will ezra ever feel like he’s mine? i wake up and i go to sleep and everything is a fog, just day in and day out. everything’s blurry and no matter how often i rub my eyes or clean my glasses or fix my contacts, i can’t get it right. it’s on and off. sometimes, things feel okay. the other day, i woke up and hayley and i had sex in the shower and i made her and the kids breakfast and we ate outside in the sun and it was good. it felt normal. we felt like us--we felt like the williams family again. tonight, i feel off. i feel separated; me, here, on my own. them, there, together and safe. i don’t know how to fix it. i might be too tired to fix it.
that’s all.











