holy shit holy shit holy shit I finally have enough fic to make an excerpt holy shit holy shit
you guys have no idea the sheer amount of dopamine currently flooding my system
this is. like. a huge accomplishment for me. the only other time I've been able to stick with a writing project for as long as this was a microfiction assignment in sophomore year of high school.
here it is! (still using the placeholder title because I haven't committed to a permanent one yet)
i am an alien (my rocket ship is human bone and skin)
My rocket ship is human bone and skin
I'm something smaller staring out the skull
Buttons I don't understand
Spamming every one of them
So, does being human mean pretending to know
-Whatâs Going On?!, Elio Mei
a familiar or usual setting
Home is not a place clones know.
They know the word, of course.Â
They know that putting the letters herf - osk - mern - esk together implies a certain definition that aligns with âhomeâ.
They know that, by technicality, Kamino is their "homeworld", and therefore their home. It is where they have lived for most of their lives. It is where they were born, where they grew up, where they learned almost everything they know today.
But it is not home. Not in the sense it should have been.
A home is a place that exists, whether you like it or not. A home is a place you survive.
A home is a place where you can live. Where you can set down your bucket and not have to worry about an instructorâs lecture on properly caring for your gear. Where you can smile and donât have to fear a longneckâs gaze because too much emotion is âan undesirable traitâ. Where you can feel⌠whatâs the wordâŚ
Itâs not something you can point out on a map. Itâs not as easy as putting a pin on the great tapestry of stars that is their galaxy that reads âHOME IS HEREâ. Itâs entirely something you can describe, or even name.
But, as CT-7606 looks out at the calm, placid waters of Arcus II-A, he decides that, if he had to point out exactly what home would look like to himâŚ
⌠it definitely wouldnât be this.
Aver sighs, letting his head hang for just a moment before lifting himself up off the durasteel railing. He stretches his arms up above his shoulders, feeling the muscles in his back protest against the sudden movement, and turns to face his brothers.Â
Catch and Sixer are sauntering up to his left, walking along the path surrounding their listening post. Catch looks mildly bored, which, considering he always looks mildly bored, could mean both nothing and everything. Sixer, meanwhile, is wearing a smile that makes him look like the cat that caught the loth-rat.Â
âLook what the tooka dragged in!â Sixer laughs as they finally reach him, slinging an arm around Averâs shoulders. He rolls his eyes, smiling softly at his brotherâs antics.Â
âYeah, yeah, you got me. What am I needed for this time? Triple set something on fire again?â
âNope,â Catch says, enunciating the âpâ, giving it a sharp pop. Leaning back against the railing, he continues. "Personnel meeting. Apparently, Spinner wants us all at the mess for some big announcement.â
Aver raises an eyebrow. Itâs not often that their Sergeant had something to say that couldnât be relayed over comms or by word of mouth. If he wanted, he could probably count the number of times theyâve had an all-person meeting on one hand and still have fingers to spare.
As if reading his thoughts, Sixer nods sagely. âI know, right? Itâs totally wizard.âÂ
Catch snorts and gives Sixer a smack upside the head. âThatâs not what that means, and you know it, idiot!â
Aver snorts in amusement, leaning away from his place on the railing as the three of them start the short walk back to base, his brothers chattering all the way.
Though they might try to hide it, he knows about The Game. Whenever he goes âmissingâ, they all go off, sometimes in teams and sometimes alone, to see who can find him first. Whoever does gets⌠he doesnât know. Bragging rights?
Heâs well aware of this bad habit of his; to disappear for hours on end to stare out at the sea. He doesnât know why, but he just finds it so calming. Watching the waves rise and fall, hearing them crash against the plastoid-white cliffs, feeling the endless breeze against his skin. It just makes everything else fall away for a little while. When heâs out there, itâs just him and the water.Â
Most of his brothers, on the other hand, find the sea that surrounds their post on one side deeply unnerving.
Understandable, considering itâs the color of blood.