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I want to say with all my heart, THANK YOU!  THANK YOU, EVERYONE! Thanks to all your donations I was able to get myself out of the negative and get rent paid in time.  Thank you so much!  I love you all and don’t know what I can possibly say to express how thankful I am to ya’ll.

With that said, if you donated, I want to thank you with a physical gift, even if you’re in other parts of the country, so I’m going to use some of the extra money I got from donations to send physical gifts to all interested.

WHY IS MY LUCK SO FUCKING BAD?!?!  WHAT FRIKKIN’ WITCH DID I PISS OFF TO GET THIS FUCKING CURSE?!?!

Furry Fiesta didn’t pan out as well as I’d hoped for.

The hotel charged $840 to my card and that was well over the cost of my room.  They’re supposed to be refunding it… but who knows when that’ll hit my account, which was put in the negative BECAUSE OF THIS.

My car got towed go for being in GUEST PARKING!  Which I had to pay like $200 to get out of the impound,

And now I’ve gotten a letter from the IRS saying my entire tax return is being applied to child support I owe.  The thing is I DON’T OWE CHILD SUPPORT!  Child Support has been deducted out of my paychecks since it started.  I SHOULDN’T OWE ANYTHING!!!  WHAT IN THE F IS GOING ON AND WHY DOES THIS GARBAGE ALWAYS HAPPEN TO ME?!?!

I’m broke, I’m stressed, and I have rent due.

If you ever purchase a game made by me, and your access to it is cut off due to the distribution platform you bought it from being shut down or otherwise discontinued, I will provide you with a completely DRM free copy of that game for no charge.

It’s currently free, but, and I can’t believe I’m saying this, WILL BECOME PAID DLC ON JANUARY 24.

Seriously, where’s games media when shit like this happens? Oh right, it’s a non-issue because it’s not encouraging “childhood gambling.”

Not to say that it’s not also a problem. Just be consistent about what is cancerous to consumers and what isn’t.

And while we’re on this topic, how did we not get Super Sonic in the base game? This seems like a more shrewd version of Capcom’s on-disc DLC debacle...which yet again, was done by a non-Western game company.

I think it’s about time I open up a bit more about what’s going on in my life.

My marriage has been rocky for the last couple years.

Ever since my wife got diagnosised with bi-polar disordered, she’s decided it gives her an excuse to do whatever the hell she wants.

She started spending all the money I made, even getting us evicted out of our last home, because she decided to spend the money I made to pay rent claiming “She didn’t care if it was for rent or not.”

She’s treated me horrendously, often bad mouthing to my face and in front of people.  Yelling at my daughter for no reason.  Spending money on stupid stuff we can’t afford, and just generally making everyone around her severely unhappy.

But if we say anything about it, her reply is always “I have bi-polar disorder, you can’t get mad at me for this stuff.”

We’ve been living with her parents for like a year and I finally had enough and told her I wanted a separation.

Unfortunately leaving hasn’t been easy, and a bunch of things keep be from moving out.

I was begged to stay for a while, since soon after I told my wife I was leaving, we found out her grandfather, my daughter’s great grandfather, was put in the hospital in critical condition… and giving my daughter a 1-2 punched of me leaving and her great grandfather possibly dying (fortunately he didn’t, but at the time we didn’t know that) was not something I wanted to do.

When things calmed down, I decided to talk to my daughter about me leaving, only to find out that despite being told not to do it at the time, my wife went ahead and talked to her about it claiming I wasn’t “man enough” to talk to AJ (my daughter) about it.  Pretty much she was trying to manipulate the whole situation to make me look bad in front of my daughter.

Fortunately for me, I have a very smart daughter, because she didn’t buy what her mom told her for a second, and was happy to hear my side of the story, even going as far as to tell me she doesn’t blame me for leaving her mom, because she, much like me, feels her mom has gone nuts.

So again, I prepare to leave soon… only to get arrest for traffic tickets and put in jail.  I got bailed out of jail, but I was told I could leave my current address until my court date of June 5th.  Sigh…

So in the mean time I also found out that because of my wife getting us evicted and all the other credit issues she’s caused me, that I can’t get an apartment on my own.

My friend Sean stepped in to see if he could get a two bedroom at his apartment complex (which he’s been at for 8 years) and have me move in with him.  He asked the complex and they setup everything saying that since he’s been there for so long, they’d let me live there based on his standing with the place.  Sounded perfect.  This wouldn’t just give me a place to live, but also allow me to fix my renters history.

So they asked that I filled an application for legal reasons, but said there shouldn’t be any trouble.  Go to the complex to do this, and seemly what they told us was bullshit, because they told us that since I was evicted I couldn’t live there, even though Sean told them about it in the first place.

To make matters worse, they planned for Sean to move into the new apartment despite me not signing an application yet, and already rented out his current apartment.  Meaning that he now has to move too.

They said they’ll find him a new apartment to live at in the complex, but he’ll still have to move regardless, which is fucking shitty.

So I’m talking with some people to see if there’s anything I can do to fix my renters history… but if there’s not, then essentially I won’t have a place to live and Sean will still get screwed over in the fact he’ll have to move for virtually no reason.

It’s bad enough that bad things just seem to happen to me, but it’s even more upsetting that a friend is practically getting screwed over just for trying to help me.  I’m very upset to say the least.

I have a back up plan of what to do if things don’t work out with living with Sean… but I’m still very upset about everything.

I feel so empty inside.

Sorry for this long winded emo as fuck post, but I figured you guys may want to know what’s going on.

Well, remember how I said my friend was trying to get me as a roommate, because his apartment said I’d be fine since he was in such good standard with them.  Well, it got worse.  Apartment complex doesn’t have any one bedrooms to move him into, so he either has to take the two bedroom he can’t afford on his own, or move out (which he doesn’t have time to do).

So I go to the apartment I was evicted from to see what I owe and if there’s anything I can do about it.  Seemly I owe $4,222 to get the eviction off, and that’s the only way to get it off.  But they sent it to a debt collector, and since debt collectors are often more interested in getting money rather than the exact amount of the debt, I figured I’d call them and they might make me a deal.  NOPE! 

Not just that, but seemly another apartment complex, that isn’t showing on my renter’s history I might add, is also claiming I got evicted (when I didn’t) and sent it to the same collection agency.  That agency is refusing to let me just pay one of the debts owed and forcing me to pay both that totals to $8k, and don’t give a shit that one of them is bullshit.  They won’t let my eviction get removed unless I pay the entire $8k and won’t even do a payment plan with me.  It’s so fucked up.

 So unless Sean or I can pull $8K out of our ass, he gets screwed. 

I was so upset, I made myself sick and had to call into work. >_<

I hate asking for help or donations, because some asshat always gives me grief for it, but I don’t know what to do.  I don’t want Sean to get screwed over and I need out of my situation and I’m literally at my wits end.

That is absolutely insane! I don’t even know if that sort of combo is that impossible to recover from when playing Puyo Puyo in this game, so I am ill-informed. Even still, that seems like a serious balance issue in Puyo Puyo Tetris. I’m pretty touchy when it comes to diversity in competitive gaming, but when I see that there’s one choice or the other, and that other choice loses games that badly, during the Top cut of players the game’s not Puyo Puyo Tetris anymore...it’s just Puyo Puyo.

https://www.yahoo.com/movies/tiffcom-henshin-developing-film-based-klonoa-video-games-222424862.html

TIFFCOM: Henshin Developing Film Based on ‘Klonoa’ Video Games

Great news for the Klonoa 3 project: I now have the aid of fellow Klonoa fan Pikewin from Untamed Heart, who had previously attempted making his own version of Klonoa 3. He’s now in charge of coding for the project, and he’s already managed to massively improve the scripts I had had written.

Modeling and animation will still be handled by yours truly, as well as setting up the animation controls within Unity. And this will free me up to work more on the visual side, as well as working on my original game.

Right now he’s working on this out of pure passion like myself, but if I receive any crowdfunding donations a portion will go toward him for his time and effort.

I know many of you artists - whether you draw, write, or compose - are frustrated that your original work, especially your dream projects, aren’t getting the responses you were hoping for.

I feel the same way.

But some of you express your frustrations completely destructively and blame the world for not giving you the spotlight.

When you do that, you’re blaming your problems for existing rather than adjusting and compromising to solve them. You’re making excuses for your mistakes. You’re demanding the world to change but you are not willing to change with it.

This is the perfect mindset to NEVER succeed in anything, ever.

You need to accept some basic truths of art before you can go any further:

Your art should teach you as much as or more than it teaches others: If you claim your art opens horizons and widens minds, yours should be the first priority. You cannot speak without listening. You are not a righteous prophet enlightening the heathens with the true word. You are one humble person and your art is one humble person’s story.

There are no new stories, but there are always new storytellers. That amazing idea you have that nobody’s ever thought of before? Someone has. But nobody has told the story your way, or drawn the character your way, or sung the song your way. Art is not about being new. It is about being you.

Popular art is all about the beholder. All these shows and games with so much fan art? They got to that level because they command a personal investment from and serve the viewer - they have worlds their fans want to be part of, and your canon will be swept aside along the way. You the artist are not a god or a wise sage. You are a guide and a footman. To be an artist is to be humanity’s servant, not its lord - and there’s no shame in that.

Most of your fans are not artists or art critics. While there will be a good number of them in your fanbase, the vast majority are not going to be super-open-minded creative thinkers who value every single opinion, outlook, and story just because it’s done technically well. They will be ordinary people with ordinary, selfish interests, and they will care about your content more than your talent. You have to balance what you want to draw with what everyone wants to see.

But the most important part of being an artist or really a person at all is to understand this:

Nobody owes you success.

Nobody is under any obligation to pay anything you produce a second glance or support or promote it in any way.

Nobody is spiting or robbing you by not giving you a like or a reblog or a follow.

Every single gesture of appreciation you receive from someone is a courtesy - a gift that you earn, not a right you’re entitled to.

It is not the job of your audience to love your work. It is your job to make it lovable. And just because you are working really hard does not mean you are working in the right direction.

I know that thousands upon thousands of artists put hours or months or years into a project and feel like they get nothing in return. Sometimes it is not how hard you’re working but what you’re working for that is the problem. 

Sometimes you need to slow down and think, “Do I have to have this just so? What would the kind of person interested in my work be looking for, and where can I address it? Am I maybe taking myself and my work a little too seriously?” 

And a lot of artists don’t realize that as an amateur, you are the sole proprietor - you are your art. Whether people like you determines whether they like your art.

And that’s why when you blame everybody else and post ungrateful, catty garbage like this:

… you don’t subsequently become the next Toby Fox.

The simple fact is that people will pay you attention if they think your offering + your hassle are worth their attention.

You need to create a world that someone other than you will have fun in and you need to be a good host to everyone who visits. 

You need a world that will welcome your fans with open arms.

You need to build a world people can live & play in.

And you and your world need to appreciate your fans just for showing up.

Because this is exactly what the big fish do.

because they spread your work around to more people without shanking you on credit and who gets the likes

because they make your work show up sooner & more often on searches and are simply a nice gesture

because they take time out and pay good money to listen to your story and make you from a pauper into a prince

The reason I’m replying, however, is something that I feel I need to ask for the sake of my mate. You say about how you should appreciate the fans, but at the very same time, I don’t recall if you’ve talked about what to do when you don’t even have one single fan TO appreciate. It’s fair that you may not have addressed every single scenario, but that’s why I figured I’d ask this genuinely and not out of bitterness.

Also, I want to ask this. I understand the need to simply be happy with the content you create, but what happens when your Patreon is a barren desert of zero funds? What happens when absolutely zero commissions are asked? More generally, what does a content creator even do when “happiness just doesn’t pay you the bills?“, as my mate put it.

Okay, just chill. Everybody chill! We all need to calm down and resolve conflict like mature adults. Don't be ashamed to say somebody is wrong, but be VERY ashamed to make it your civic duty to ruin their life.