L’appel Du Vide

continuing on despite it all

“Do you like me?” No answer. Silence bounced, fell off his tongue and sat between us and clogged my throat. It slaughtered my trust. It tore cigarettes out of my mouth. We exchanged blind words, and I did not cry, I did not beg, but blackness filled my ears, blackness lunged in my heart, and something that had been good, a sort of kindly oxygen, turned into a gas oven.”

“Pleasure to me is wonder—the unexplored, the unexpected, the thing that is hidden and the changeless thing that lurks behind superficial mutability.”

“You’re not in love with me, not really, you just love the way I always made you feel. Like you were the centre of my world. Because you were. I would have done anything for you.”

“I was within and without. Simultaneously enchanted and repelled by the inexhaustible variety of life.”

“Life is to be lived, not controlled; and humanity is won by continuing to play in face of certain defeat.”

“Sometimes I sit back and think about how I wish you loved me.”