am i happy? am i happy? it just makes me more miserable

Nah I don’t have memory issues I remember my childhood pretty well.yeah everything I remember has been recorded or told to me and anything outside of that I don’t remember unless it was bad but like that’s fine

oh. uhm. damn

Of course I contradict myself. I contain multitudes [suddenly getting defensive] But not in a plural way. I’m not plural [trying not to seem ableist] Not that there’s anything wrong with that [three year old alter takes over] Abaa, lalala,

[anxious, concerned] im so fucked. theres so many things about me my friends would hate if they found out about. if anyone knew who i really am id be completely and torally despised [thinks a little harder] But thats fine. Everyone is like this. Its normal actually. Everyone is secretly evil but its not a big deal. Its like chill.

every 5 minutes i go wow i NEED to kill myself and then i ignore it because i have things to do

my ultimate fantasy is to have a brain and body that allows me to enjoy being alive

severely deficient in whatever vitamin makes u a person

im probably plural but i got a job rn so don't have time to worry abt that

we*

fucked that you can’t fix other people especially when you really care about them. Oh so im just supposed to be there for you while you suffer. like a useless cunt gargoyle

my mind palace is not up to code

there is a pain inside me so stupid that i'm not going to communicate it to anyone

getting c-ptsd when you thought it’d be at least a b+ ☹️

well well well if it isn’t the obvious truth which i have been running away from as fast as i possibly can all this time