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I'm so extremely exhausted

I'm tired of being with my family

I want to move I want to leave

But how tf can I do that with no money

no friends where I want to go

No where is safe yeah some places are

But how would I even be able to get there

I wouldn't have the first clue on how

Back pack it? Walk?

That's not a safe option

I'm trapped and that feeling never has left since I was a kid

I'd dissociate being away from everyone so much and for long I'd come out of it with panic and disappointment

Idk if the person or people who saw me venting about this will see this again but yeah I'm dealing with this again

I don't know what to do with this feeling anymore

So I'm on here venting about it

Probably being annoying

I am an audhder with multiple personality disorders with cptsd so

If I were to leave I'd need help a lot of it

My family probably would never understand why I want to leave them I don't talk to them about this

I just try to convince them to move somewhere else

Because I have a feeling I'm not safe here where we live and it's obvious I'm not

But do they care do they see the same things online that I do no because they don't want to involve themselves in a space where LGBT+ people are discussing what's happening in the world right now.

They wouldn't care that it's happening or that I feel unsafe