I may not have grace but I can possess beauty.

we were punished for “learning too fast” by having the lessons about how to learn taken away from us, and by couching it all in positive language so that our peers would resent and isolate us. literally all of us know we’re not better than anyone else, but that doesn’t seem to matter in the face of “i was jealous in elementary school and have held on to that for 15+ years.”

when we say things like “i don’t know how to learn things that i don’t immediately understand” you hear “i was that kid you hated because i never studied but i always got a 100% on the test anyway,” but what we mean is:

i have a vague understanding of what a flash card is, but no idea how to make them or what to do with them

i have literally no idea how to take notes because:

i don’t know what i’ll forget if i don’t write it down

i don’t know how to pay attention to what’s being said while i write

i wouldn’t know what to do with the notes anyway

if i don’t understand something, i don’t know how to formulate a question

i don’t know how to recognize when i don’t know something until it goes wrong, at which point i don’t know how to identify what i did wrong

i can’t tell the difference between a mistake that’s part of the learning process and a mistake where i should know better

“I GET SO EMOTIONAL BABY.”

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