Itâs been a while
Itâs been a while since I have sat down and wrote something thatâs on my mind.
I do come back and read again the posts I have written and think to myself âIâm glad I went through all - I am now able to see that through pain comes a lesson, and through a lesson comes experience & knowledgeâ.
I used to think that I could never forgive and never forget - and to think that you can is... well... not a reality.Â
You, in your own way, should forgive. Do not dwell on things that have happened and carry them with you for the rest of your remaining life. Learn to understand it and to be able to accept that it is what it is - there is always a lesson and something you can do about it - whatever that means to you and I assure you it does make sense in the end.Â
You are allowed to be sad, to mourn, to be angry, anxious, laugh, be embarrassed. To go through a rollercoaster of feelings and thoughts that in the end will make you understand what it means.Â
You should not forget - as it is a part of what made you who you are. ClichĂ© I know - but arenât you 100% of all of the experiences that you have had? And not have had? The lack of it - what ever it is - is also a part of what made you.
But if you do, well - lucky you. As a coping mechanism I tend to forget - which makes me frustrated and be harsh on myself. Though I ask myself - is it really worth it to remember? As long as you know the lesson you have learned. To say no. To be you. To pursue happiness - in any shape or form. To accept that not all people are to be in your life forever. To know that some people play a part in your life for just a second and thatâs all you need. To be able to say âit was nice whilst it lastedâ and to also say âit was not worth it - though I am glad to have gone through it to learn to never make it happen againâ.
In hopes that some people may read my posts and maybe identify themselves with - but also learn that it is always temporary. It all depends on what you do next - even when you donât do nothing at all it comes with a cost or a consequence. May that be good or bad.
I shall write soon.

















