i’ve had eczema my whole life. In photos of when I was a little baby, you can see red patches on my face. That shit was eczema. When I was in elementary school I had eczema on the inside of my elbows and always had chapped lips. When my parents got divorced I was 10 years old and my mom started dating a new man instantly. My life changed drastically and I began to have eczema on my testicles and on my penis, as well as on my hands, face, neck, legs, chest, arms... I’ve tried so many different things to help treat it but it’s still a problem. I think it’s stress. I can’t think of anything else it might be. The only time it’s really bad is if it’s the middle of winter and I’m not getting enough sleep, I’m drinking too much alcohol, smoking too much weed and too many cigarettes and jerking off too much, which is exactly my situation. I think I must be addicted to masturbating because when I feel like I need to jerk off, I do. It only happens at home, usually triggered by some suggestive photo or an erotic memory. I try to stay warm, I try to drink as much water as possible. My diet is literal garbage tho and I feel like that is a big part of why my skin is so terrible. I get so depressed sometimes about my skin because it’s never clear or totally fine. It’s always “oh not as bad as last week”, never “oh my god, my skin is totally clear!!”. I can handle the eczema in most places but my cock. its so fucking itchy and its not easy to scratch a flaccid penis. typing about it is making it more itchy. I fucking hate this shit. I take vitamins, I drink water, I get lots of sleep, I don’t shower very much and lately I smell pretty awful but that’s because I sit in a chair all fucking day and work alone, and its so fucking cold in my house that i never wanna take off my clothes to shower. I would go to the pool but I’m not gonna go just to take a shower, I’m gonna wanna go in the hot tub and chill, but the hot water and chlorine dries me out so much and makes my skin even worse. So what the fuck!!! It’s a cycle, check it out: Skin gets bad, I get depressed, I get high, I get hungry, I am too lazy to cook a healthy meal and too stoned to drive to a restaurant and usually it’s too late anyways, I walk to the grocery, I buy chips and chocolate, I eat that shit, I go to bed, I wake up, I feel depressed, I see a sexy butt on instagram, I miss my girl, I jerk off, the skin on my penis is dry and irritated and cracked, I bleed, I cum, I bleed more, I use toilet paper to wipe up, I look at the blood and the cum, I inhale and exhale, I can feel the tears behind my eyes but I swallow them. It’s gonna get better, right? I feel like I’m living in literal hell. It could be worse. I could have a life threatening disease, sure. I could have my lower half of my body amputated and I wouldn’t even have a dick at all. I should be better at taking care of my body. at least I have 100% of it right? Wow. That turned around quickly. Still depressed tho.
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