hiatus

Hey everyone! I just thought I'd let you all know that I'm leaving tumblr, if only for a while. I have already kind of been in the process of leaving it, and I am sad about it but I don't think I can stay on this website for much longer.

I feel like I should state this plainly and honestly, I do not blame anyone at all for my leaving. No one person, or group of people led me to come to this decision. I just felt that I was no longer invested in clicking the reblog button over and over again every day and concerning myself with what other blogs and their owners thought of my blog and me and what I post. It was all getting to much more stress than I ever wanted. I don't feel good mentally or physically, and I think leaving tumblr is a good step for me to get back to a normal life, and being able to spend more time with family and away from my computer.

It was fun in the beginning, when I had less on my plate and was still in the age where I could actually enjoy fandoms as a whole without feeling like being in one was putting my sanity and reputation at risk. Not that I blame the fandoms or anything for making me leave, just the growing stress of being associated with a fandom in general is one of the factors making me leave.

Things on this site, for me personally, turned from a fun place where I could meet people who were into the same stuff as me, and share my love of things gladly to something that felt like I was trapped in the same routine day in and day out, and the stress created by becoming aware of the things that were happening on the website was turning me into a hateful, angry person and I don't want to be that. I just want to be happy, and I honestly believe that leaving, at least for a while, will lead me on that path.

I made so many friends in the three years I've been a member of the site, and I won't forget any of you at all anytime soon if at all. You were honestly the best part of tumblr for me, and the only reasons I stayed for so long. I am going to miss all of you so much, and I really am sorry for leaving if you liked my blog. I am trying to do what is best for me, and I hope that you all understand that. I love you guys, so so so very much and that feeling has never and will never change.

I'm not saying that I will never, ever come back. I am not deleting my blog, I am just signing out and leaving it for a time. To my friends, I am going to miss seeing your urls and icons and posts on my screen every day, but I am doing what's best for me, I hope. I love you guys, all of you, and I wish the best for each and every one of you.