+*About Me*+
MBTI: INTP
Favourite colour: Yellow and black
Music I enjoy: The exploited, Dead Kennedys, Crass, GBH, Circle jerks, Germs, Black Flag, L7, Heilung, Danheim, Wardruna, Rúnahild, Gói, Nytt Land
Media I enjoy: Yellowjackets, Arcane, Trailer park boys, Vikings, Full metal Jacket, SLC Punk, Family Guy, Modern Family
Video games: Path of titans, Life is strange, The last of us 1&2, Hellblade, Animal Crossing, GTA5
Theriotypes: Wolfdog, Jackrabbit
Fictional kins: Chloe Price (LIS), Vi (Arcane)
Sexuality: Asexual, Lesbian
Pronouns: She/Her
Located: Ontario 🇨🇦
⚠️WARNING⚠️: IM A HUGE YAPPER. I LOVE TO TALK AND WILL RANT A LOT ON THIS BLOG
DNI LIST!
Radqueers, Ped0philes, Gr00mers, N@zis (Nazi Punks fuck off), Necrophiles, Z00philes, Kink blogs (no hate I’m just very uncomfortable with sexual content), MAGA, ICE supporters, SH blogs, ED blogs, Jiari blogs, etc. (will edit and add to this if needed, I am not flexable with my DNI and will block freely)
[Also just want to add that minors are free to follow me however I do tent to dabble in various substances and I have some problems with them so I would prefer a 16+ following at minimum. I will not follow minors back as it makes me uncomfortable!]
My story with therianthropy
I was awoken at a very young age. My entire life, since I can first start to recall memories, I was very animalistic, learning how to walk very late and preferring running on all fours rather than on my feet. Despite wolves having never been my favourite animal or even on my top 5, I felt so connected to them and as if that were meant to be me. I was even given a pop up book on wolves on my first day of kindergarten by my parents.
When I got a little older (around 8 years old), I started having these dreams where I was a wolf. I could always feel, hear and see everything so incredibly vividly. I could feel the vibrations of other creatures under my paws, I could smell everything around me including the things I couldn’t see, I could feel the wind blowing through my fur and see myself in the reflection of the lake I always had in my dream state territory. Every sound was enhanced and rich.
I knew I had some kind of deep connection with spirits and the universe. My own mother noticed how I could almost communicate with animals without words. I also used to see orbs- glowing balls of light that I used to run around trying to catch so I could show my mum, but I never succeeded with that unfortunately lol. My mum still brings it up to this day and is convinced I have some sort of connection to spirits.
When I was 9 or 10, I found the therian community after being given my first iPod and something clicked in me. That was me. Everything felt explained and I was overjoyed with this new discovery.
I embraced it wholeheartedly. I wore a tail and collar to school and was very open about my identity. I was very badly bullied and I honestly don’t know what I expected. Kids are brutal but being as naive as I was I refused to accept the fact that it wasn’t normal or looked at fondly.
The bullying was horrible, I was physically hurt and was forced to hurt others for the sake of protecting myself. It felt neverending and it only solidified the fact I knew I didn’t belong in a human society. In school I used to space out and stare at the woods across from my school, imagining myself turning into my theriotype and disappearing forever.
Eventually it got to the point where i rejected therianthropy entirely out of shame and embarrassment. I burned and tore apart my collars and shoved my tails in a box under my stairs. I began to become the very thing that hurt me so badly, spending time getting drunk and bullying therians to myself because deep down I was jealous of them for expressing themselves. I was insecure and jealous that I couldn’t do what they did. It was bad and I still hold a lot of shame for the way I acted.
I think my frontal lobe is developing now to the point where I realized I don’t give a fuck anymore. I am me and I’m not afraid to embrace it. I’m not out to anyone except for my girlfriend and I plan on keeping it that way, but I’ve accepted who I am and I’m happy to be back in the environment I felt the most comfortable and at home. I’m here to spread love and positivity and to be a support to anyone and everyone in the same boat. I love all my therian and alterhuman peers so dearly.
