(I Have Questions)

they should invent a yourself you can forgive

Stratt choosing sign of the times as her song still makes me sick. It's so full of the refrain that this will pass, that they'll get out of it, that no matter how bad things get there's light somewhere in the dark. And she's standing there, still in front of the room, still the director, offering reassurance and support to a crew that even now she doesn't join, and she knows she's going to spend the rest of her life paying for this mission. She's uniquely trapped here, she won't die, but she won't get to live, either. Her crew will move on, her astronauts will be far enough away never to feel Earth cool, but Stratt? Stratt gets to sit in limbo, watching the sun dim and unable to do anything more, suffering for these few years of radical action via decades of stagnation. She's boxed in, she's stuck, she's standing at the front of the room and she's singing kareoke and she's the most powerful person in the world and she can't sit down for a drink on the ship she owns with the people she's sending to die. And she still sings. Because she's ok with that. She's accepted that. She knows the price and she pays it happily. Everything's going to be alright because she stopped mattering a very long time ago.

being aroace is wanting to grow up and have someone who just lives with u and you have a cat together. No relationship or feelings and that stuff but I get lonely and like cats.

being aroace is wanting to grow up and have someone who just lives with u and you have a cat together. No relationship or feelings and that stuff but I get lonely and like cats.

being aroace is wanting to grow up and have someone who just lives with u and you have a cat together. No relationship or feelings and that stuff but I get lonely and like cats.

being aroace is wanting to grow up and have someone who just lives with u and you have a cat together. No relationship or feelings and that stuff but I get lonely and like cats.

the fact that on my way out of seeing the hadestown proshot with my sibling i was walking to the theater exit and without even thinking about it i turned around to see where they were... yeah. yeah.

like. you can be frustrated at orpheus. you can be heartbroken for orpheus and eurydice. you should be. but when you're walking together and your loved one isn't right next to you that instinct to turn around and check on them is as natural as breathing

Jesus christ I love humanity

i could never handle immortality not because of any existential reasons but because i know itd make my procrastination so much worse. catch me putting off tasks for decades. catch me putting off tasks for centuries. what do you mean that movie ive been meaning to get around to became lost media 40 years ago. what do you mean that landmark ive been meaning to visit has been eroded. oooh i got PLANY of time..............

for my non-german mutuals please be aware that Scherz means joke in German

I think eva stratt has detailed files on all petrova taskforce personnel that contain more information about their subjects than the subjects even know about themselves. several people in her employ have mild food allergies that she noted and had cut out of their diets via requests to the catering staff but that the people themselves have never consciously noticed, ilyukhina just thought she stopped getting regular stomach aches when she arrived on the vat because she's god's specialest engineer and not because all the dairy in her diet got swapped out for alternatives. grace does some shopping on the mainland at one point and doesn't realize he bought a different scent of moisturizer than usual so stratt just goes into his room and switches it with a hypoallergenic formula in an identical bottle. this is because she has never been normal about anything in her life.

who up wasting their only shot at life through complete and utter inaction

It's always fun when an author claims their work contains no politics, because either they're blatantly lying, or they genuinely think they're telling the truth and you get a lot of insight into what assertions about human nature they regard as so obviously and self-evidently true as to lie outside the political sphere.