you matter.

“Maybe home is nothing but two arms holding you tight when you’re at your worst.”

“There’s a Japanese phrase that I like: koi no yokan. It doesn’t mean love at first sight. It’s closer to love at second sight. It’s the feeling when you meet someone that you’re going to fall in love with them. Maybe you don’t love them right away, but it’s inevitable that you will.”

“I laughed and said, ‘Life is easy.’ What I meant was, 'Life is easy with you here, and when you leave, it will be hard again.’”

“to my ‘almost lover’: the way you made me feel, i will never be able to forget. so safe, so calm, just purely at ease. you loved me when i couldn’t love myself, always and unconditionally. when i hated myself and couldn’t bear to look in the mirror, you taught me that there was more than skin and bones to me. you saw something in me that my eyes have yet to see. you looked beyond this skin i live in, looked into my soul and looked into my heart. you saw the darkest, most bruised places of my being and loved me there without my pleading. when my mind was a horrible place to be in, you managed to get me out of it every time it was needed. you were patient, caring and protective, always and unconditionally. the love you gave just came naturally, you said it’s what you’ll always do for me. my ‘almost lover’, we could have been more, so much more. i could have been yours and you could have been mine. and i know it’s my fault that we never were but oh, how i wish we were.”

“You will never have to chase what wants to stay with you.”

““In three words I can sum up everything I’ve learned about life: it goes on.””

me telling people about my life

“I am physically, mentally and emotionally ready to enter a new phase in my life. I’m ready to grow and get better.”

“I’m not upset that you lied to me, I’m upset that from now on I can’t believe you.”