The Writings of a Goddess

I used to love Water I used to love Water so much I wanted to be a Sea Witch To sit on my rock with my mermaid tail and seduce Poseidon and all his Oceans

Imagine a symphony In which we rise And fall At the whim of the chords Dissonant Yet Harmony In constant battle With ourselves And the music You’d be the violin Soft Longing Beautiful Ethereal and Light The highs to all my lows Who needs a choir When you brush across your strings Breath filled with music In Spring and Autumn I’d be the trumpet Loud Heavy Bolstering Screaming and Wild The storm to all your calms Who needs an audience When I am a breeze across shining Brass A whirlwind of sound Silenced by Winter

Ribbons Blue for me Red for you Entangled in a dance Of Sadness And Anger Mixing in a Bitter stream The sweetness of the water Lost forever Why…? Why did you lead me On thin ice Only to abandon me In my own war My own heartbreak My own Foolishness Away The past cannot be erased But by god I wish it could Did you ever Love me Or was it all Pretence To feel so strongly about someone And then push them off Gone I loved you With all I could muster Would have given you the world But I guess This is goodbye For now I hope to see you again Someday Farewell

Aphrodite is nothing Compared to your shy grace Quiet tones of dark music Danced around your hair Your green eyes Enchanting My every move I would never have let you go Without saying goodbye But here I am Grieving an unknown part of me I will burn a candle On death’s chandelier Tonight

You are a fire A fierce raging Proud Fragile Take away your passion and you Die out Fade To a sparkle But darling So do the stars

No, I think you don't understand

I really thought you and I....

There are a thousand words in my chest Millions of letters Fighting Clawing their way out But while my lungs feel like bursting And my heart is pumping ink instead of blood I can’t put them to paper Even though my fingers are aching To sketch worlds with the flick of my wrist My mind is empty It is just my body Trying to find a way out Through the only means I have ever known And I am failing myself Again

Every time I look around I wonder What it would be like To be reunited with my skin To feel And know Comfort In who I appear to be I guess I’ll have to wait A bit longer

Hey Rory I see you Have always seen you That little girl in my head Has finally grown up And you are doing so well Believe me I want you to know some things So listen carefully ok? Don’t put that blade to your wrist I know it seems like a good idea now But when you’re 20 You will realize The scars didn’t fade And all your problems did Don’t date the pretty boy with the blue eyes He will make you feel worthless Incompetent A bad lover Instead Wait for the big guy you would never notice Let him find a way into your heart Slowly Very slowly You are hurt I know You are broken I know You will be better You know Live on Dream on Write on He will not heal you You will Slowly Very slowly And eventually You will sit in a room Smiling at the love of your life Breathing in And out Happiness Hey Rory I see you Have always seen you Have always loved you Will always love you Give yourself a shot You deserve it More than anyone else

Discoloured and uneven The shadow of Time Makes no mistakes Only humans Fighting in Her name Without Goal Hope Love The battle everlasting The outcome set

I need you. I know I don't tell you that enough, but by the heavens and the earth, I need you. I need everything about you. I need that little smile you give me when I look at you. I need that dent in your cheek. I need your arms around my naked waist. I need your hands to grab my chin when tears start streaming down my face and you force me to look at you. I need your playful tickling even when I hit you and tell you to stop. I need you taking care of me in the middle of the night. I'm sorry I cried so many times next to you in the dark and you didn't even realise. I'm sorry I still try to hide it from you when I am falling down. I am just so scared to lose you. Do you understand that? You of all people should understand that. Of all the times you were gone and I was sitting here alone, today is the worst and I don't know why. But a blade is resting against my skin again in my mind and I wish I had the courage to open myself up again. I won't. You know I won't. I promised you I won't and I will be loyal to you until death. But every voice in my head tells me you will leave before that. I wouldn't be able to handle it. So please, don't ever forget to hold me randomly every once in while, because I need it from you most.