Thinking Like a Grown Up

Have you ever asked yourself why some one doesn't like you? 

I know that I am not the nicest person in the world but before I can call some one my friend I have to be sure that they know the kind of person that I am. Then there are those that you so call family that know you better than anyone. Ups or down they are there; or they are suppose to be. I know who I am and I don't hide me. 

Now with that being cleared. I can't seem to wrap my head around how people can hate me so much that they wish bad upon me or anyone for that matter. 

Is it because you're hurt? Mad? Cuz im in a mental and physical state better than you? 

I believe in Karma. Wish bad upon some one and it will come back and bite you in the ass twice as hard. Have people thought that maybe they are in the positions they are in because of the wrongful thinking? 

I dont live a bad life. I can say that I live a pretty good life; but it is not what i pictured it to be when I was younger. So many things go through my head every day. How I look at certain situations completely changes on a daily. I really do feel like my life revolves around that quote from Alice in Wonderland " I can't go back to yesterday, because I was a different person then". My entire struggle has been trying to be grown. The closer I get to it the weirder life gets.