Blog Closed For Good

P.s. I met some amazing people on here, but also som very rude ones. I’ve just decided for my mental stability to remove tumblr from my life completely. Thanks to those who followed, I wish you many good vibes and great memories as you are moving forward into your lives. 💜

♾ be little forever!

📚Here's the book I just finished! What an adventure!📖 🙊update on little me:🙉Dadda said I was "a good little girl!"🙈 👶The dogs were all taking turns getting hellos and love when he came home from work, so I jumped in line, and he gave me hellos and love, and said I was a good girl, too. Naturally I wagged my tail. *tehe 🐶 🌻Happy April🌼Good Vibes🌹

I went to the grocery store yesterday, and even though it wasn't super crowded (surprisingly), lots of people there made me feel like I'm in the way. I'm not sure why, but my anxiety is usually fine until I am driving, or feeling in the way. Then I'm a frantic, spastic mess, because deep down, I don't want to be in someone's way....when I was a kid, and I would get in my father's way, he would react immediately with abusive behavior directed at me....I guess being in someone's way brings be back to that state. I just am scared to seek help (currently off meds, but have been on them before), but last time I did, they gave me medicine that made me a different person. Altered more than my mood; my mom said it seemed to alter my personality, my perspective, it crushed my spirit, killed my drive, drove me away from my passions. I'm too scared to be on anything again, because of those last results....and on top of that anxiety, people seem to not see me, as though I'm literally invisible. It's so bad now, that I've started counting. Yesterday, two (low number for that trip) people ran into me. Nobody said sorry, asked if I was alright, or even noticed they ran into an actual person. It was like (and always is) they never even saw me....which makes me feel more in the way, and it's just a vicious cycle. Yesterday, after the second crash, I had to find somewhere to hide...I only needed two avacados and I was so close! So I gave myself a pep talk, and made it to the avacados, got them, and headed to the checkout. Luckily, after all of that, the self checkout was open, so I didn't have to interact with people in any way. Why am I like this? At work, I am completely comfortable. At home, I'm obviously fine, too. But when I get out, if I'm ALONE, it's anxiety-full speed. If I were to make the same grocery trip WITH anyone, I would have been okay. Why does this happen? Is it worth seeking help? I'm worried about the costs of seeking help...which brings more anxiety...and I'm just an anxious ball of feelings rolling around aimlessly worrying and wondering.....maybe I should seek help.....I try to talk to my husband, but he doesn't understand....he thinks it's a switch I can turn off/on, but it's not. It's constant. I feel stuck.

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⛺Over the break, Dadda took me camping! I got to be little the whole time! I even packed my Minnie Mouse backpack! I had fun hiking the trails, learning chess, and staying warm by the fire! Dadda even made lots of foods for us! The views were very beautiful!🏕 🐱Our kitty was extra sassy in the car on the way home! And I had to change glasses! 🤓 🌲🌅🌳🌄

Dadda got us new boots for the trip, then I picked out this as my little outfit for the day! Yay!

On my vacation I will be taking a social media detox. Here it is, if you want to try it. I am starting by posting all these pictures, and deleting almost everything from my phone. I think my mind will thank be. I will be sure to post about how this experience effects me. Hope everyone has a great week! 💞

These are some things I'm going to try to pay more attention to, and I am hopefully going to help my anxiety by getting my spiritual side in line, and everything balanced. 💜

I forgot I had a picture of my old set up! It's been a while since these have been grouped together. My stuffies are social, they like to mingle with lots of different ones, so I move them around ever so often.

Lock screens and backgrounds I love using!

I colored this one in honor of the Olympics & getting to over 100 followers! Thanks you guys!

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