the willow tree

“there behind your mind I sit in the chaos and wait. and if I make the slightest movement I will dash everything you built into a heap.”-ariadne

--

with great resistance you blind yourself

                    so you don’t crave and suck

            that succulent milk of mine. 

     we see nothing but just

see nothing but us. 

solitude //

a feeling long lost, no back in the tips of my fingers 

celebrating calmly, the beauty of being an everlasting outcast. 

                                                                                             -css

and here you are 

you are 

ever so tenderly oozing your way into me

“you want to see the most beautiful thing I ever filmed?”

here i am 

a feeling long lost 

     now back in the tips of my fingers. 

finally, celebrating calmly 

the beauty of an everlasting outcast.

“you say it right then out loud otherwise the moment just passes you by”

and it really does, what a real one. 

let me just a little bit put my self on a flow.

reflecting. 

this scene actually made me see. it was too close. way too personal. 

and you are there. you were there. so close but so far.

i was afraid for countless days, countless missed opportunities. and now i cannot sleep trying figure out now, now after all that missed, how do i allow one single moment to reflourish. 

with every revolution the earth made around the sun, I buried it deeper. 

will I ever let myself, bring myself and let it happen?

will you?

what dreams may come directed by vincent ward

Leigh Bowery // 1988

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Winona Ryder by Craig McDean