Agent of Change

And I've realised that, at the end of the day, I do gain personal satisfaction and fulfilment from being a part of this community, besides my desire to finally be wanted. Do I wish I could be desired outside of these spaces or for other things than fulfilling one or more kinks? Yes. Will that ever happen? Maybe. I need to be better at reinforcing my boundaries and not always conform to whatever other people want me to be simply because I have issues. That's on me.

This is not a "I've decided to continue gracing this space with my presence" kind of thing, but some people have been worried that I blame them for liking the things I post, and that is not at all the case. I will probably go back to posting things very soon, and more likely than not, it'll be more or less the same things as before. But I'll be more conscious and careful in how I approach both my own and other people's kinks.

It's not news to me that I'm on that spectrum (demisexual, if you want to be specific), but knowing that other people have gone through the exact same things and have had the exact same thoughts as me is very comforting.

I'm very comfortable in my identity, I knew who I was long before I knew the words that I now use to describe myself, my gender, my sexual orientation and my sexuality. But I've always felt, on some level, like there's something wrong with me for not really wanting to have sex and very rarely experiencing random sexual attraction and/or arousal. I felt like there had to be something that caused it, some kind of trauma or issue that made me the way that I am (and I do absolutely have sexual trauma, but it was brought on by my attempts to "fix" this aspect of myself, not the other way around).

Hello, I'm Red!

UPDATE July 2026

I'm a fat person in my late 30s, nonbinary, they/them pronouns only.

Due to some changes in my life, most of the feedism-related kinks that pertain to me are delegated to fantasy. As in, I'm not gaining. I'm still very into stuff like toxic feedism and death feedism, but I'm no longer pursuing it. If and when I can afford it, I'll probably do a stuffing every so often, and I'm very happy to explore these kinks with others. But I'm trying to get fitter and could potentially lose weight as a consequence of that, and I'm cool with it. That said, I could lose almost half my weight and still be overweight, so I'm not getting skinny anytime soon.

Feedism related kinks: deathfeedism, unhealty weight wain, dangerous weight gain, toxic feeder/feedee dynamics, stuffings, force feeding, measurements/weigh-ins & fantasy/sci-fi weight gain.

Other kinks: medical procedures and examination, humiliation, public humiliation, intox, breeding, pregnancy, lactation, age-play, fauxcest, bimbofication, himbofication & cnc

Dislikes: vore, slob stuff, bodily fluids, scat, farts and belches & emeto

And I've realised that, at the end of the day, I do gain personal satisfaction and fulfilment from being a part of this community, besides my desire to finally be wanted. Do I wish I could be desired outside of these spaces or for other things than fulfilling one or more kinks? Yes. Will that ever happen? Maybe. I need to be better at reinforcing my boundaries and not always conform to whatever other people want me to be simply because I have issues. That's on me.

This is not a "I've decided to continue gracing this space with my presence" kind of thing, but some people have been worried that I blame them for liking the things I post, and that is not at all the case. I will probably go back to posting things very soon, and more likely than not, it'll be more or less the same things as before. But I'll be more conscious and careful in how I approach both my own and other people's kinks.

Hello tumblr. I’m reviving my old blog from the dead with some of my PHM fanarts.

This movie/book has gripped my soul a little too hard 😭

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a mother's final lullaby

I should be rewarded with donuts or cake for this much exercise 🐷😮‍💨

And that's how Simon learned that Grace likes men lmao