though not blindly

It's not wisdom unless the farmer is so.

I could throw up. I don't know why

It's like existential stress is all that moves me

Why do i feel like i never grew up at all

I remember being asked if I wanted to get married and have children when I was young. Apparantly they don't do that in China; they just assume you will. What's this presentation of choice do? Does it serve to let the children realize themself more or to allow the adults feign justification?

Why is there something so enticing about a depressive state of mind...

Why not. There's just something more sincere about it being out there, however small. A letter in a drawer is so different from one in a bottle. There's even some perverse pleasure in not wanting anyone to see anything like this but still posting it publicly, even if so vaguely. I don't expect any of this to be interesting, but we'll see what I end up saying