woe be the man

sup !  i’m ninja, i’m twenty and i’m starting up commissions !  long story short, i’m unable to get a job / earn a living until i’m able to drive.  unfortunately, due to my mental health, i’m unable to work near home due to my ptsd and therefore need to be able to transport myself to somewhere out of the area which i’m in the process of being able to achieve  -  however  -  in the mean time i thought i’d put my photoshop abilities to use and earn some cash so i have some money to support myself until i’m able to drive / maintain a full time job !  obviously there’s a lot more to it than that, but i’d rather get to the point which is that i’d massively appreciate any type of support  -  whether that be commissioning something from me, buying something premade or by buying me a coffee .  even reblogging this post is a big help !   HERE is my about / commissions page which features pricing and guidelines and here is my faq page which should hopefully answer any questions you might have.  and if not ? please do not be afraid to come and ask !  my paypal is available upon request, as is my discord.   examples will be displayed on this blog so keep an eye out !   i.m me for a commission and have a wonderful day !!

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BASE ICONS :  £2 per 50 ( minimum ) icons. ICONS WITH A PREMADE PSD : £2.30 per 50 icons + additional £1 for psd to be added. WITH A CUSTOM PSD : £2.50 per 50 icons + additional £2 for psd to be added. additional 30p for a border of your choice if you purchase 100 or more icons.

PREMADE ICON BORDERS : £1.50.  buy two, get a third free.

PREMADE PSDS : £2.30. CUSTOM PSDS : £4.20. additional 30p to get a border of your choice when you buy a custom psd.

GRAPHICS : £6 + additional £1.70 for a gif to be included.

PROMOS : still promo : £5.50 + additional £1.50 for every image added. gif promo : £6 + additional £2 for every image with a gif added.

HEADERS : £3.50 + additional £1.70 for a gif to be included.

PREMADE WORK : £4 ( view commissions page for details. )

THEME BACKGROUNDS :  £11.

a chuckle as he turned back to the pastor , arms fallen to his side once more and together again at last . close as they spoke .  noticing knuckles tighten around the spine of the book . the smile he wore held firm , pleased with the minimal reaction oh they had only just begun !! blue eyes scan the other , watching for increased breathing sweat on the brow anything that spoke of fear !!  fear which equated to respect which equated to love god !! sent them all to be humbled before john seed the baptist and that was what the youngest intended to do . humble  (  death  )  atone  (  death  )  forgive  ( death !!  )  . 

and then everything came to a halt , movements , words . people stilled  (  his people  )  knowing full well what a touchy subject the father was out of any sort of project context .   breath stalled in his chest and that smile constantly worn ? fell away . intake of breath a hand lifted , index finger pointing as though he were about to speak and he changed his mind , brow furrowed . and then he listened to the pastor preach . face blooming a deep crimson as eyes closed . liar liar !! fucking liar .   ❛   monster !!   ❜  the youngest spat back , eyes now the color of blue hellfire righteous and fair and godly !!   ❛  you take your own people , those you deemed unfit , those that wish to follow the project and maim and murder !!  ❜   temper already loose and unfit soared / surged forward despite any better efforts to halt it . it was like a dam breaking it always was when the middle sibling was mentioned . 

if this fake herald was so truly certain of his path,  he would not have been so quick to falter from it.  

hypocrite,  his mind whispers, his determination to remain standing tall in the face of this man - child throwing naught but a tantrum growing ever stronger.  the fear that pushed his movements before has been replaced by a conviction of his own:  he,  pastor jerome jeffries,  might not have a place in heaven anymore for all that he’s done,  a fate he has long since accepted,  but one he has accepted as long as it means saving who he can save.  john seed may cast his judgment ( so when you, a mere human being,  pass judgment on them and yet do the same things, do you think you will escape god’s judgment? )   ,  but jerome knows him now:  sees him for who he truly is ---- a damned man,  owning a heart filled with nothing but anger and greed.  that is no true righteousness.  that is not a man to be feared,  only one to be pitied.  and pity him jerome does.  

“ your parents were wrong and they too will be condemned by the lord for their crimes, “  when he finally speaks,  it is almost calm,  almost kind,  but that edge of hardness remains as does the cold fire burning in his own brown hues.  “ and even if joseph does love you, “ and jerome knows he does,  for that was a quality about joseph he’d always admired until he would come to regret it forever, “ he has always feared that not even his love would be able to save you from your own black soul.  i always told him if anyone could save you, it would be him, “ once john is struck down and he will be struck down,  jerome will not mourn him.  jerome will not miss him.  the valley would be free and john would pass into forgetting,  his fake edifices torn down, his bunker destroyed. 

and then,  he hopes down in the deepest vestiges of his heart where he stores his anger,  his pain,  his grief,  he finally hopes joseph will know what it feels like to lose. 

— memes ;  send 🗡 to ask joseph about one of his scars, accepting.

          IT WOULD BE SO EASY TO CLAIM YEARS SINCE THE LAST time he felt so comfortable around another person, but in truth, it would also be a lie. not once in his life can he name a time where he could laugh in someone else’s company, be it genuine or forced. time became irrelevant hours ago, long before the sun set.  jerome’s is face of the first tangible hospitality joseph has ever known—the first true friend.