ugggggggggggggh

I'm usually really positive in regards to social justice stuff but jesus christ this day has drained me so much. People hating women and trans* people and I'm just so discouraged and not feeling positive at all. 

The only people I've ever done sex things with are people I barely knew and just I'm tired of it and I wish I could connect that way with someone I actually know and like but I really don't see that happening anytime soon.

I'm tired of kissing people that I don't know.

I've been really down the past few days and I feel really worthless and I hate myself a lot ahahahaha

This is really dumb, but Abed and Rachel's relationship on Community has kinda made me see what I'd be like in a relationship? Like be able to understand what me being in a relationship would be like, and that's making me more hopeful but also lonelier at the same time.

He was drugged up most of break because he got his tonsils out so that's why he never responded???????????????????????????? I'm the biggest idiot?????????????????????? The reason I sort of stopped liking him was because I thought he was a jerk because he ignored me but since that's not the case I'm very ???????????????????????????

That guy I liked completely ignored my text that I sent like months ago and I finally decided to text him back and ask what happened and he hasn't texted back yet but wow negative feelings all up in here I'm probably annoying the shit out of him and he just wanted me to stop talking to him womp womp

Having sex with dudes from Grindr always makes me feel weird! Yet I do it anyway! *Seinfeld voice* What's up with that?????????

The boy I used to like tweeted about me I think (something about people who used to talk to you all the time but don’t anymore) (I’M PROBABLY BEING SELF ABSORBED) but I might text him because why not? He was decent to talk to and also attractive sooo yeah.

I barely have an appetite anymore and it's weirding me out. I ate considerably less than I normally do at dinner tonight and I feel disgustingly full, this is really weird and troubling.

Crying while listening to "Afterlife" by Arcade Fire is a thing that's been happening a lot lately.

I officially don't like anyone anymore so yeah #swag

SOMEBODY HOLD MY FRICKIN HAND

I feel like I do things alone often so I guess when people don't want to talk to me/hang it just kinda sucks because I feel like I'm missing out on opportunities where I'm actually doing things with people. I think I'm definitely a more solitary person and trying to do different things with people and being denied sucks sometimes but usually it's for good reasons that people bail but yeah it's just kind of a bummer.