The Ramblings of a Lost Mutt

for otherkin/nonhumans, do you ever see your nonhumanity as a negative thing?

i don't even have a kintype. i call myself a demon but that's not even accurate. i've tried on so many labels and none of them ever fit for long.

my nonhumanity stems from growing up autistic and never feeling like i fit in. it stems from physical health issues and never feeling like i was built correctly. like i have a human body but im nothing like a "normal human". kind of like a prototype of a human or someone's failed attempt at building a human being. nobody knows how to help me or take care of me because i'm just broken.

i don't feel good about being nonhuman. it's not a pleasant experience.

for me my alterhumanity has it's positives. It gives me a different world view. My therianthropy gives me a deep kinship with other dogs. Being constelic means my identity is ever changing, and that is freeing in a way.

But it is negative sometimes too. I'm trapped in this human body that doesn't reflect me. A body that can't even move like my theriotype should due to chronic pain. And my identity being fluid is lovely in a way, but at the same time I mourn when I lose a constel I was attached to. I wish those could be kintypes, but they just aren't.

but that being said, I can maybe point you towards some labels (although I can't guarantee you wouldn't have already tried them)?

Voidpunk is a subculture all about rejecting your humanity and embracing dehumanization, you don't have to be otherkin to consider yourself voidpunk. The only thing required is that you have felt dehumanized at some point.

Copingkin/link are two similar identities revolving around identifying as something as a coping mechanism. The main difference is that copingkin is involuntary, while copinglink is voluntary. The kin/linktype can really be anything, from a concept to an earthly animal to a place or an archetrope.

You could also just be otherkin. People talk about the positives a lot, but for a lot of people it's a lot of positives and negatives mixed. And for some people it's not positive at all. And that's all equally valid. ^^

it hurts my joints and causes me to get extremely dizzy and overheated :(