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rory sort of represents steven in a way as he’s familiar. everything she SHOULD want because he’s stable, nice, and would fit everything she’s been trying to accomplish to be perfect.

while ellis represents what joe was to goldie. even though annie was ‘with’ rory she felt pulled towards ellis. where she doesn’t have to be perfect, she can talk at him, be vulnerable, and he’ll get it. he’ll listen, he’ll comfort her and be the quiet presence she needs. he waited patiently, even if he was a bit sassy with it sometimes, yearned and in the end he got her because of it.

summary: you’re having a rough night with your family and need a break, so you leave the house and end up at ellis’ place. he doesn’t ask too many questions, he just lets you stay and makes sure you know you don’t have to be alone.

pairings: ellis x fem!reader

a/n: hello guys… i know i always disappear and IM SORRYYYYY but im currently so obsessed with this show! i loved itt and where the fuck are the fics????? so here i am making one i might also make one for ramona because i love her. ramona and ellis might be my favs… UHH ok i hope you guys enjoy my ass writing and don’t forget to send requests!!! omg school starting for me again.. fml.

you hadn’t really planned on going anywhere but you just knew you couldn’t stay in your house anymore. everything your family did was just making out mad and they just judged you for everything and never helped you.

the argument had started over something stupid, like most arguments with your family did. it was always something small that somehow turned into something bigger, and before you knew it, you were standing in your room with your eyes burning and your chest feeling tight.

you grabbed your hoodie and left before anyone could stop you and didn’t even think about where you were going until you were already halfway there.

ellis.

for some reason, whenever you were having a bad day, he was the first person you thought about. you didn’t even know if he was home, or if he’d even want you showing up this late, but you still kept walking.

and by the time you got to his house, you were already regretting it. You stood on his porch for a few seconds, staring at the door.

“fuck.” you almost turned around because you suddenly thought this was a bad idea.. what if he’s not up?

then the door opened.

and the second ellis opened the door and saw you standing there, he knew something was wrong. you were trying so hard to keep your face straight, but your eyes were already red and there were still tears sitting on your cheeks. you looked away from him quickly, wiping your face with the sleeve of your hoodie like you could somehow pretend he hadn’t noticed.

“hey,” he said quietly.

you looked down, wiping your cheek with the sleeve of your hoodie. “hi.”

ellis didn’t ask what happened. he’d known you long enough to know that if you wanted to talk about it, you would. instead, he stepped aside and opened the door wider for you.

“come in.”

you walked past him, keeping your head down as he shut the door behind you. for a second, neither of you said anything. you stood there awkwardly in the middle of his living room, suddenly wondering if coming here had been a stupid idea.

ellis looked at you again before walking over and gently taking your hand. “come on,” he said softly. “sit down.”

he led you over to the couch and sat beside you, leaving enough space for you to move closer if you wanted to. you stared down at your hands, trying to keep yourself together, but the second you felt his hand rest against your back, your eyes started filling up again.

“hey,” he murmured, holding your hand. “it’s okay.”

you shook your head, trying to laugh it off even though your voice came out shaky. “i’m sorry. i don’t even know why i’m here.”

“you don’t have to be sorry.”

that makes you look at him

“you can come here whenever you want.” he says it in the most soft voice ever.

that was enough to make another tear fall, and you quickly wiped it away. ellis didn’t say anything about it. he just stayed beside you, his hand still resting in yours like he wasn’t going anywhere.

after a few quiet seconds, you leaned against him, resting your head on his shoulder. he shifted slightly so you could get comfortable, then looked down at you.

“you wanna tell me what happened?”

you were quiet for a moment, staring down at your hands before finally letting out a shaky breath. “it’s just my family. we got into this huge argument and i know it’s probably stupid, but i just—i don’t know. i feel like everything is my fault. maybe if i had just kept my mouth shut, none of it would’ve happened and i wouldn’t have made everything worse.”

ellis frowned slightly, watching you as you kept talking before you could even give yourself a second to breathe.

“and i know i shouldn’t have left, because now they’re probably even more pissed at me, and i should’ve just stayed there and dealt with it. i always do this, i make everything worse and then i run away when things get hard and—”

“hey.”

you stopped.

ellis was looking at you, his expression soft but serious. “it’s not your fault.”

you opened your mouth, but he shook his head before you could argue with him.

“no. don’t do that,” he said quietly. “don’t sit here and blame yourself for everything just because you’re upset.”

you looked away, blinking quickly as your eyes started filling with tears again. “but i could’ve handled it better.”

“maybe,” he said, not trying to completely dismiss what you were saying. “but that doesn’t mean you deserved to feel like this.”

you stayed quiet, rubbing your sleeve between your fingers.

“you needed a break,” he continued. “so you took one. that’s all.”

“i just hate that i can’t fix anything.” you said looking away from him you just couldn’t look.

“you don’t have to fix it tonight.”

but that made you look up at him again..

ellis gave you a small shrug, his hand moving back to your arm. “you came here because you needed somewhere to go. so stay.”

your lip trembled slightly, and you quickly looked down again. “i’m sorry,” you whispered.

“for what?”

“for showing up like this.”

he almost looked confused by that. “you don’t have to apologize for coming to me.”

that finally broke whatever little bit of composure you had left. you covered your face with your hands, letting out a quiet, shaky breath as the tears started falling again.

ellis didn’t say anything for a moment. but seeing you cry?? he didn’t hesitate and pulled you into his arms immediately. you moved closer, letting him pull you into his chest as his arms wrapped around you.

you buried your face against his shoulder, gripping the back of his hoodie while he held you tightly.

ellis rested his chin lightly against the top of your head, one hand moving slowly up and down your back.

you stayed there for a while, tucked against his chest, listening to the quiet sound of his breathing. slowly, the tight feeling in your chest started to fade, and you finally pulled back just enough to look at him.

ellis looked down at you, his hand still resting against your back. neither of you said anything for a moment. you were still close, and you could feel his eyes moving over your face like he was making sure you were actually okay.

“you okay?” he asked quietly.

you nodded. “yeah. a little.”

he smiled softly. “good.”

neither of you moved. you looked down for a second, suddenly nervous about how close you still were. when you looked back up, ellis was already looking at you.

“what?” you asked quietly.

“nothing.”

you gave him a small smile. “you’re staring.”

“i know.”

you laughed quietly, shaking your head. “you’re weird.”

“yeah, probably.” there was another quiet moment, but this one felt different. ellis looked at you for another second before his eyes dropped to your lips. he hesitated, almost like he was giving you the chance to move away.

you didn’t.

instead, he leaned closer and kissed you.. the kiss was soft and quick because he wanted to make sure you wanted this and he didn’t just make a mistake. “sorry,” he murmured. “i just—”

you shook your head, cutting him off. “don’t be.”

he smiled a little. you looked at him for another second before quietly saying, “do that again.”

ellis didn’t need to be told twice. he leaned in and kissed you again, and this time you smiled against him, your hand lightly gripping the sleeve of his hoodie.

You shift your weight on top of him, and he seems to go still for half a second like he’s trying to catch up with how close you are. then his arms tighten on your waist without letting it break. his mouth deepens against yours, slow and warm, like he’s savoring every second he gets.

you rock gently, and he makes a soft sound right into the kiss, breathing unevenly as his hand slides to your thigh and holds you there. when you pause, even for a moment, he doesn’t let the moment pass he cups your face with his other hand and presses closer, forehead brushing yours as he kisses you again, longer this time.

and for the first time that night, you didn’t feel like you needed to go anywhere.

Sterling Point is two for two with incredible romances and the build-up leading to each respective couple’s first kiss. We get a gorgeous one between Ramona and Oona in “I’m Not a Shots Girl Either” that I still can’t stop thinking about, and the first kiss between Annie and Ellis in the closet is slow burn perfection.

Can I just talk for a bit about how Olivia and Peter have these affectionate gestures with each other. Like they’ll put their foreheads together, or Peter will bump Olivia with his nose, or Olivia will get her head beneath Peter’s chin. They’re these cute little things for love & comfort.

There are more gestures these two have, but I’ve made my spiel. If anyone wants to add gifs, or other stuff to this list please do. :)

(I think all these gifs are chronological, definitely by seasons)