One thing I’ve noticed lately, is that girls like me, we don’t get friend zoned. We get Fuck Zoned.
We are good enough to sleep with, but too damaged to actually date. No one wants to deal with our past. No one wants to deal with our trauma. No one wants to put in any effort.
So they’ll fuck us. But they won’t date us. And because we are damaged and hurting we take what we can get and try to delude ourselves into thinking it’s enough, and pretend that it isn’t slowly killing us. Because after all, aren’t all the damaged girls desperate or easy?
So we act like we don’t care, even when, bit by bit, we are dying inside because we so desperately want someone to just hold us and tell us we are enough, and that we ARE worthy of love. But no one does. They use our bodies and then they shatter our souls and they walk out the door and they leave.
And we pick up our pieces and we try to put them back into some semblance of order and pretend that we are whole and we go about our lives.
