under drugged and overdone

adhd will get you thinking "i should make this doctors appointment" every day for 7 months and counting

It’s sad to think that you may never see or talk to someone again who you once considered to be one of the most important people in your life at a certain point in time. This is one of those concepts that I will never be able to understand. 

Anyone else terrified that they are toxic and manipulative and just can’t see it? Or is that just me?

A lot of people who’ve been abused think this. It’s very common for abusers to try to convince their victims that they, in some small part, deserve the abuse. And a common way of doing that is to frame the defensive tactics of the victim as bad, manipulative things.