also I can't possibly be the best girlfriend if you exist.

Rachel: okay, now I'm worried. tailgates do sound fun. should we have one of those here? of sorts anyway. I think Ryan would probably enjoy them too. but okay, crimson, white and grey - it's incredibly unimaginative as far as colors go, but I think I can make something work. I'm assuming there will be no funny business during the games? I'm very fine with being distracting.

Rachel: I'm starting to lose count, actually. I believe that would be eight? (you are very special, and I just want to be involved in your life. it's important to me. even more so if it makes you happy)

Malia: yeah, i don't think that's ever gonna get old 😘😘😘

Malia: unf, love how you, as the girlfriend, pointed out that you are, in fact, the girlfriend~

Malia: college football, to be exact. it's not just sports, its a LIFESTYLE. i'm takin' all my bama paraphernalia out for this. and on game days, we gotta wear their colors. and yes! you do gotta watch the whole thing. or at least sit with me while i do.

Malia: research?

Malia: 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

Rachel: absolutely not. I've been thinking about it almost exclusively since friday and it only gets better with time

Rachel: well, it's important to me, as the girlfriend, to show that I, the girlfriend, take the position of girlfriend very seriously. I love the girlfriend title and I'll do my best to be the best girlfriend in the world.

Rachel: why do I feel like I'm getting sucked into a cult? first of all, what are the colors I should be wearing? Something tells me it isn't pink. and I'll promise to make an effort to watch and be with you the entire time (the last bit should be quite easy). I'm just... not really a sports gal.

Rachel: yes, on 'bama' and college football in general. it might be reason for a new binder if it's this important to you.

Rachel: 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

[ after The Talk™ on the night of 8/23 ]

Malia: hey, guess what

Malia: i love you :)))

Malia: also, football season is about to be here, so ya best prepare yourself for the fuckton of 'Bama couture. and yes, it is ~couture~

Malia: 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

Rachel: I love you too 😘😘😘

Rachel: also you're adorable and I'l never get tired of saying that

Rachel: sports, right! I know that. I assume that I, as the girlfriend, am expected to watch the entire thing, correct?

Rachel: I should probably start my research

Malia: then I appreciate you and how understanding you are xforever~ but yeah, seriously. first pillar and all. (I've been in my head a lot lately... especially after that night with sue and her stupid lecture. and russell's been on my mind too. so it's not really..helping with feeling confident about my place. ) ❤❤❤❤

Malia: 😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘

Malia: !! if you're up for the challenge then abso-fucking-lutely, we should work on that!!

Malia: 🥰🥰☺️🥰🥰 thank you, queen.

Malia: unf, yes. 💖💖 its officially friday and I'm officially retiring my domme hat, it's been a wild ride, and I'm /so/ ready to be your submissive again.

Malia: you're amazing, jsyk. yeah, I wanna take you out. I owe you a date, too. so..i figured we could knock it all out in one evening. I already asked Ry if I could borrow her truck. racing like...bad juju racing? scared racing? cause I'm scared too, if it is.

Rachel: you're so cute. and amazing and thank you. (don't listen to sue, don't listen to your father, listen to me, okay? I want you around me all the time and I mean that more than I've ever meant anything else) ❤❤❤❤❤

Rachel: 😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘

Rachel: what do you mean if I'm up to the challenge? why wouldn't I be up the challenge??? we're doing it.

Rachel: you're very welcome princess. 💖

Rachel: and I'm more than ready to be your domme. it was fun for a while, but please let's not do that again for the foreseeable future. And I do need you to dominate you like crazy right now.

Malia: okay..yes, dope, perfect. have I told you this week how much I appreciate how understanding you are? (right..right, yeah. okay, sorry. I understand. I just second guess stuff a lot. I'm not.. like..doubting you or anything.) dope ❤

Malia: 😘😘😘😘😘😘😘

Malia: for the record, I could never have enough orgasms. did ya have somethin' in mind for this 'something else'?

Malia: yeah? like what?

Malia: yes, yes I am!! And I'm sure it'll bite me in the ass later but it's a risk I'm willing to take. 💖💖

Malia: you make me wanna be a better submissive. and I think this whole.../thing/, awkward and all, is helping me too. Mm maybe not as SOON as we switch back? We switch back Friday but after classes, I wanna take you out. If I remember correctly, we've got some talkin' to do, right? but after, I'm all yours to bruise up. If um...it goes okay.

Malia: for you, yeah 💖💖💖

Rachel: maybe once or twice, but I could hear you say that forever~ but seriously? people call me many things. understanding isn't often one of them, so thank you. (you don't have to apologize for that, I'm just confused sometimes over your insecurities. I'm usually the insecure one) ❤ ❤ ❤

Rachel: 😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘

Rachel: I believe we've been through that before and I think we agreed on trying to check how many orgasms you could have. we should work on that. nothing specific, no, but we could get creative if it came to that.

Rachel: you succeed in driving me crazy in the best way, for starters. you also succeed at being the most friendly and outgoing person I've ever met, a talented artist and a fantastic friend.

Rachel: oh, I'm most definitely going to be biting you in the ass 💖💖

Rachel: I know you don't believe it when I say it, but you're already a fantastic one. but I'm always going to support someone trying to be better, and if I can help in any way, I will. You want to take me out? Uh, yeah, that would be lovely, I think. There's too much we should talk about but I've kind of been trying not to think about it at all, you know? my heart starts racing every time I do.

Malia: maybe we can do something small, just enough to make it all ~spicy~. like me spanking you or something. with my hand, not like, a paddle or anything. I dunno how to use those. (how??) that makes sense, for sure, queen. maybe this weekend we can go check some places out?

Malia: 😘😘😘😘😘

Malia: compensation in the form of orgasms, duhh

Malia: don't mind me, i'm just gonna take a screenshot of that and hang onto it just in case I hear from Russell. itll give him a heart attack knowing someone told me I succeed at something 😁

Malia: i mean, you are pretty great at everything you do, except for maybe pizza choices but that's neither here nor there :)

Malia: you were already an amazing one to begin with, just so ya know. but i am glad this is benefiting you. i'm sure it goes without saying that i miss you hurting me. i miss your bruises. all the ones from before we switched are damn near faded and it's a travesty. (you're cute when you say dope)

Malia: 😛😛 and i'm hella lucky to be in yours

Rachel: that works for me! And if you don't know how to use a paddle than we don't have to at all, a hand is more than okay. (it just is. I always want to spend time with you malia. I can't even understand why I wouldn't want to by my side for anything, but specially something as important as that) I would absolutely love that, yes

Rachel: 😘😘😘😘😘😘

Rachel: aren't you getting enough of those? I thought you might want something else.

Rachel: haha, please do. I'll be more than happy to help you act revenge on your sperm donor. but jsyk, you succeed at many things.

Rachel: are you really going there again now that I lost my Domme powers? wow

Rachel: maybe, but if I want to be perfect, I have to keep improving, you know? and that improvement might be worth a few days of awkwardness. as soon as we switch back, I'm gonna cover you in my bruises again. I want you having trouble to walk for a week.

Malia: hmmm if ya say so

Malia: uh yeah, i'm sure. (no it's not) you've got a point, rachel berry with a star at the end. i'll say this then-- if you /do/ wanna switch it up, let me know? as your PR person, i can only make recs and hope u dont...wreck~

Malia: 😇😇😇

Malia: whew, i thought i was gonna have act all offended and demand compensation

Malia: i try to be

Malia: i feel like this is a trap question!!! and also no!! you've never not been great at something, i think!

Malia: a few more days..okay, yeah, we can do that. i'm getting a lot of perspective, that's for sure. !! that last bit sounds dope as fuck!!

Malia: 💋💋💋💋 y'know me, i'm benevolent like that

Rachel: we don't have to do it if you're not comfortable with it, you know? (yes it is) that's a good compromise, yes. I do want to eventually learn new stuff, maybe post a few recent covers on social media, but if I'm singing live, I have to sing what speaks to me, you know?

Rachel: 😘😘😘😘

Rachel: and what kind of compensation would you have demanded?

Rachel: you succeed

Rachel: I wouldn't call it a trap question exactly, but if you hadn't answered correctly, I would've been offended

Rachel: same here. I think I'm gonna be a much better domme once this is over. I didn't see this coming, but I'm grateful for it. even if I miss hurting you a little bit. and dope it shall be!!

It def brings me back to when I was still a Switch and I was experimenting with both sides of my mark. I’m def enjoying myself, but I won’t feel completely at peace until I’m back in my place as a submissive. I bet it’s easier because you’ve got Malia tho, yeah?

That’s the thing, I thought my Switchness would help me but so far it really hasn’t. I don’t really feel the way I did when I submitted before, you know? It’s very weird and I’m trying to figure out what that means to me. And yes, Malia makes everything much easier, actually. I’m very thankful for her.

I really do commend you for taking the plunge and participating in this event, Rachel. I’m sure you can find something making this worth it though, hm?

Oh, the experience is worth it. I’m learning a lot, not only about myself but D/s in general, which I’m very thankful for. I just didn’t expect it. I thought it was only going to be a fun game between Dom and Sub, but it’s turning out to be a lot more than that.

Nah girl, I’m right there with ya. You being denied too?

Ha, no, thankfully not. Malia and I don’t do denial at all. We might do edging here and there but it’s as far as it goes. We prefer to exert control in different, less frustrating way. My struggles are more about my difficulty in giving up decision-making privileges.

I feel the same way about being Dominant! Much more difficult than I had realized. I mean, I know it’s not the exact same, but I’m struggling to be the one in control. It’s a lotta responsibility and I gotta come up with stuff to keep my submissive busy and make sure she’s having a good time. Which, don’t get me wrong, I enjoy it and her, but there’s a lot of pressure to be the one she’s depending on for things. 

Are you doing okay? You seem alittle sad about this realization.

I wouldn’t say that I’m sad, no. More like contemplative. I find myself missing those responsibilities you’re struggling with, and I didn’t think I would, at least not this badly. I keep wondering how much of this is simply my nature or how much of it is getting used to one role or the other, because I really didn’t picture myself feeling like this before I came to this school.

Malia: to surprise you, duhh

Malia: oh! we can uh...make that happen! (i disagree, wholeheartedly) you're not wrong, that's for sure! /But/ we're tryna maximize profit here, aren't we? Exposure and all that?

Malia: Oh for sure! I like being spoiled and you like spoiling me :)

Malia: 💖💖💖💖💖💖 hey, you're making it sound like i chase punishments and not just funishments.

Malia: i want to. for you.

Malia: !! I'll be the judge of that

Malia: do you..want to stop the whole role reversal thing? 'Cause like, we can. This is super weird for me too. Like, I'm tryin' 'cause I don't wanna let you down. And yeah, it has its hot moments. But afterwards, it's just...exhausting, in a way? Topping you is different from domming you and i much prefer the former, if i'm bein' honest.

Malia: i'm gonna take that and run with it, y'know.

Malia: 💖💖💖

Rachel: but that's different! I can know everything there is to know about you (I don't) and you can still find ways to surprise me (you do). I wouldn't worry about that.

Rachel: are you sure? we don't have to (I believe that's my call to make) we are, but I don't know if I /want/ to sing anything other than what I already love. I just can't picture myself singing ariana or lizzo or what have you

Rachel: more than anything, yes :)

Rachel: haha I didn't mean it like that, and it would be a lie anyway. besides, I really don't care when you chase funishments.

Rachel: you're the best, you know?

Rachel: have I ever not been great at something????

Rachel: I think we should at least try to keep it going for a few more days. It's important for both of us what is it like to be in the other's position, you know? It's exhausting for me too, but I think in the end it might be worth it. besides, we'll get to make up for lost time, so.

Rachel: I was hoping that you would ;)

You’re definitely not the only one going through that sort of thought process, Rachel. This week has been fun so far, don’t get me wrong, but it’s also been really tiring. Like kind of draining in a way that I hadn’t been expecting.

Oh, it’s definitely fun, I just didn’t expect to face a mild existential crisis after a couple of days. I think it might be tiring because we have to actively make a few decisions that are very different from the ones we usually make, whereas acting Dominant comes naturally. It’s always going to be more taxing being something you are not. I didn’t expect this at all, but I guess it makes sense.