Tiffany Draco

I feel so empty, I want to throw up. Even tho there’s nothing in my system. I know eventually I’ll be okay. Just right now feels like a 600lb weight is sitting on my chest. Instead of blocking him off my socials I left him there. I asked him if we could try again. But he said he can’t promise me he won’t meet someone while he’s away at college. And that hurt. I want to cut so bad, just to feel something other than this rn.

I’ve committed Ana sin by not counting my cals and just shoveling food in my mouth

Like the true fatass I am by nature 😵‍💫

I’m going to mentally fuck myself up with this one as ask myself as a little piggy did I need those calories?

Probably not 🤦🏻‍♀️

Oh and not to mention that Ed Twitter found its way on my feed and it’s so triggering… like ugh I relapse so hard when I see Ed twitter it’s like seeing a fellow Ana out in the wild…

These last few days have been like hell to me..// my brother came in to visit us last Sunday. I was so excited to see him but he got under my skin so bad this visit. He’s been on the phone constantly with his girlfriend like I’m talking 12 hour conversations… why come visit for all that? And he’s sat down playing video games most of the visit.

The fam also is like wtf with my brothers new attitude. Like act like you had a gf before… spending time with him is so hard because you can’t keep his attention too long cause he’s focused on texting her back.//

Mood wise: I’m down bad

My period is like here any day now, my mood swings are revving up, I’m just waiting for his visit to be over so I can unwind and relax and have days back to myself.// I haven’t done Pilates in forever. I’m breaking out so crazy because of all this. I’m just a moody bitch rn. I wanna eat anything and everything I need comfort food but I’m trying to stick to my light diet. I’m just overwhelmed and I’m tired 🥱

But it’s here… I did an 18 hour fast, and ended it at 11:30am started at 5:30pm… I broke it cause my boyfriend wanted take out. So we got Chinese food. I got fried rice, and split it into 3 different portions…. Ate half of that which was like a cup. And down it with water.

Still have a migraine… also went to the gym this morning and just did weights no cardio which felt so weird. Now I’m having a Diet Coke… I most likely will take melatonin gummies by 8 to go to bed cause I really feel like crap.

Hope you dolls are doing well ❤️

Watched a doc about Brandy Melville 😫

I wanna be one size fits all 😫 😭