Maybe This Will Be Our Month.

Oh my god! I wasn't sure if I would ever get to experience this. It hasn't felt real until today, and hearing our little bubbas heart beat was one of the best moments of my life. This is happening, this is real I'm gonna be a mummy!

Eeek. Nearly 11 weeks. And the wait between appointments is still way too crazy long. If I was rich I would have my own ultrasound machine and make sure everything is a-ok every day. I haven't been updating as much because I honestly get so frightened that something will happen and I'll jinx myself. We go for our NT scan in 16 days. Which is so super exciting. I feel like I will feel way less anxious after the scan. Although only 5 more days till I have a normal scan. I think it might be slightly sinking in that we are going to be parents before xmas. 😳 But feeling so super lucky ❤️ It's so weird though, I thought I would be so excited to tell people like family and family friends but I just get so anxious when I go to tell them.. I have no idea why. So I'm a tad excited to announce it to everyone all at once. Oh my god hurry up 5 days I just wanna see my bubba. ❤️

I’m sure your following me as you have read or seen a little of my struggles with infertility. Having PCOS and Endometriosis hasn't made the last couple years very easy.. But if things continue to go in the direction they are going now, every bit of heart ache will be worth it.  7 weeks is early and we know that, it feels more scary then exciting at the moment, I haven't had much morning sickness maybe 3 days total mind you my boobs are constantly killing me and i’m so tried always (that may be the 3am starts too).. Every day you wonder if that little blessing is still growing all the days between appointments feel so long.. but that end result is so worth it, to see everything progressing well is just so exciting. I’m so excited for what this year holds. Bring on Novemeber! Ps, I will try and follow you all and your journey’s!

Guess What?!?!? After two massive years of trying to conceive, I am currently 7 weeks pregnant!!! Don’t ask me how this happened. This time 3 weeks ago I did a pregnancy test, and it came up positive.. but you know how sometimes you accidentally pee all over the stick and it kinda goes everywhere, well that happened.. and a few minutes later it came up positive and I was like well that’s gotta be wrong, as i haven’t taken any Clomid or anything since the start of November..  So a couple hours later I went to the supermarket and got a Clear Blue digital test.. That then came up positive saying 1-2 weeks.. I was so excited I felt sick, it didn’t feel real we were not really ‘trying’ as we were SOO busy (moving house and Gus’ birthday) and I think I was just in a state of shock.. I then called my Gynecologist and she booked me for a dating scan nearly two weeks after I found it out(The longest wait ever). Went in for a dating scan and not very much was happening I thought from my period I was about 6-7 weeks. But turns out I was about 5w2d, She said come back in 11 days (second longest wait ever), But so so worth it. I went in and had another scan and I was 6w3d and our little bean had a good heart rate of 137bpm. Making today exactly 7 weeks..  I know i should of came and told you guys sooner, it just hasn't felt real, and we still have a few more weeks until we feel in the clear (even thought i know you never really are) I will put up a post shortly about how and were we are at right now! xx

I haven't really posted much because there isnt all that much going on, as this is our first month not exclusively trying in over a year. But I honestly don't think it was an option to try this month, so much is going on with Mr G's sisters wedding And trying to look for houses to move out (still no luck). Working as a pastry chef for a large supermarket chain isn't easy, I either start work at 3am or I start at 5am and work for 9 hours, I do enjoy the work tho... But today I was offered a job in a call centre, which would defiantly be different and challenging.... But this job is still so new, I don't think I've given it all I've got.. It is a little repetitive and it isn't very challenging but I enjoy the people and the environment.. I don't think February will be a month of trying either, our lease is up on the 24th of February and ideally we would like the keys to a new place on the 18th so that means lots of packing and cleaning in between working and actually finding a place to live! We do have the option if things get close and we don't find a place to go back to my parents for a couple of weeks to a month just regroup and continue looking. But fingers crossed it doesn't get to that. 🙏🏻 So here's hoping March will be our month, it has to be this year. I can't imagine going into another new year without having a baby or at least being pregnant. Please world do not do that to me. 💋💋💋

Happy new year! Thanks for the mind fuck 2015, You were one hell of a wreck, finding out I have PCOS, Endometriosis and many hospital visits & gynaecologist appointments. Total of over 6 clomid cycles, only ovulated on 3 and have finally got the dosage right. Last cycle was the best on yet but taking 100mg of clomid fucks with you let me tell you that. But it feels like we are so close to that BFP. It's coming, it's our year. Things seem to be working out nicely, I have a new job, mr G is working full time again, we are moving to a new house again(hopefully our last for a few years), Mr G gets his license this year and hopefully by the end of the year all of these infertility issues will be behind us. Although, I took my last clomid cycle in December, we are having a break for the month of January.. We just have so much going on and we just want to try and enjoy ourselves before we jump back into it. I promise I am going to try harder to blog more. I have a lot of time on my hands lately so it's possible... 2016 be our year, please. 🙏🏻

It is now 7am, 5 hours since I first arrived and I've peed in a cup, had my blood pressure taken 100s of times now and just had blood taken. No one knows what is going on... The nurses don't even know what clomiphene is, I've had to educate them on how my ovaries work.. But I'm on some pretty good drugs right now, only thing making this experience bareable.

I am currently sitting in the emergency room of my local hospital. I have slept an hour and it is nearly 3am. I woke up with an extreme fever and shooting pains in my lower abdomen. To describe it I would say it is like someone stabbing me with a fork and twisting it again and again. I'm unsure weather this has something to do with taking my clomid tablet this afternoon or my endometriosis is playing up..

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So the last time I updated here I had taken a round of Clomid and I didn't ovulate for some reason (unknown why), I then didn't get a period for 55 days and I had some pretty intense pain in my ovaries. I went in for a scan and she could see something wrong in my lining, So she booked me in for surgery. On the 18th of September I had a Laparoscopy and a Hysteroscopy and found out I not only have PCOS, I also have Endomertois! My surgery was only meant to be a quick operation but I ended up being in theater for about 3-4 hours as she tried to get as much of the endo out. Coming out of surgery was rough, I was sick, sore and quite bruised and bloated, I had a week off work and am fully recovered now. Now five weeks on, I have ovulated! 2 weeks ago I was starting to feel a little strange I was feeling as if something was happening so with hope I went and took a pregnancy test..came back negative, So I wondered weather I was ovulating, a then took a OPK and I had two little lines, clear as day! Being excited that I have finally ovulated I let Gus know and we were off too bed.. Two weeks on my period is here and I’m starting Clomid this cycle and getting scans done on day 12-16 to see when I ovulate. I am only allowed 2 more cycles of Clomid including this cycle, and then we are off to the IVF clinic to try triggers shots and another fertility drug that my current gyno doesn't supply.  Sorry i haven't kept you guys up to date, we have had a pretty full on couple of months. But its safe to say we are in a better more hopeful place. Thanks for all the continued love. I am back! xxxx

Early mornings dropping Gus off at work. 👌🏻#Tasmania #tasmaniagram #Australia #discovertasmania #lovethisplace #tasmanbridge (at Hobart Cenotaph)

Afternoon walks spent with my fur baby make me happy. ❤️ #dogsofinstagram #dog #staffy #stellathestaffy

Sunday drive. #Tasmania #vscocam #tinderbox #sunday #Australia

Lovely little evening stroll along the beach after a wonderful family dinner. #beach #Tasmania (at Coningham Beach)