Polylingual Mess

Do you like worldbuilding as much as I like it? I adore creating characters and items, and thinking about places and spaces, emotional events, everyday routines and action scenes. And now I have a quite massive project on my mind that I've started to think about early in 2023, and got an art directional advice from one of my leads at the time (who is an awesome artist himself) and made a pack of drafts and a couple of fully painted character concepts and did a lot of writing. But in the meantime I got really sick for a month, burned out, got really sick again and spent a lot of time and money on tests, left my job, almost froze to the bones in winter, fled from the war to another country, started to learn new language, then recently got some time to finish some other old stuff and now I have at last an opportunity to continue with my big project and should start with everything quick, as I'll need to look for a new job quite soon (we need to eat something and to pay bills, don't we). And here I am, and I'm afraid. Afraid that everything will not be as cool as it is imagined in my head, afraid that I won't reach that high goal that I've established, afraid to get back to my wonderful ex co-workers for their professional advice, and most of all I'm afraid that it would be the project that only I myself like. But anyway. Starting from today I'm going to work on my project: write and sketch, step by step, from small things to something bigger. And I'll find out in the process whether my fears come true, or is it just my anxiety speaking. Wishing everyone who is starting something new all the luck ♥