Tikaani

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A Little Freelancing Spiral

It’s really hot right now and the heatwave is making it hard to sit at my PC and actually work.

So I’ve just been sitting here thinking about freelancing stuff instead.

I’m kind of spiralling a bit with ideas, so this is going to be messy. Just… read it as-is.

I made an ACGGoods shop a while ago: https://acggoods.com/store/tikaani

It’s still empty right now, but I set it up with the idea of maybe selling stickers, charms, and similar merch through Wooacry.

The problem is, I keep hesitating when it comes to actually making designs.

To be honest, I’ve been really unsure about my art this year. And that uncertainty kind of spills into everything else. I don’t really know which OCs I’d even want to turn into merch people could buy — anthro, furry, kemonomimi, human… it all feels a bit disconnected right now.

At the same time, I keep seeing really nice things from other artists:

monthly physical mail clubs

digital newsletters with monthly goodies

themed drops (witches, mermaids, stories, etc.)

Ko-Fi shops

VGen commissions (I’m still trying to get verified TT__TT)

And I like the idea of all of that. I really do.

But I also think monthly stuff might actually be too much pressure for me right now. It sounds structured and nice from the outside, but it also feels like I’d be locking myself into constant output, even on weeks when I don’t have the energy or clarity for it. And I’m not really in a place where I want my art to feel scheduled like that yet.

That, combined with the fact that my social media presence is already inconsistent because I don’t have the energy to post all the time, makes it feel hard to commit to something that demands constant visibility. So it’s hard to imagine breaking through that noise.

There’s also this other thing: I want to go back to conventions next year. Hopefully, my back will be more stable by then. It would be really nice to actually show up with new merch again and be able to afford doing it properly this time.

I think a lot of this is just me trying to figure out what direction I’m even going in, while also wanting things to move forward already.

It all feels a bit stuck between ideas, hesitation, and just not having enough energy to push anything fully yet.

Right now, I don’t really have a conclusion. I just know I’m tired of feeling like I need to be constantly visible to justify making art in the first place.

Curious if other artists have been feeling this tension too — wanting to make art, but not necessarily wanting to become a full-time content creator.

I just know I'm tired of feeling like I need to be constantly visible to justify making art in the first place.