Ren's World

Well, I only went through the consultation and the very first session. The consultation was smooth and made me realize that some place within the city that I live in literally live for money and money alone. 

Consultation: Large tattoo? NP, here’s a reasonable price for unlimited sessions. And sure! we’ll give you numbing cream cause your tattoo is so large.

Session 1: Hey, let us know what part of the tattoo you want removed. we want to make sure we get it right! also, there’s no numbing cream.

I try not to be “negative” or complain so much. But it’s honestly tiring trying to rewire my complaints into “what do you want?” all the time

However if I want to stop feeling burnt out, I gotta tire out somewhere. Either it’s through trying to find solutions and being as positive as I can, or I can continue to spiral into negativity.

Documenting Ren’s Wins, Take 1

Too fucked up to work like this only just to pay rent.

Too fucked up to have friends.

You ever watch a show out of boredom and then end up relating to it SOOO HARD? It is me.

Not Dead Yet is my life playing out on the screen where instead of finding myself at the bottom of the totem pole at my old job due to a failed relationship, it’s due to a failed career switch. And I now find myself both congratulating the new roles of the people who stayed and mourning where I could’ve been had I also stayed. The main character is able to process her feelings through talking through the dead people she writes about in the obituary column of a newspaper and I am processing my feelings through spontaneous moments of crying and writing tumblr posts that no one will read.