β. π Λπobody seems to talk about the dead! Yuu theory as much as I want you guys too. So I'm gonna talk about it here because I love Yuu and hate you guys /jk (angst)
One quote that stuck throughout twisted wonderland for me is when the magic mirror looked at Yuu and said βThis soul belongs nowhere. Noneβ because yes, Yuu doesn't belong anywhere. They will never have a home because they're dead, they're lying dead somewhere and they don't know because they belong to twst now.
A little self indulgent here, but my Yuu used to have a really bad mental health and would occasionally engage in sh and got pushed to the brink of self unaliving themselves. Before their suicide they wrote a letter to each of their loved ones because even in death, they remain selfless.
I imagine that Yuu wouldn't remember their depressive episodes and their suicide in twst. I imagine that they would remember all the happy moments of their life, but never the bad ones because they repressed it so much that a big chunk of their memories have been kicked out of their head. I imagine, that they would still want to go back home because of the happy memories, but not because they want to live.
That's why Yuu is very selfless, because they never got to be selfish for themselves, they would always put others in a pedestal because that's what they are used to. Because they never got to live for themselves.
Then, when Crowley finally found their homeland, their home, their safe place. Everyone of their friends went to the mirror chamber to say goodbye: Grim went to the mirror chamber even though he didn't want to because he'll be alone again, but he still went because saying goodbye hurts less than never saying the words he wants to say to you. Your friends went even though they cried that night they received the news of you going back, but they still went because seeing you happy hurts less when they finally let go of you.
But instead of the mirror showing you the way back home. Letters spilled out the mirror and dropped to the floor.
Crowley thought this was peculiar but was annoyed and upset, so he went on and on complaining while you stared at the letters with that familiar sense of dread that you couldn't pin point, your friends that surrounded you held their breath and went eerily quiet. Crowley then went outside to find a fix to this as you picked up the letters from the floor.
You went through all of the lettersβ you didn't read it yet, you just counted all of it and opened them from their packaging.
This might be important enough to be sent to you through the mirror, so you read it out loud thinking that this will be something of value than being blasted from the past.
The first letter you read was addressed to your pet, you went eerily quiet after that to the point that Grim shook you gently and asked you to continue.
It ended without a signature, without a name. But one thing was for certain. This was a suicide letter. Now, there wasn't any big indication that pointed to this, there wasn't an ominous "I will die soon..." Type of wordings, but you picked up clues that might seem nothing to other people, but meant everything to you.
Everyone around you was weirdly quiet now, but they listened. That was all that you needed.
You continued despite your gut feeling telling you to stop, despite your heart beating too loudly for you to relax, despite the stomach drops you would get when something indicated that the person who wrote this was very much suicidalβ it felt too... Personal.
As you continuedβ the people around you who could pick up the context clues, started to get uneasy with how this was going. They don't know why, but they have a feeling that these letters all connected to you somehow.
Then the last letter was now in your clutch, your hands were shaking and your eyes started to get hazy. You opened it with shaky hands and read it aloud.
The news was dropped suddenly on your lap as you stared at the name at the end of the letter. The people in the mirror chamber held their breath when you ended the letter with dead eyes, your words caught in your throat. Grim shook you again gently as he stared at you with worry. He softly called out your name with a slight question at the end of it.
The letter ended with your name in it.
Your hands quivered as you layed the letter down with the other letters.
You were dead. You were dead and you couldn't go back.
"Goodbye. Sincerely, (name)"
π/π»: I just want to tell y'all that I have a draft oneshot of this that will get published if I get it done and this is just scratching the surface of how angsty this isβ I JUST HATE HOW YUU ISN'T FLESHED OUT IN THE GAME OKAY??? YUU DESERVES MORE LOVE AND CARE AND I LOVE THEM PLEASE MY BABY JUST WANTS TO GO BACK HOME AND TAKE CARE OF THEIR CAT πππ