Myself

i think now i understand why some people tried to suicide or hurt themselves.... it is because what the feel that day, the day that they attempt suicide is hurt so much that they cant think anything else and they would be overthinking until they can’t think something else... that day is like a worst day ever! the feeling that day is not a long term but when it hit, its kill you inside. you can smile and happy and feels like nothing happen for a few months but when that feeling comes, the past few months become nothing. that's why this is so unfortunate because people surrounding can miss the day that you feeling the worst because this feeling comes unexpectedly even themselves didn't expect that the feeling gonna come...

i know the feeling actually already there inside your heart but it just people didn't realize when it gonna explode unless people near stay together at home with the person that have that feeling... but actually, that's didn't even really guaranty the feeling will not gonna explode.  

this the only thing i can express my burden that buried deep inside my heart