angelic grotesque

[woman who has never been gentle with herself voice] I just need to be more disciplined

settings > wound > my wound > reopen

you can lead a lamb away from slaughter but you can't make it stop feeling like a sacrifice

Your 20s are not about getting your life together they're about learning to escape the self imposed torture labyrinth you've built inside your own head

gender affirming pointy teeth

[suddenly disillusioned] my illusions..

"it's ok to show (x) in fiction as long as the bad guy gets punished!" the bad guy doesn't have to get punished. in fact the bad guy can win altogether. the bad guy can entirely get away with it. hope this helps

and this part might make some people's head explode but: characters can be written to forgive things you personally wouldn't ever forgive. not everything is written as what you'd perceive to be the right choice. not everything is a self-insert & protagonists don't have to be relatable.

the thing is that pomegranates and blood and cannibalism and Fucked Up Deer are literally cool. like they're genuinely just sick as fuck and you simply cannot deny it without looking like a try-hard contrarian. they rule. sorry for thinking deep scarlet is an awesome color for things to be... as if it's my fault...

refining backstory touchstone for Vivi has yielded a record-breaking harvest of angst and anguish for her in my brain. just like. oh my god. jesus christ.

everything is awful and life is hell but at least there's cool goth butch older sibling figures who call you "honey" and introduce you to the concept of being transgender

*through gritted teeth* does anyone know how to maintain conversation with someone who is a really lackluster conversationalist and clearly wants you to carry every conversation but they're really nice and they clearly need more positive socialization so you don't want to just ignore them but also. god.

to be clear this is not and would never be about anyone I would think could see it. this is about a person I know IRL

there’s just something so awesome about a character you love getting really badly hurt