The time
I have not been able to exist like I used to
After you left
Biological clock that does not change the hour
Always pointing at the minutes
Fixed in time and space
I ended, and you began
Days that felt like decades
Decadence of will
Sadness that seeps in through the cracks within my ribs
My heart is heavier than my body
And within it, the weight of my love is being measured
How many pounds does a broken life weigh?
I skip through the endless pages of my journal
All of them wrinkled, some torn
Beautiful blue pages, I write in pink ink
To remind myself of hope amongst sorrow
Rainbow after rain
But you rain perpetually
The day I was born was also a wednesday, I told you
And you asked me why I said this
On the next day, you abandoned me
Who was only born
The day before
Since then, time has been stuck
Nine in the morning, I was in a boat
And though you were with me
It never gave me any comfort
How do you recover from abandonment?
How do you heal from pain?
Every time I see the clock I am reminded
Of the time when you loved me














