Dr.Yaoi

Sometimes i cant tell if im obvious or completely incognito with my crushes. Like me personally i feel like the elephant is rampaging and destroying everything in the room and screaming at everybody to address it but also i feel so disgusted to have the audacity of burdening another person with my romantic feelings that im not even sure im in the same room so does it even matter? Like i am so in love with you that it leaks out into everything i do and think but also i feel so disgusting that i’m forcing myself to be normal. And before you losers start going “have you tried telling them” “have you tried expressing your feelings” meh meh meh, consider the following: I do not move without certainty i have a chance and wouldn’t ya know it, i usually don’t!!!! Like yeah im not chopped cheese and i am nice and kind but im not stunning and i am crude so i moreso have bestie or pet energy rather than lover. Plus i have a hard time maintaining connections and if i get any type of negative response i get scared and run. Might be attributed to the constant arms length i keep everyone at oh shit realizing real time im afraid of intimacy which is really fucking funny considering i constantly yearn for it. Probably because I don’t get it often and the intimacy i did have in the past was just people using me. Who would have thunk. Wanting to be known but fearing what people will find strikes again!!!!!

i really need to update my page but feel free to attack me https://artfight.net/~Bugsforbones

Khostov belongs to @the-good-luck-anomaly

When not bedridden and coughing and throwing up a weird black substance he’s rampaging through his house throwing and destroying everything around him until he’s weak again.