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Pairing: Ser Duncan The Tall x Reader
Setting: A Knight Of The Seven Kingdoms (shortly post The Hedge Knight)
Summary: Few days after the events at Ashford Meadow, you and Duncan discuss about the consequences of the trial of seven after you woke up from a nightmare.
Word Count: 4 K
Warnings: fluff, angst, hurt/comfort, estabilished relationship, Aerion Targaryen, character death, implied physical violence, mention of blood, happy ending. Please, tell me if I have missed something else!
A.N. *Aegon's voice* I'm alive! Life has been busy as hell and I had a block that literally didn't give me the chance to write something that I might like. HOTD s3 made me realize how I miss AKOTSK and my boy Dunk as well, so I hope the Dunk nation might enjoy this fic! My writing is a bit rusty, so forgive me for the nonsense things and rushed finale. 💜
I'll slowly come back to work to all the requests I received in the past, be patient for a bit and I'll write them all during the summer holidays.
Fic requests are currently open! Check out the request guidelines.
ENGLISH IS NOT MY FIRST LANGUAGE. I APOLOGISE IN ADVANCE FOR MY GRAMMAR AND VOCABULARY MISTAKES.
SER DUNCAN THE TALL MASTERLIST || A KNIGHT OF THE SEVEN KINGDOMS MASTERLIST
The moment your eyes fluttered open, a wave of unease swept over you as the tourney ground of Ashford Meadow revealed itself in all its spectral nature.
The earth sank beneath your feet, damp with sweat and blood of every knight who had crossed in some bloody battle long since fought — cracked shields, broken lances, dead horses laying motionless on the ground. You could still hear the muffled echoes of the clash of steel, the hard hooves and the battle cries rising from both sides, some fading as the Stranger came to claim their souls, slowly and mercilessly.
There were no warriors, nor nobles and folks crowding the grandstands to watch; it was just you and the bank of mist, air thick with death and dread.
It was supposed to be a low-key tournament, the kind the street minstrels sung about. There should be a parade of knights in shiny armours, banners of their House snapping crisp in the wind and highborn ladies fussing over them, tossing favours down like petals in the wind.
It would be your first time to witness Dunk entering the lists in Ser Arlan's stead, and only the gods knew how nervous you'd been for him.
You were there when he struggled to find someone who would vouch for him, and when, that same night, he came back to you with a purse full of coppers, eyes veiled with sadness as he sold Sweetfoot to get decent armour. You were there during the nights near the fire, easing his frustration and banishing his anxieties, bodies close together as a cloth wrapped you both to shield you from the cold night, your eyes gazing at the stars while his chin rested on your head, once sleep overtook him. And you were there in the moments hope brightened his blue eyes, his large hand engulfing yours, and his dried lips brushed against yours, as he promised to crown you as his queen before the masses once victory would favour him.
Sadly, that moment never came; you witnessed Dunk taking part to an ancient and brutal trial, having been guilty of anything but being faithful of his good heart and chivalric soul, defending the weak and the innocent as every true knight must.
Your eyes stood vigilant, darting back and forth with the hope to find something, anything that would ease the dreadful feeling forming at the pit of your stomach, anything that would tell you it was just your tired mind playing its nasty tricks to you.
But your hope died the moment your eyes fell on him.
Dunk's massive body lay curled on the ground, his helm at some distance away. Dirt and blood crusted dark over his fair skin, and his sword was still clenched tightly in one fist. One eye had swollen shut and gone deep purple, a wound left too long untended, while the sane one was unfocused at some blind spot in front of him.
Your limbs moved without your leave, dragging you close to that massive fallen shape of him, and at every step you made the dread in your chest hardened into something colder — a realisation that your mind refused to process. Yet, by the time you stood over him, you didn't need to search for a pulse to confirm your suspects.
His body had gone rigid like a piece of wood, nor there was a rise of breath beneath his armour or a faint twitch that would prove that he was still living despite his mortal wounds. You tried to force him on his knees, to wake him up with your trembling voice and your desperate pleas; alas, none of these were able to bring him back to you.
He was gone, in the same way he came into your life, quietly and unexpectedly.
And the worst thing of all, his murderer rose proudly above him.
Aerion Targaryen stood triumphant despite his wounds, his body covered in an austere armour that made him look more like a savage dragon than a human being. He swung his shield in the air, his arms wide open to a phantom audience, parading his boundless ego and sinister happiness.
"It's over!" you heard him, his voice weary yet as piercing as a dragon’s roar. "The culprit's dead! The gods have meted out their justice!"
His words were able to leave you stunned and bewildered, and while tears were free to stream down your face, your voice quickly died in your throat. You tried to make a tentative step forward, to reach and shield Dunk's lifeless body with your own, but the moment Aerion turned his head towards you, you froze.
"And his whore will soon follow him."
The Targaryen prince set one foot on the ground, then the other, closing the last stretch with a slowness that felt deliberate, almost predatory. Your heart was shaking inside your ribcage as soon as you saw his lumbering, serpentine-like movements, and for an instant you thought a real dragon was going to approach you and bathe you with his breath of fire.
…up…
Panicked, you desperately ordered your legs to move as fast as they could and drag you away from the tourney field. But they failed to comply, paralysed by fear; your feet somehow sank into the ground, preventing you from moving them.
…up, please…
Your breath, once stuck in your throat, came out as ragged grasps that grew louder and louder you felt your head spin. Aerion was coming after you, and for the first time in your life you felt completely helpless.
…wake up…
Then, as if some primal force had suddenly awakened within you, your body sprinted in the opposite direction, moving like a wild animal freed from its cage. The mist tore around you as you ran, the soil cracked under your boots as your eyes searched for any kind of weapon that would give you a slight advantage against him — you already refused the idea of taking Duncan's sword: his fingers were too rigid to slip them from the hilt of his blade, and the blunt or broken blades lying on the ground weren't enough to face a duel.
Your run came to an abrupt halt when you tripped over a shield stuck in the ground. Groaning, you curled up in a ball and tried to get back on your feet, but Aerion was fast enough to reach you and force you down, his fingers digging into your shoulders and shaking you with unnatural force.
While you fought against his grip, pleading for your release, you watched his mouth move, the words distant in your ears, until a familiar voice cut through it all.
Wake up!
Your eyes snapped open to the darkness, chest heavy and throat dry and raw for the scream you let out before. The pounding of your own heart was the first thing you registered, along with the dampness of your forehead and a strong grip keeping your shoulders still, a pair of blue eyes and deep purple one studying you with concern.
"Breathe," the man whispered gently, his thumb moving a damp strand on hair from your forehead. "Yes, like this. Deep breaths, in and out."
Reassured by that sweet voice, you inhaled and exhaled slowly until the frantic beat of your heart stopped and your vision became clear enough to recognize the two in front of you.
"Dunk?" you breathed out, eyes softening at the sight of him. It was still him, the Duncan you followed and loved, battered and bruised from the trial, some drops of blood dried on his cheek and nose. His eye was still bruised — less swollen than the one you’d seen in your dream — but slightly half-closed, and the look of pure love and concern in his eyes put your mind at ease.
Sat next to you, Egg's little hand searched for yours, squeezing it in a soothing manner.
"Aye, it is me," Duncan replied, leaning close and touching your forehead with his, cradling your face with both his hands. "You're safe with me, I promise you."
At first you let out a weary sight, your eyelids half closed at his thumb brushing your cheeks. But the flashes of your nightmare kept plaguing your mind, and the sight of Aerion's twisted smile made your body jolt.
"Aerion." You whispered, your voice trembling slightly, "He's-"
"Gone." the hedge knight replied firmly but kindly, "To the East, where he won’t do anyone any harm."
"Not to us, at least." Egg added, casting a fleeting gaze to Duncan, who nodded in approval. "Ashford is no longer to our reach, my lady. We're safe."
"Safe," you whispered, repeating a word that was somehow foreign in your tongue. Your fingers still trembled when they wrapped around Duncan's wrists, and the hedge knight replied by shifting you closer, the tips of your nose almost touching.
"Safe, yes. We are," he repeated, his encouraging smile lightning his contused face. "Whatever you may have dreamt, it wasn’t real. I'm here, with you."
You opened your mouth to protest, but the words soon died in your throat as Dunk wrapped his arms you, your head resting on his collarbone while his body rocked yours gently. "Now go back to sleep. We will depart at the first lights of the morrow, and I want you to be well-rested." He whispered, leaving a tender kiss on the crown of your heard.
"What about me, ser?" Egg asked, standing up and shaking the soil off his tunic. "May I be useful in some way?"
"What use would a tired squire be to me if we are set to depart early in the morrow and lack sleep?" Dunk chided the boy gently. "Lay down and go to sleep, lad. Chestnut needs to be properly fed and brushed; it is your duty to treat her."
Egg nodded. "Good night then, ser." After looking at him briefly, he marched towards his blanket, closing his eyes and letting sleep claim him. Duncan stood by your side for a while, rocking you gently and clumsily singing you soothing tunes — or at least he tried, knowing how singing was not his best talent. And once he heard your breath going steady and your eyes shut, he gave you a good night kiss and put you in bed, before laying down as well.
Sleep had never claimed you since then.
For the first two hours you tossed and turned, your mind circling back to the haunting memory of Dunk lying down, lifeless, and Aerion coming after you. You woke up continuously, checking the camp each time; once you saw Dunk and Egg snoring near the horses, you stood up and walked to the nearest stream, splashing cold water on your face and lay back down without saying a word.
The fourth time you woke, Duncan wasn't asleep at all.
He sat close to the fire, watching the flames and absentmindedly playing with a twig in his hands. His head hung low, jaw tight, and eyes fixed somewhere far away, lost deep in thought. The rise and fall of the flames cast a warm glow on his skin, and you noticed how his wounds made him smaller and more vulnerable than he usually was — a sight you weren’t accustomed to seeing except in moments of intimacy.
"The maesters have told you not to stand so close to the fire," you broke the silence with a whisper, standing up and rubbing one of your eyes. "The wound to your eye is still fresh, heat won't heal it."
Dunk scoffed softly, shaking his head while looking at the flames. "It won't be the fire that undoes me," he said, voice rough between a laugh and a groan. "Come and sit with me."
You sighed and lowered yourself beside him, close enough for your shoulders to brush. The fire’s heat wrapped around you both in a comforting warmth, a stark contrast to the uneasy silence that settled between you. Behind you, Egg was still fast asleep, and not even the crackling of the fire could rouse him.
"You…" Dunk broke the silence first, closing his mouth as if searching for the right words. "How much more are a hedge knight’s hand and foot worth than a prince of the blood’s life?" He asked with grave voice, tilting his head and looking at you.
You blinked, stunned by his sudden question. "What?" you inquired, trying to make sense of it.
"It is the law." he said, and there was a raw vulnerability in his voice you'd rarely heard in him. "I raised my hands against the royal blood, I might have lost my head for this." He looked back at the fire, clenching his jaw while squeezing the twig in his hands. "Prince Baelor would have denied it, but he offered me the choice between a trial or losing the offending hand and foot."
A short, humourless laugh escaped him, and when he looked at you there was love in his eyes, along with remorse and shame. "He was right about Egg. He should have come to him when his brother was assaulting that puppeteer. But when he said your name and saw what he meant to do to you-"
He paused, calming the anger boiling in his chest with a deep sigh. You said nothing, your gaze fixed on the pop and hiss of the flames as the memories of that day returned crystal clear.
You were with Egg at that puppeteer’s show — Tanselle, that was the name you remembered — and with wonder in your eyes, you watched the tales of heroes and knights come alive, of winged beasts that once ruled the skies and wiped out armies with their fiery breath. Then Aerion emerged from the crowd, watching with fury and disbelief as the puppeteer slew a dragon, applause fading when he approached her and pulled her from the stage. You remembered grabbing Egg from his arm, urging him to call for help while courage swelled inside you, rushing forward as soon as you saw the Targaryen prince snapping Tanselle's fingers, unable to stop him in time.
You recalled how he forced you to your knees, fingers clutching your wrist and forcing your hand open, about to snap your own fingers when Duncan appeared, face twisted with blind rage the moment he saw your distress, and the beast within him unleashed a fist that made the prince's mouth bleed.
Since then, distress and bad dreams plagued you while praying for the Seven to protect over the hedge knight, asking that they spare him whatever price his courage might yet demand of him. And then the trial of seven came, and with it the tragic aftermath the whole realm would carry the rest of its days.
"Don't." you murmured, forcing the words past the tightness in your throat. "Do not let those thoughts of yourself weigh so heavy. You are not the sum of what the law says you're worth, Dunk. You never were."
Your words seemed to strike something inside him, snapping him back to reality as he fixed his astonished gaze on you.
"You carried your own pride and virtue like a true knight, a quality that has fallen on these days sadly," you continued, your hand stretched towards his, squeezing it gently in a timid comfort, "A hundred of those said nobles and armoured knights would revel in it while bathing in the comfort their birth afforded them, and never once lifting a hand for anyone else's sake. It was good the gods chose to strike them at last."
Your words seemed to convince him: he returned your squeeze, bringing your hand to his lips and kissing it softly. Yet the moment your eyes met, he withdrew his hand, a sad smile shadowing his face.
"Aye, but the gods failed to strike the one who deserved it most." he retorted, "The realm has lost its most chivalric king, had he not forfeit his life and fight for me-"
"Fought for you?" you scoffed, your eyebrows raised in surprise. "And against what, may I ask? His own nephew? His own brother? His own knights that would harm anyone but him? Would had not been so unlucky, he would have survived unscathed."
You stood silent for a bit, exhaling slowly as your gaze lowered to the ground. "Do not think ill of my judgement, I liked him. He seemed a prince with a good sense of justice and a genuine heart. Yet how would his declaration as your champion favour your innocence but restore the honour of his family? The gods can sense a fraud when they see one."
Dunk groaned in disapproval and dropped the twig in the fire, watching the flames engulfing it. "You think it was pride, then," he said at last, voice tight. "That he stood for me only to scrub some family shame from his name."
"Could be both," you said gently, "you had people fighting for you, truly fighting. You had nobles standing for you who could lose honour and lands, even their lives and families were the gods not merciful enough-"
"So you think his own family did not deserve mercy?" he snapped, keeping his voice low so he wouldn't wake Egg. "I left his children fatherless. The gods will whisper in my ear how his brother swung the mace but I urged him at my side. The old man chanted of his fairness and how the realm would flourish with his guide, and I took him from it. If my life is not forfeit for this, then what?"
You listened to him with jaw clenched, biting back the urge to argue further. When you finally spoke, your voice came low and even. "I can't believe you can be so fucking stupid."
You stood up, intending to reach your bed and try to sleep again when a tight grip seized your arm, freezing you in place. Duncan spun you around to face him, and at first, his gaze made you wish you could take back what you’d said. Yet, you quickly noticed how his massive body trembled like a leaf, his eyes shining with a mix of anger, shame, and remorse. It was a sight that both infuriated you and made your heart ache.
"Speak plainly and not in riddles, woman." "Dunk rasped, his grip tightening, though not enough to hurt you. "Tell me again how stupid I am, if you believe it so."
"Let me go."
"Tell me how fool I am, to feel the bad luck surround me and bring pain and suffer to the ones I love since the day I draw my first breath."
"Let me go, Dunk-"
"Tell me, then, how foolish it was of me to lead people who chose willingly to follow me, and to fear hurting them above all else with my choices." He said, a hint of tremor could be feel in his voice. "Wouldn't it be better for them to let me go, and live some content life far from whatever curse follows me? Who would grieve a simple hedge knight long, once he's gone for once?"
“I would, Duncan!” you said without hesitation, raising your voice and not caring if anyone heard, frustration overwhelming you as tears streamed down your face. "I fucking would grieve you more than a lifetime. And it is not you that made me cursed, for the gods showed me your death before my own eyes once sleep claims me, until I no longer know if I am awake or dreaming!"
A heavy silence settled over you, broken only by the popping of flames that would soon be extinguished. Duncan stood as still as stone, fists clenched and gaze lowered. Your words struck him harder than any slap he had received from Ser Arlan as a boy, and shook his conscience more than Lyonel Baratheon’s outburst at Ashford.
But what hurt him most was seeing your tear-streaked face: for once, he felt as if he had broken the sacred vow of a knight — to protect the innocent from harm. And he felt miserable.
"Since we left Ashford I could not stop dreaming about that bloody trial," you said, sniffing softly, "and how you fell on the ground and stood still for a bit. I pleaded for you to wake up, and you did. But in my dream? You were nothing but a cold corpse."
Dunk was silent for a moment, remorse burning deep in his gut: the night before the fight, he had heard your pleas, quieting them with a long kiss and promising that everything would be all right.
Now, he finally understood how much it had meant to you.
"But it wasn't real." Dunk whispered, crossing the space between you while cradling your face. The hedge knight took his time to study it, noticing how sadness has not marred your beauty, how comely your eyes were despite the redness surrounding your pupils. "I woke up, I came back to you."
"I know you did," you retorted with a feeble voice, avoiding his gaze until he lifted your head. "The gods had shown their mercy that day. But that is not a granted thing, neither for nobles nor for knights. They could have just turn a blind eye and allow the fate to do its work on you, and that is the fear that keeps plaguing my dreams."
On tiptoe, you rested your forehead against his, sighing at how lovely it felt to feel his warmth against you. Dunk let you draw close, one hand resting on your hip, holding you tenderly. His other one wrapped around yours, pressing your palm against his chest, letting you feel his steady heartbeat.
"Promise me you will stop thinking so poorly of yourself," you murmured, giving him a small smile. "The world may see a naive, illiterate hedge knight crossing the Seven Kingdoms with his bald squire, but my own eyes see a chivalrous man who will defy the law itself to defend those who have no voice."
You leaned closer until your lips almost touched, breaths mingling in the small space left between you. "And I will choose to follow that man until the Long Night comes."
Those words were the final strand to give way. Something within Duncan seemed to break loose all at once, and all his self-control was gone the moment he drew you closer, enveloping both of you in a kiss that felt desperate yet reverent, unlike all the tender glances and private moments of intimacy you had shared on your journey together. One of his hands slipped into your hair, the other pressed flat against the small of your back, pulling you in until there was no space left between you, feeling the unsteady rhythm of his heart matching your own. You sensed the low rumble he emitted against your lips, a hybrid of a groan and your name, whispering apologies as he poured all his love and regret into it.
It was when you both fell apart, spent and out of breath, his brow pressed to yours, that Dunk found the courage to speak.
"My beloved, you deserve someone richer and better than a poor hedge knight."
You chuckled and rolled your eyes, pressing a brief kiss on his lips. "Why would I wish a pompous and rich lord when I have the fairest man in front of my eyes?"
"Then allow this fairest man to make you happy, once the time comes." Dunk replied with a giggle, and closed the distance again.
You both ended up near the low fire, Dunk awake and watching the stars while you were sprawled next to him, hand resting over the steady rise and fall of his chest. The trial of seven was still a fresh memory in your mind, but this time there was no echo of death or the ghost of Aerion haunting you.
And the hedge knight, watching a shooting star streak across the sky, found himself marvelling at the strange turns a life could take: an orphan boy out of Flea Bottom, who had nothing but the weak legacy of the knight that took him under his guard, now having a young prince for a squire, his honour somehow intact, and a strong, faithful woman travelling at his side.
For that, he thought, he could not be more grateful to the Seven.
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Header by me | Dividers & banners by @/cafekitsune
READ IT ON AO3
Pairing: Ser Duncan The Tall x Reader
Setting: A Knight Of The Seven Kingdoms (shortly post The Hedge Knight)
Summary: Few days after the events at Ashford Meadow, you and Duncan discuss about the consequences of the trial of seven after you woke up from a nightmare.
Word Count: 4 K
Warnings: fluff, angst, hurt/comfort, estabilished relationship, Aerion Targaryen, character death, implied physical violence, mention of blood, happy ending. Please, tell me if I have missed something else!
A.N. *Aegon's voice* I'm alive! Life has been busy as hell and I had a block that literally didn't give me the chance to write something that I might like. HOTD s3 made me realize how I miss AKOTSK and my boy Dunk as well, so I hope the Dunk nation might enjoy this fic! My writing is a bit rusty, so forgive me for the nonsense things and rushed finale. 💜
I'll slowly come back to work to all the requests I received in the past, be patient for a bit and I'll write them all during the summer holidays.
Fic requests are currently open! Check out the request guidelines.
ENGLISH IS NOT MY FIRST LANGUAGE. I APOLOGISE IN ADVANCE FOR MY GRAMMAR AND VOCABULARY MISTAKES.
SER DUNCAN THE TALL MASTERLIST || A KNIGHT OF THE SEVEN KINGDOMS MASTERLIST
The moment your eyes fluttered open, a wave of unease swept over you as the tourney ground of Ashford Meadow revealed itself in all its spectral nature.
The earth sank beneath your feet, damp with sweat and blood of every knight who had crossed in some bloody battle long since fought — cracked shields, broken lances, dead horses laying motionless on the ground. You could still hear the muffled echoes of the clash of steel, the hard hooves and the battle cries rising from both sides, some fading as the Stranger came to claim their souls, slowly and mercilessly.
There were no warriors, nor nobles and folks crowding the grandstands to watch; it was just you and the bank of mist, air thick with death and dread.
It was supposed to be a low-key tournament, the kind the street minstrels sung about. There should be a parade of knights in shiny armours, banners of their House snapping crisp in the wind and highborn ladies fussing over them, tossing favours down like petals in the wind.
It would be your first time to witness Dunk entering the lists in Ser Arlan's stead, and only the gods knew how nervous you'd been for him.
You were there when he struggled to find someone who would vouch for him, and when, that same night, he came back to you with a purse full of coppers, eyes veiled with sadness as he sold Sweetfoot to get decent armour. You were there during the nights near the fire, easing his frustration and banishing his anxieties, bodies close together as a cloth wrapped you both to shield you from the cold night, your eyes gazing at the stars while his chin rested on your head, once sleep overtook him. And you were there in the moments hope brightened his blue eyes, his large hand engulfing yours, and his dried lips brushed against yours, as he promised to crown you as his queen before the masses once victory would favour him.
Sadly, that moment never came; you witnessed Dunk taking part to an ancient and brutal trial, having been guilty of anything but being faithful of his good heart and chivalric soul, defending the weak and the innocent as every true knight must.
Your eyes stood vigilant, darting back and forth with the hope to find something, anything that would ease the dreadful feeling forming at the pit of your stomach, anything that would tell you it was just your tired mind playing its nasty tricks to you.
But your hope died the moment your eyes fell on him.
Dunk's massive body lay curled on the ground, his helm at some distance away. Dirt and blood crusted dark over his fair skin, and his sword was still clenched tightly in one fist. One eye had swollen shut and gone deep purple, a wound left too long untended, while the sane one was unfocused at some blind spot in front of him.
Your limbs moved without your leave, dragging you close to that massive fallen shape of him, and at every step you made the dread in your chest hardened into something colder — a realisation that your mind refused to process. Yet, by the time you stood over him, you didn't need to search for a pulse to confirm your suspects.
His body had gone rigid like a piece of wood, nor there was a rise of breath beneath his armour or a faint twitch that would prove that he was still living despite his mortal wounds. You tried to force him on his knees, to wake him up with your trembling voice and your desperate pleas; alas, none of these were able to bring him back to you.
He was gone, in the same way he came into your life, quietly and unexpectedly.
And the worst thing of all, his murderer rose proudly above him.
Aerion Targaryen stood triumphant despite his wounds, his body covered in an austere armour that made him look more like a savage dragon than a human being. He swung his shield in the air, his arms wide open to a phantom audience, parading his boundless ego and sinister happiness.
"It's over!" you heard him, his voice weary yet as piercing as a dragon’s roar. "The culprit's dead! The gods have meted out their justice!"
His words were able to leave you stunned and bewildered, and while tears were free to stream down your face, your voice quickly died in your throat. You tried to make a tentative step forward, to reach and shield Dunk's lifeless body with your own, but the moment Aerion turned his head towards you, you froze.
"And his whore will soon follow him."
The Targaryen prince set one foot on the ground, then the other, closing the last stretch with a slowness that felt deliberate, almost predatory. Your heart was shaking inside your ribcage as soon as you saw his lumbering, serpentine-like movements, and for an instant you thought a real dragon was going to approach you and bathe you with his breath of fire.
…up…
Panicked, you desperately ordered your legs to move as fast as they could and drag you away from the tourney field. But they failed to comply, paralysed by fear; your feet somehow sank into the ground, preventing you from moving them.
…up, please…
Your breath, once stuck in your throat, came out as ragged grasps that grew louder and louder you felt your head spin. Aerion was coming after you, and for the first time in your life you felt completely helpless.
…wake up…
Then, as if some primal force had suddenly awakened within you, your body sprinted in the opposite direction, moving like a wild animal freed from its cage. The mist tore around you as you ran, the soil cracked under your boots as your eyes searched for any kind of weapon that would give you a slight advantage against him — you already refused the idea of taking Duncan's sword: his fingers were too rigid to slip them from the hilt of his blade, and the blunt or broken blades lying on the ground weren't enough to face a duel.
Your run came to an abrupt halt when you tripped over a shield stuck in the ground. Groaning, you curled up in a ball and tried to get back on your feet, but Aerion was fast enough to reach you and force you down, his fingers digging into your shoulders and shaking you with unnatural force.
While you fought against his grip, pleading for your release, you watched his mouth move, the words distant in your ears, until a familiar voice cut through it all.
Wake up!
Your eyes snapped open to the darkness, chest heavy and throat dry and raw for the scream you let out before. The pounding of your own heart was the first thing you registered, along with the dampness of your forehead and a strong grip keeping your shoulders still, a pair of blue eyes and deep purple one studying you with concern.
"Breathe," the man whispered gently, his thumb moving a damp strand on hair from your forehead. "Yes, like this. Deep breaths, in and out."
Reassured by that sweet voice, you inhaled and exhaled slowly until the frantic beat of your heart stopped and your vision became clear enough to recognize the two in front of you.
"Dunk?" you breathed out, eyes softening at the sight of him. It was still him, the Duncan you followed and loved, battered and bruised from the trial, some drops of blood dried on his cheek and nose. His eye was still bruised — less swollen than the one you’d seen in your dream — but slightly half-closed, and the look of pure love and concern in his eyes put your mind at ease.
Sat next to you, Egg's little hand searched for yours, squeezing it in a soothing manner.
"Aye, it is me," Duncan replied, leaning close and touching your forehead with his, cradling your face with both his hands. "You're safe with me, I promise you."
At first you let out a weary sight, your eyelids half closed at his thumb brushing your cheeks. But the flashes of your nightmare kept plaguing your mind, and the sight of Aerion's twisted smile made your body jolt.
"Aerion." You whispered, your voice trembling slightly, "He's-"
"Gone." the hedge knight replied firmly but kindly, "To the East, where he won’t do anyone any harm."
"Not to us, at least." Egg added, casting a fleeting gaze to Duncan, who nodded in approval. "Ashford is no longer to our reach, my lady. We're safe."
"Safe," you whispered, repeating a word that was somehow foreign in your tongue. Your fingers still trembled when they wrapped around Duncan's wrists, and the hedge knight replied by shifting you closer, the tips of your nose almost touching.
"Safe, yes. We are," he repeated, his encouraging smile lightning his contused face. "Whatever you may have dreamt, it wasn’t real. I'm here, with you."
You opened your mouth to protest, but the words soon died in your throat as Dunk wrapped his arms you, your head resting on his collarbone while his body rocked yours gently. "Now go back to sleep. We will depart at the first lights of the morrow, and I want you to be well-rested." He whispered, leaving a tender kiss on the crown of your heard.
"What about me, ser?" Egg asked, standing up and shaking the soil off his tunic. "May I be useful in some way?"
"What use would a tired squire be to me if we are set to depart early in the morrow and lack sleep?" Dunk chided the boy gently. "Lay down and go to sleep, lad. Chestnut needs to be properly fed and brushed; it is your duty to treat her."
Egg nodded. "Good night then, ser." After looking at him briefly, he marched towards his blanket, closing his eyes and letting sleep claim him. Duncan stood by your side for a while, rocking you gently and clumsily singing you soothing tunes — or at least he tried, knowing how singing was not his best talent. And once he heard your breath going steady and your eyes shut, he gave you a good night kiss and put you in bed, before laying down as well.
Sleep had never claimed you since then.
For the first two hours you tossed and turned, your mind circling back to the haunting memory of Dunk lying down, lifeless, and Aerion coming after you. You woke up continuously, checking the camp each time; once you saw Dunk and Egg snoring near the horses, you stood up and walked to the nearest stream, splashing cold water on your face and lay back down without saying a word.
The fourth time you woke, Duncan wasn't asleep at all.
He sat close to the fire, watching the flames and absentmindedly playing with a twig in his hands. His head hung low, jaw tight, and eyes fixed somewhere far away, lost deep in thought. The rise and fall of the flames cast a warm glow on his skin, and you noticed how his wounds made him smaller and more vulnerable than he usually was — a sight you weren’t accustomed to seeing except in moments of intimacy.
"The maesters have told you not to stand so close to the fire," you broke the silence with a whisper, standing up and rubbing one of your eyes. "The wound to your eye is still fresh, heat won't heal it."
Dunk scoffed softly, shaking his head while looking at the flames. "It won't be the fire that undoes me," he said, voice rough between a laugh and a groan. "Come and sit with me."
You sighed and lowered yourself beside him, close enough for your shoulders to brush. The fire’s heat wrapped around you both in a comforting warmth, a stark contrast to the uneasy silence that settled between you. Behind you, Egg was still fast asleep, and not even the crackling of the fire could rouse him.
"You…" Dunk broke the silence first, closing his mouth as if searching for the right words. "How much more are a hedge knight’s hand and foot worth than a prince of the blood’s life?" He asked with grave voice, tilting his head and looking at you.
You blinked, stunned by his sudden question. "What?" you inquired, trying to make sense of it.
"It is the law." he said, and there was a raw vulnerability in his voice you'd rarely heard in him. "I raised my hands against the royal blood, I might have lost my head for this." He looked back at the fire, clenching his jaw while squeezing the twig in his hands. "Prince Baelor would have denied it, but he offered me the choice between a trial or losing the offending hand and foot."
A short, humourless laugh escaped him, and when he looked at you there was love in his eyes, along with remorse and shame. "He was right about Egg. He should have come to him when his brother was assaulting that puppeteer. But when he said your name and saw what he meant to do to you-"
He paused, calming the anger boiling in his chest with a deep sigh. You said nothing, your gaze fixed on the pop and hiss of the flames as the memories of that day returned crystal clear.
You were with Egg at that puppeteer’s show — Tanselle, that was the name you remembered — and with wonder in your eyes, you watched the tales of heroes and knights come alive, of winged beasts that once ruled the skies and wiped out armies with their fiery breath. Then Aerion emerged from the crowd, watching with fury and disbelief as the puppeteer slew a dragon, applause fading when he approached her and pulled her from the stage. You remembered grabbing Egg from his arm, urging him to call for help while courage swelled inside you, rushing forward as soon as you saw the Targaryen prince snapping Tanselle's fingers, unable to stop him in time.
You recalled how he forced you to your knees, fingers clutching your wrist and forcing your hand open, about to snap your own fingers when Duncan appeared, face twisted with blind rage the moment he saw your distress, and the beast within him unleashed a fist that made the prince's mouth bleed.
Since then, distress and bad dreams plagued you while praying for the Seven to protect over the hedge knight, asking that they spare him whatever price his courage might yet demand of him. And then the trial of seven came, and with it the tragic aftermath the whole realm would carry the rest of its days.
"Don't." you murmured, forcing the words past the tightness in your throat. "Do not let those thoughts of yourself weigh so heavy. You are not the sum of what the law says you're worth, Dunk. You never were."
Your words seemed to strike something inside him, snapping him back to reality as he fixed his astonished gaze on you.
"You carried your own pride and virtue like a true knight, a quality that has fallen on these days sadly," you continued, your hand stretched towards his, squeezing it gently in a timid comfort, "A hundred of those said nobles and armoured knights would revel in it while bathing in the comfort their birth afforded them, and never once lifting a hand for anyone else's sake. It was good the gods chose to strike them at last."
Your words seemed to convince him: he returned your squeeze, bringing your hand to his lips and kissing it softly. Yet the moment your eyes met, he withdrew his hand, a sad smile shadowing his face.
"Aye, but the gods failed to strike the one who deserved it most." he retorted, "The realm has lost its most chivalric king, had he not forfeit his life and fight for me-"
"Fought for you?" you scoffed, your eyebrows raised in surprise. "And against what, may I ask? His own nephew? His own brother? His own knights that would harm anyone but him? Would had not been so unlucky, he would have survived unscathed."
You stood silent for a bit, exhaling slowly as your gaze lowered to the ground. "Do not think ill of my judgement, I liked him. He seemed a prince with a good sense of justice and a genuine heart. Yet how would his declaration as your champion favour your innocence but restore the honour of his family? The gods can sense a fraud when they see one."
Dunk groaned in disapproval and dropped the twig in the fire, watching the flames engulfing it. "You think it was pride, then," he said at last, voice tight. "That he stood for me only to scrub some family shame from his name."
"Could be both," you said gently, "you had people fighting for you, truly fighting. You had nobles standing for you who could lose honour and lands, even their lives and families were the gods not merciful enough-"
"So you think his own family did not deserve mercy?" he snapped, keeping his voice low so he wouldn't wake Egg. "I left his children fatherless. The gods will whisper in my ear how his brother swung the mace but I urged him at my side. The old man chanted of his fairness and how the realm would flourish with his guide, and I took him from it. If my life is not forfeit for this, then what?"
You listened to him with jaw clenched, biting back the urge to argue further. When you finally spoke, your voice came low and even. "I can't believe you can be so fucking stupid."
You stood up, intending to reach your bed and try to sleep again when a tight grip seized your arm, freezing you in place. Duncan spun you around to face him, and at first, his gaze made you wish you could take back what you’d said. Yet, you quickly noticed how his massive body trembled like a leaf, his eyes shining with a mix of anger, shame, and remorse. It was a sight that both infuriated you and made your heart ache.
"Speak plainly and not in riddles, woman." "Dunk rasped, his grip tightening, though not enough to hurt you. "Tell me again how stupid I am, if you believe it so."
"Let me go."
"Tell me how fool I am, to feel the bad luck surround me and bring pain and suffer to the ones I love since the day I draw my first breath."
"Let me go, Dunk-"
"Tell me, then, how foolish it was of me to lead people who chose willingly to follow me, and to fear hurting them above all else with my choices." He said, a hint of tremor could be feel in his voice. "Wouldn't it be better for them to let me go, and live some content life far from whatever curse follows me? Who would grieve a simple hedge knight long, once he's gone for once?"
“I would, Duncan!” you said without hesitation, raising your voice and not caring if anyone heard, frustration overwhelming you as tears streamed down your face. "I fucking would grieve you more than a lifetime. And it is not you that made me cursed, for the gods showed me your death before my own eyes once sleep claims me, until I no longer know if I am awake or dreaming!"
A heavy silence settled over you, broken only by the popping of flames that would soon be extinguished. Duncan stood as still as stone, fists clenched and gaze lowered. Your words struck him harder than any slap he had received from Ser Arlan as a boy, and shook his conscience more than Lyonel Baratheon’s outburst at Ashford.
But what hurt him most was seeing your tear-streaked face: for once, he felt as if he had broken the sacred vow of a knight — to protect the innocent from harm. And he felt miserable.
"Since we left Ashford I could not stop dreaming about that bloody trial," you said, sniffing softly, "and how you fell on the ground and stood still for a bit. I pleaded for you to wake up, and you did. But in my dream? You were nothing but a cold corpse."
Dunk was silent for a moment, remorse burning deep in his gut: the night before the fight, he had heard your pleas, quieting them with a long kiss and promising that everything would be all right.
Now, he finally understood how much it had meant to you.
"But it wasn't real." Dunk whispered, crossing the space between you while cradling your face. The hedge knight took his time to study it, noticing how sadness has not marred your beauty, how comely your eyes were despite the redness surrounding your pupils. "I woke up, I came back to you."
"I know you did," you retorted with a feeble voice, avoiding his gaze until he lifted your head. "The gods had shown their mercy that day. But that is not a granted thing, neither for nobles nor for knights. They could have just turn a blind eye and allow the fate to do its work on you, and that is the fear that keeps plaguing my dreams."
On tiptoe, you rested your forehead against his, sighing at how lovely it felt to feel his warmth against you. Dunk let you draw close, one hand resting on your hip, holding you tenderly. His other one wrapped around yours, pressing your palm against his chest, letting you feel his steady heartbeat.
"Promise me you will stop thinking so poorly of yourself," you murmured, giving him a small smile. "The world may see a naive, illiterate hedge knight crossing the Seven Kingdoms with his bald squire, but my own eyes see a chivalrous man who will defy the law itself to defend those who have no voice."
You leaned closer until your lips almost touched, breaths mingling in the small space left between you. "And I will choose to follow that man until the Long Night comes."
Those words were the final strand to give way. Something within Duncan seemed to break loose all at once, and all his self-control was gone the moment he drew you closer, enveloping both of you in a kiss that felt desperate yet reverent, unlike all the tender glances and private moments of intimacy you had shared on your journey together. One of his hands slipped into your hair, the other pressed flat against the small of your back, pulling you in until there was no space left between you, feeling the unsteady rhythm of his heart matching your own. You sensed the low rumble he emitted against your lips, a hybrid of a groan and your name, whispering apologies as he poured all his love and regret into it.
It was when you both fell apart, spent and out of breath, his brow pressed to yours, that Dunk found the courage to speak.
"My beloved, you deserve someone richer and better than a poor hedge knight."
You chuckled and rolled your eyes, pressing a brief kiss on his lips. "Why would I wish a pompous and rich lord when I have the fairest man in front of my eyes?"
"Then allow this fairest man to make you happy, once the time comes." Dunk replied with a giggle, and closed the distance again.
You both ended up near the low fire, Dunk awake and watching the stars while you were sprawled next to him, hand resting over the steady rise and fall of his chest. The trial of seven was still a fresh memory in your mind, but this time there was no echo of death or the ghost of Aerion haunting you.
And the hedge knight, watching a shooting star streak across the sky, found himself marvelling at the strange turns a life could take: an orphan boy out of Flea Bottom, who had nothing but the weak legacy of the knight that took him under his guard, now having a young prince for a squire, his honour somehow intact, and a strong, faithful woman travelling at his side.
For that, he thought, he could not be more grateful to the Seven.
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Pairing: Ser Duncan The Tall x Reader
Setting: A Knight Of The Seven Kingdoms (shortly post The Hedge Knight)
Summary: Few days after the events at Ashford Meadow, you and Duncan discuss about the consequences of the trial of seven after you woke up from a nightmare.
Word Count: 4 K
Warnings: fluff, angst, hurt/comfort, estabilished relationship, Aerion Targaryen, character death, implied physical violence, mention of blood, happy ending. Please, tell me if I have missed something else!
A.N. *Aegon's voice* I'm alive! Life has been busy as hell and I had a block that literally didn't give me the chance to write something that I might like. HOTD s3 made me realize how I miss AKOTSK and my boy Dunk as well, so I hope the Dunk nation might enjoy this fic! My writing is a bit rusty, so forgive me for the nonsense things and rushed finale. 💜
I'll slowly come back to work to all the requests I received in the past, be patient for a bit and I'll write them all during the summer holidays.
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SER DUNCAN THE TALL MASTERLIST || A KNIGHT OF THE SEVEN KINGDOMS MASTERLIST
The moment your eyes fluttered open, a wave of unease swept over you as the tourney ground of Ashford Meadow revealed itself in all its spectral nature.
The earth sank beneath your feet, damp with sweat and blood of every knight who had crossed in some bloody battle long since fought — cracked shields, broken lances, dead horses laying motionless on the ground. You could still hear the muffled echoes of the clash of steel, the hard hooves and the battle cries rising from both sides, some fading as the Stranger came to claim their souls, slowly and mercilessly.
There were no warriors, nor nobles and folks crowding the grandstands to watch; it was just you and the bank of mist, air thick with death and dread.
It was supposed to be a low-key tournament, the kind the street minstrels sung about. There should be a parade of knights in shiny armours, banners of their House snapping crisp in the wind and highborn ladies fussing over them, tossing favours down like petals in the wind.
It would be your first time to witness Dunk entering the lists in Ser Arlan's stead, and only the gods knew how nervous you'd been for him.
You were there when he struggled to find someone who would vouch for him, and when, that same night, he came back to you with a purse full of coppers, eyes veiled with sadness as he sold Sweetfoot to get decent armour. You were there during the nights near the fire, easing his frustration and banishing his anxieties, bodies close together as a cloth wrapped you both to shield you from the cold night, your eyes gazing at the stars while his chin rested on your head, once sleep overtook him. And you were there in the moments hope brightened his blue eyes, his large hand engulfing yours, and his dried lips brushed against yours, as he promised to crown you as his queen before the masses once victory would favour him.
Sadly, that moment never came; you witnessed Dunk taking part to an ancient and brutal trial, having been guilty of anything but being faithful of his good heart and chivalric soul, defending the weak and the innocent as every true knight must.
Your eyes stood vigilant, darting back and forth with the hope to find something, anything that would ease the dreadful feeling forming at the pit of your stomach, anything that would tell you it was just your tired mind playing its nasty tricks to you.
But your hope died the moment your eyes fell on him.
Dunk's massive body lay curled on the ground, his helm at some distance away. Dirt and blood crusted dark over his fair skin, and his sword was still clenched tightly in one fist. One eye had swollen shut and gone deep purple, a wound left too long untended, while the sane one was unfocused at some blind spot in front of him.
Your limbs moved without your leave, dragging you close to that massive fallen shape of him, and at every step you made the dread in your chest hardened into something colder — a realisation that your mind refused to process. Yet, by the time you stood over him, you didn't need to search for a pulse to confirm your suspects.
His body had gone rigid like a piece of wood, nor there was a rise of breath beneath his armour or a faint twitch that would prove that he was still living despite his mortal wounds. You tried to force him on his knees, to wake him up with your trembling voice and your desperate pleas; alas, none of these were able to bring him back to you.
He was gone, in the same way he came into your life, quietly and unexpectedly.
And the worst thing of all, his murderer rose proudly above him.
Aerion Targaryen stood triumphant despite his wounds, his body covered in an austere armour that made him look more like a savage dragon than a human being. He swung his shield in the air, his arms wide open to a phantom audience, parading his boundless ego and sinister happiness.
"It's over!" you heard him, his voice weary yet as piercing as a dragon’s roar. "The culprit's dead! The gods have meted out their justice!"
His words were able to leave you stunned and bewildered, and while tears were free to stream down your face, your voice quickly died in your throat. You tried to make a tentative step forward, to reach and shield Dunk's lifeless body with your own, but the moment Aerion turned his head towards you, you froze.
"And his whore will soon follow him."
The Targaryen prince set one foot on the ground, then the other, closing the last stretch with a slowness that felt deliberate, almost predatory. Your heart was shaking inside your ribcage as soon as you saw his lumbering, serpentine-like movements, and for an instant you thought a real dragon was going to approach you and bathe you with his breath of fire.
…up…
Panicked, you desperately ordered your legs to move as fast as they could and drag you away from the tourney field. But they failed to comply, paralysed by fear; your feet somehow sank into the ground, preventing you from moving them.
…up, please…
Your breath, once stuck in your throat, came out as ragged grasps that grew louder and louder you felt your head spin. Aerion was coming after you, and for the first time in your life you felt completely helpless.
…wake up…
Then, as if some primal force had suddenly awakened within you, your body sprinted in the opposite direction, moving like a wild animal freed from its cage. The mist tore around you as you ran, the soil cracked under your boots as your eyes searched for any kind of weapon that would give you a slight advantage against him — you already refused the idea of taking Duncan's sword: his fingers were too rigid to slip them from the hilt of his blade, and the blunt or broken blades lying on the ground weren't enough to face a duel.
Your run came to an abrupt halt when you tripped over a shield stuck in the ground. Groaning, you curled up in a ball and tried to get back on your feet, but Aerion was fast enough to reach you and force you down, his fingers digging into your shoulders and shaking you with unnatural force.
While you fought against his grip, pleading for your release, you watched his mouth move, the words distant in your ears, until a familiar voice cut through it all.
Wake up!
Your eyes snapped open to the darkness, chest heavy and throat dry and raw for the scream you let out before. The pounding of your own heart was the first thing you registered, along with the dampness of your forehead and a strong grip keeping your shoulders still, a pair of blue eyes and deep purple one studying you with concern.
"Breathe," the man whispered gently, his thumb moving a damp strand on hair from your forehead. "Yes, like this. Deep breaths, in and out."
Reassured by that sweet voice, you inhaled and exhaled slowly until the frantic beat of your heart stopped and your vision became clear enough to recognize the two in front of you.
"Dunk?" you breathed out, eyes softening at the sight of him. It was still him, the Duncan you followed and loved, battered and bruised from the trial, some drops of blood dried on his cheek and nose. His eye was still bruised — less swollen than the one you’d seen in your dream — but slightly half-closed, and the look of pure love and concern in his eyes put your mind at ease.
Sat next to you, Egg's little hand searched for yours, squeezing it in a soothing manner.
"Aye, it is me," Duncan replied, leaning close and touching your forehead with his, cradling your face with both his hands. "You're safe with me, I promise you."
At first you let out a weary sight, your eyelids half closed at his thumb brushing your cheeks. But the flashes of your nightmare kept plaguing your mind, and the sight of Aerion's twisted smile made your body jolt.
"Aerion." You whispered, your voice trembling slightly, "He's-"
"Gone." the hedge knight replied firmly but kindly, "To the East, where he won’t do anyone any harm."
"Not to us, at least." Egg added, casting a fleeting gaze to Duncan, who nodded in approval. "Ashford is no longer to our reach, my lady. We're safe."
"Safe," you whispered, repeating a word that was somehow foreign in your tongue. Your fingers still trembled when they wrapped around Duncan's wrists, and the hedge knight replied by shifting you closer, the tips of your nose almost touching.
"Safe, yes. We are," he repeated, his encouraging smile lightning his contused face. "Whatever you may have dreamt, it wasn’t real. I'm here, with you."
You opened your mouth to protest, but the words soon died in your throat as Dunk wrapped his arms you, your head resting on his collarbone while his body rocked yours gently. "Now go back to sleep. We will depart at the first lights of the morrow, and I want you to be well-rested." He whispered, leaving a tender kiss on the crown of your heard.
"What about me, ser?" Egg asked, standing up and shaking the soil off his tunic. "May I be useful in some way?"
"What use would a tired squire be to me if we are set to depart early in the morrow and lack sleep?" Dunk chided the boy gently. "Lay down and go to sleep, lad. Chestnut needs to be properly fed and brushed; it is your duty to treat her."
Egg nodded. "Good night then, ser." After looking at him briefly, he marched towards his blanket, closing his eyes and letting sleep claim him. Duncan stood by your side for a while, rocking you gently and clumsily singing you soothing tunes — or at least he tried, knowing how singing was not his best talent. And once he heard your breath going steady and your eyes shut, he gave you a good night kiss and put you in bed, before laying down as well.
Sleep had never claimed you since then.
For the first two hours you tossed and turned, your mind circling back to the haunting memory of Dunk lying down, lifeless, and Aerion coming after you. You woke up continuously, checking the camp each time; once you saw Dunk and Egg snoring near the horses, you stood up and walked to the nearest stream, splashing cold water on your face and lay back down without saying a word.
The fourth time you woke, Duncan wasn't asleep at all.
He sat close to the fire, watching the flames and absentmindedly playing with a twig in his hands. His head hung low, jaw tight, and eyes fixed somewhere far away, lost deep in thought. The rise and fall of the flames cast a warm glow on his skin, and you noticed how his wounds made him smaller and more vulnerable than he usually was — a sight you weren’t accustomed to seeing except in moments of intimacy.
"The maesters have told you not to stand so close to the fire," you broke the silence with a whisper, standing up and rubbing one of your eyes. "The wound to your eye is still fresh, heat won't heal it."
Dunk scoffed softly, shaking his head while looking at the flames. "It won't be the fire that undoes me," he said, voice rough between a laugh and a groan. "Come and sit with me."
You sighed and lowered yourself beside him, close enough for your shoulders to brush. The fire’s heat wrapped around you both in a comforting warmth, a stark contrast to the uneasy silence that settled between you. Behind you, Egg was still fast asleep, and not even the crackling of the fire could rouse him.
"You…" Dunk broke the silence first, closing his mouth as if searching for the right words. "How much more are a hedge knight’s hand and foot worth than a prince of the blood’s life?" He asked with grave voice, tilting his head and looking at you.
You blinked, stunned by his sudden question. "What?" you inquired, trying to make sense of it.
"It is the law." he said, and there was a raw vulnerability in his voice you'd rarely heard in him. "I raised my hands against the royal blood, I might have lost my head for this." He looked back at the fire, clenching his jaw while squeezing the twig in his hands. "Prince Baelor would have denied it, but he offered me the choice between a trial or losing the offending hand and foot."
A short, humourless laugh escaped him, and when he looked at you there was love in his eyes, along with remorse and shame. "He was right about Egg. He should have come to him when his brother was assaulting that puppeteer. But when he said your name and saw what he meant to do to you-"
He paused, calming the anger boiling in his chest with a deep sigh. You said nothing, your gaze fixed on the pop and hiss of the flames as the memories of that day returned crystal clear.
You were with Egg at that puppeteer’s show — Tanselle, that was the name you remembered — and with wonder in your eyes, you watched the tales of heroes and knights come alive, of winged beasts that once ruled the skies and wiped out armies with their fiery breath. Then Aerion emerged from the crowd, watching with fury and disbelief as the puppeteer slew a dragon, applause fading when he approached her and pulled her from the stage. You remembered grabbing Egg from his arm, urging him to call for help while courage swelled inside you, rushing forward as soon as you saw the Targaryen prince snapping Tanselle's fingers, unable to stop him in time.
You recalled how he forced you to your knees, fingers clutching your wrist and forcing your hand open, about to snap your own fingers when Duncan appeared, face twisted with blind rage the moment he saw your distress, and the beast within him unleashed a fist that made the prince's mouth bleed.
Since then, distress and bad dreams plagued you while praying for the Seven to protect over the hedge knight, asking that they spare him whatever price his courage might yet demand of him. And then the trial of seven came, and with it the tragic aftermath the whole realm would carry the rest of its days.
"Don't." you murmured, forcing the words past the tightness in your throat. "Do not let those thoughts of yourself weigh so heavy. You are not the sum of what the law says you're worth, Dunk. You never were."
Your words seemed to strike something inside him, snapping him back to reality as he fixed his astonished gaze on you.
"You carried your own pride and virtue like a true knight, a quality that has fallen on these days sadly," you continued, your hand stretched towards his, squeezing it gently in a timid comfort, "A hundred of those said nobles and armoured knights would revel in it while bathing in the comfort their birth afforded them, and never once lifting a hand for anyone else's sake. It was good the gods chose to strike them at last."
Your words seemed to convince him: he returned your squeeze, bringing your hand to his lips and kissing it softly. Yet the moment your eyes met, he withdrew his hand, a sad smile shadowing his face.
"Aye, but the gods failed to strike the one who deserved it most." he retorted, "The realm has lost its most chivalric king, had he not forfeit his life and fight for me-"
"Fought for you?" you scoffed, your eyebrows raised in surprise. "And against what, may I ask? His own nephew? His own brother? His own knights that would harm anyone but him? Would had not been so unlucky, he would have survived unscathed."
You stood silent for a bit, exhaling slowly as your gaze lowered to the ground. "Do not think ill of my judgement, I liked him. He seemed a prince with a good sense of justice and a genuine heart. Yet how would his declaration as your champion favour your innocence but restore the honour of his family? The gods can sense a fraud when they see one."
Dunk groaned in disapproval and dropped the twig in the fire, watching the flames engulfing it. "You think it was pride, then," he said at last, voice tight. "That he stood for me only to scrub some family shame from his name."
"Could be both," you said gently, "you had people fighting for you, truly fighting. You had nobles standing for you who could lose honour and lands, even their lives and families were the gods not merciful enough-"
"So you think his own family did not deserve mercy?" he snapped, keeping his voice low so he wouldn't wake Egg. "I left his children fatherless. The gods will whisper in my ear how his brother swung the mace but I urged him at my side. The old man chanted of his fairness and how the realm would flourish with his guide, and I took him from it. If my life is not forfeit for this, then what?"
You listened to him with jaw clenched, biting back the urge to argue further. When you finally spoke, your voice came low and even. "I can't believe you can be so fucking stupid."
You stood up, intending to reach your bed and try to sleep again when a tight grip seized your arm, freezing you in place. Duncan spun you around to face him, and at first, his gaze made you wish you could take back what you’d said. Yet, you quickly noticed how his massive body trembled like a leaf, his eyes shining with a mix of anger, shame, and remorse. It was a sight that both infuriated you and made your heart ache.
"Speak plainly and not in riddles, woman." "Dunk rasped, his grip tightening, though not enough to hurt you. "Tell me again how stupid I am, if you believe it so."
"Let me go."
"Tell me how fool I am, to feel the bad luck surround me and bring pain and suffer to the ones I love since the day I draw my first breath."
"Let me go, Dunk-"
"Tell me, then, how foolish it was of me to lead people who chose willingly to follow me, and to fear hurting them above all else with my choices." He said, a hint of tremor could be feel in his voice. "Wouldn't it be better for them to let me go, and live some content life far from whatever curse follows me? Who would grieve a simple hedge knight long, once he's gone for once?"
“I would, Duncan!” you said without hesitation, raising your voice and not caring if anyone heard, frustration overwhelming you as tears streamed down your face. "I fucking would grieve you more than a lifetime. And it is not you that made me cursed, for the gods showed me your death before my own eyes once sleep claims me, until I no longer know if I am awake or dreaming!"
A heavy silence settled over you, broken only by the popping of flames that would soon be extinguished. Duncan stood as still as stone, fists clenched and gaze lowered. Your words struck him harder than any slap he had received from Ser Arlan as a boy, and shook his conscience more than Lyonel Baratheon’s outburst at Ashford.
But what hurt him most was seeing your tear-streaked face: for once, he felt as if he had broken the sacred vow of a knight — to protect the innocent from harm. And he felt miserable.
"Since we left Ashford I could not stop dreaming about that bloody trial," you said, sniffing softly, "and how you fell on the ground and stood still for a bit. I pleaded for you to wake up, and you did. But in my dream? You were nothing but a cold corpse."
Dunk was silent for a moment, remorse burning deep in his gut: the night before the fight, he had heard your pleas, quieting them with a long kiss and promising that everything would be all right.
Now, he finally understood how much it had meant to you.
"But it wasn't real." Dunk whispered, crossing the space between you while cradling your face. The hedge knight took his time to study it, noticing how sadness has not marred your beauty, how comely your eyes were despite the redness surrounding your pupils. "I woke up, I came back to you."
"I know you did," you retorted with a feeble voice, avoiding his gaze until he lifted your head. "The gods had shown their mercy that day. But that is not a granted thing, neither for nobles nor for knights. They could have just turn a blind eye and allow the fate to do its work on you, and that is the fear that keeps plaguing my dreams."
On tiptoe, you rested your forehead against his, sighing at how lovely it felt to feel his warmth against you. Dunk let you draw close, one hand resting on your hip, holding you tenderly. His other one wrapped around yours, pressing your palm against his chest, letting you feel his steady heartbeat.
"Promise me you will stop thinking so poorly of yourself," you murmured, giving him a small smile. "The world may see a naive, illiterate hedge knight crossing the Seven Kingdoms with his bald squire, but my own eyes see a chivalrous man who will defy the law itself to defend those who have no voice."
You leaned closer until your lips almost touched, breaths mingling in the small space left between you. "And I will choose to follow that man until the Long Night comes."
Those words were the final strand to give way. Something within Duncan seemed to break loose all at once, and all his self-control was gone the moment he drew you closer, enveloping both of you in a kiss that felt desperate yet reverent, unlike all the tender glances and private moments of intimacy you had shared on your journey together. One of his hands slipped into your hair, the other pressed flat against the small of your back, pulling you in until there was no space left between you, feeling the unsteady rhythm of his heart matching your own. You sensed the low rumble he emitted against your lips, a hybrid of a groan and your name, whispering apologies as he poured all his love and regret into it.
It was when you both fell apart, spent and out of breath, his brow pressed to yours, that Dunk found the courage to speak.
"My beloved, you deserve someone richer and better than a poor hedge knight."
You chuckled and rolled your eyes, pressing a brief kiss on his lips. "Why would I wish a pompous and rich lord when I have the fairest man in front of my eyes?"
"Then allow this fairest man to make you happy, once the time comes." Dunk replied with a giggle, and closed the distance again.
You both ended up near the low fire, Dunk awake and watching the stars while you were sprawled next to him, hand resting over the steady rise and fall of his chest. The trial of seven was still a fresh memory in your mind, but this time there was no echo of death or the ghost of Aerion haunting you.
And the hedge knight, watching a shooting star streak across the sky, found himself marvelling at the strange turns a life could take: an orphan boy out of Flea Bottom, who had nothing but the weak legacy of the knight that took him under his guard, now having a young prince for a squire, his honour somehow intact, and a strong, faithful woman travelling at his side.
For that, he thought, he could not be more grateful to the Seven.
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Pairing: Valarr Targaryen x Velaryon!Reader
Setting: A Knight Of The Seven Kingdoms (post The Hedge Knight).
Summary: The events in Ashford have changed the fate of House Targaryen in a tragic way as Baelor Breakspear perished after the trial of seven. The eyes of the realm now falls on Baelor's firstborn, Valarr, who is weighed down by the burden of the crown and the grief he feels at his father’s death. To shield him from the court's gaze, Daeron sends Valarr to Driftmark to seal a marriage pact, not knowing he will find solance in your company.
Word Count: 11,5 K
Warnings: Mature contents, angst, hurt and comfort, mention of a major character death, grief and loss, implied depression, arranged marriage, suggestive intimacy, light smut, p in v sex, oral (f receiving), virgin Valarr and Reader, inexperienced sex, implied loss of virginity, Aegon III / Daenaera dynamics like, Reader has the typical Velaryon features, Baelor haunts the narrative, hopeful ending, no beta'd. Please, tell me if I have missed something else!
A.N. It has been so long, but I finally finished this giant fantasy I had while listening to sad songs. I'm not in a good mental space lately, so I poured out all my pain and distress in this fic. It's not the best fic I've made, it was way better in my mind, I still hope you can enjoy it and I hope I didn't made Valarr too OOC (it's my first time writing for him, sorry-).
Now I can finally resume all the readings and write all the requests I paused and look at the asks in the inbox, enjoy this all! 💜
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ENGLISH IS NOT MY FIRST LANGUAGE. I APOLOGISE IN ADVANCE FOR MY GRAMMAR AND VOCABULARY MISTAKES.
VALARR TARGARYEN MASTERLIST
The surrounding landscape of Ashford Castle was the perfect blend of old-world charm and natural beauty, where ancient stone walls met the untamed beauty of nature. The yard was made from a rock idle connected with the castle, — dark rocks blending with tufts of green grass and small yellow ears of corn — spacious enough to welcome nobles and host formal gatherings. The laughter of these guests, once carried on the wind, still seemed to linger in the mossy crevices of the stone.
That day, however, the wind carried the whispers of the dead and the salt tears of the ones who loved, along with the memories of the ones who lay on the arms of the Stranger.
Baelor Targaryen, Prince of Dragonstone, Hand of the King and Protector of the Realm, perished on the second day of the Ashford tourney, standing as a champion for a hedge knight whose guilt was to strike the royal blood in defense of an innocent puppeteer.
His body lay on a pyre of cedar and pine wood, wrapped in a shiny black armour with the Targaryen sygil embodied on it, a golden chain adorning his neck and his sheathed sword by his side. His face was calm, relaxed and composed, carrying the same dignity and nobility which distinguished him when he was alive.
When the pyre was lit and the flames reached up into the cloudy sky, no one dared to speak. Three members of the Kingsguard — Ser Williem Wylde, Ser Roland Crakehall, and Ser Donnel of Duskendale — stood rigidly, hands on the hilts of their swords, their white armour gleaming on their battered and gloomy faces. Prince Maekar stood few steps behind, his son Aegon gathered at his side; his face was bruised, his eyes were vacant and his hands were still. He had schooled every muscle in his face to hold, because Aegon was beside him and a father could not crumble before his son. But beneath that stillness something turned inside, and guilt haunted him like a dreadful ghost.
A few steps further stood the new Prince of Dragonstone, Valarr.
The Young Prince was the perfect embodiment of the righteousness, with his shoulders and back straight as a rod, striking a serious yet dignified pose. His face was a mask, and a convincing one: jaw set, eyes dry, gaze fixed upon the fire with the kind of steadiness that lesser men might have mistaken for composure. At first glance, Valarr appeared to be a young man who had chosen to wear his grief with grace and honour, the same principles that his father had upheld throughout his brief life.
Yet every fortress has a crack that allows you to catch the slightest glimpse of what lies beyond. And judging by his small gestures, Valarr was not immune to pain.
His hands were clasped together, straining the fabric of his dark doublet. His eyes, one pale blue as open water and the other warm brown as heartwood, were dull and fixed on his father’s motionless figure, as he watched the flames slowly engulf him, for him being a blood of the dragon and his end was writ in flame. He felt a tightness in his throat, swallowing a lump every time he felt his eyes welling up; but his gaze did not waver, and tears failed to stream down his face.
Valarr loved Baelor with the a painful sincerity and intense devotion of a son who has always believed that his father is better than him in every way. Valarr was shorter and slimmer, not the fierce and powerful warrior Baelor was, and his youthful inexperience made him impatient and impulsive, whereas his father weighed up his impulses and displayed a cool, rational calm, yet never lost his mercy towards his foes. Baelor had been good in a way that seemed unwordly, and Valarr had spent his whole life quietly wondering whether that goodness was something a man was born with, or something that could be learned. Sadly, he will never find this answer from him.
"He died in my armour," Valarr murmured with steady yet regretful voice. His gaze drifted somewhere beyond the wildness of Ashford Meadow while Ser Duncan's condolences reached him as if from a great distance. Baelor had barely known the hedge knight, yet he had found a reason enough, in that blunt and honest heart of his, reason enough to die for him. Valarr had tried to cultivate hatred towards him in his heart, but nothing close to it never emerged.
"He had it in him to be the greatest king, since Aegon the Dragon," the young prince said at the horizon, and the next question that fell out from his mouth was the quietest form of anger his body could produce. Why would the gods take him and leave you?
But with this question still unanswered and grief sitting heavily in his chest, Valarr mounted his horse and resumed his journey back to King's Landing. He had left the city as the heir's heir, and he would cross its gates again as heir apparent to the Iron Throne, with all the little joy he could ever feel.
And when Daeron the Good would draw his last breath, Valarr would wear a crown his father had never lived to wear it, forged not in fire and blood, but in grief and in loss.
The Red Keep was gloomier than he remembered.
The corridors of pale marble were now like soft hues of grey stones, cold and unmoved by the passage of time. Even the torches burned low in their sconces — or perhaps they burned the same, and it was only his eyes that had changed, learning in the space of a fortnight to perceive darkness where there had once been light.
His footsteps felt like heavy echoes in his ears, and all the guards and servants that crossed his way stood still and bowed in respect, murmurs of 'Your Grace' and 'my prince' felt like a distant sound. Valarr could see from his mismatched eyes that pity was performed on their faces, and some of the servants still cried at his passage.
Or maybe they were just living and performed their duties day after day, as they always did once they crossed the heavy doors of the Red Keep, but the Young Prince's eyes were too clouded by grief to give a proper judgement of his surroundings.
Once back to the castle, Valarr avoided the unbearable ceremonies of condolences and stormed in his private chambers, facing a task even more gruelling than watching his father burn on a pyre: telling his younger brother, Matarys, that Baelor was in the hands of the Stranger.
He had not yet come of age, a boy of three-and-ten whose gentleness and politeness had already been praised at court. There was a six-year age gap between them — the same that ironically ran between Baelor and Maekar, Valarr thought — yet there was a maturity and sense of duty that was rare to find in boys his age. He knew how sensible Matarys could be, taking all the news and processing them with unnecessary formality or drama.
But when Valarr found him curled on himself at the edge of his bed, blue eyes swollen and shiny and fidgeting one of his father's rings in his hands, he realized that the loss of a parent was a blow hard to absorb even for a quiet soul like him. There were no words spoken between them, only a hug and silent cries, Valarr kissing the crown of his red head and muttering soft apologies, for he feeling responsible of not having stopped Baelor of wearing his armour. He made a vow to himself he would take care of him, taking all his pain away and make him his.
Despite of loathing Aerion for what he did — had him choose a fair punishment, he would had likely demanded his head, thought his exile in Lys was nothing but a meagre consolation — and growing cold with Maekar while never blaming him for the accidental blow that swung, Valarr decided to carry his grief with silence and dignity; his handsome features were veiled with an evident tiredness, his mismatched eyes losing all the lightness they once carried. Black was the colour he started to wear, even in formal occasions. The court had seen the young prince seldom smiling since his return to Ashford, and on the rare occasions when he did, his smile never reached his ears.
The court observed how he adapted to his new role as heir, swiftly adopting the necessary mannerisms and behaviours, suggesting that he had moved on easily. In truth, Valarr had mastered the art of masking his pain, turning himself into this armour and showing the same strong, unwavering resolve as his father.
But even the strongest wall was designed to crack soon.
The small council room was hit by the usual spring warmth, the long windows casting a pleasant light that made the whole room golden at the sight. There was a smell of ink, burning candles and old parchments rolled on the tables, filled with the chatters between Lord Penrose and the Grand Maester about the potential public discontent over the rise in wheat prices.
At the right side of King Daeron II, Valarr listened with forced focus, one cheek resting on his hand while the other one was busy with playing with a small marble ball.
He was named Hand of the King few days after his return in court, the youngest the realm ever had, and he took his role with silent, unhesitating gravity with which he had taken everything else the world had recently seen fit to place upon him.
He had joined few council sessions in the past, watching with a keen eye how Baelor managed a minor small folk crisis or debated on wether to send a traitor to the Wall or setting a public execution. The young prince marveled at how his father could hold a room with a gentle authority, handling situations that could be tedious for even the most experienced sovereign, without losing his temper or raising his voice.
Valarr had studied him in a way a maester studies a written book, hoping to grasp all his wisdom and take into practice once his time would come. But now, he just though how little he felt ready.
Once the council was dismissed, Valarr silently marched towards the Tower of the Hand, a small, darker and more modest chamber than the one of his royal apartments. It was late afternoon when the Young Prince sealed his tenth parchment of the day, the smell of the melted wax so unpleasant enough to make his nose wrinkle in discomfort.
The low orange light filtered through the windows, lighting up the room along with the few candles and the faint glow of the fire. While lifting the gaze, he was finally aware how tired he felt all at once — his head hurt, his back was seized with cramps whilst his stomach growled for lack of food.
The soft knock of the door made him raise his head, huffing nervously. "Leave me," he sneered, his quill moving faster while starting his eleventh parchment, "The Hand is too busy to grant an audience."
"Would the Hand grant an audience to a close kin?" a gentle voice came behind the door, king Daeron appearing without announcing himself. He was't wearing his crown, making him more like a concerned grandsire than the Lord of the Seven Kingdoms itself.
Valarr put the quill down and stood up, only to be stopped by Daeron's hand gesture. "You may sit." He murmured, "I did not come as your king."
"You are still my grandsire, and as such, you deserve the respect you are due." Valarr countered.
"I'd rather enjoy a healthy and content grandson than a somber and dutiful one." Daeron retorted, his tone still kind and careful. He took a set on a chair nearby, and waited for Valarr to sit as well.
"Matarys came to me after supper." Daeron continued, his voice so low as if he was speaking to a wounded animal.
"Of course he did-"
"He said you had not eaten, and had not left this tower since the council has been dismissed." The old king took a brief pause before continuing. "He is worried, Valarr. In the same way your grandmother and me are, in the same way the realm is."
"The realm can breath in relief, I am fine." Valarr replied, his tone unintentionally sharp. He looked down at the half-begun parchment, and resisted the urge to start working again. "TeI am your heir, Your Grace, and your Hand as well. King's Landing shall deserve a prepared Prince when the time comes."
Daeron let out a faint chuckle, which startled Valarr for a bit. "Unless you're planning to depose your own grandsire or praying the Stranger to claim me, you have enough time to prepare yourself for the crown."
Valarr had no answer for that, as he knew he was perfectly true. His mismatched gaze rested on the chaos that reigned on his desk: the little open box, containing the ten parchment perfectly sealed; few half-opened books scattered around, some about the history of Old Valyria, some about the political relationships between the regions of the Seven Kingdoms; the small ceramic inkwell spilled on a blank sheet, leaving drops of solified wax behind.
It was the typical chaos of a young man trying to outrun his grief, burying himself so thoroughly beneath the accumulated weight of books and correspondence. Daeron saw it and smiled bitterly, Valarr followed with a frown.
"Father would be displeased to see all this mess," Valarr managed to say with feeble voice.
"Your father would be proud to see such a diligent son, instead," the old king declared, "but he would be happier to see his son free from his grief, and content with someone standing by his side."
His slender fingers fumbled in the pockets of his doublet, pulling out a parchment. He lent the roll to Valarr, who took it with his inky hands and inspected the wax seal: it was perfectly circular, the sea green shining under the candlelight. An intricate raised stamp of a seahorse could be seen on the seal, the ancient sygil that belonged to House Velaryon of Driftmark, one of the few families in the Seven Kingdoms who could claim to have Old Valyrian blood in their veins, to have ridden dragons in the past and a to have a close connection to House Targaryen even before the Conquest.
Valarr looked up from the parchment and watched the old king, his expression curious as he waited for an explanation.
"I received this on the morrow after your departure for Ashford." Daeron confesses calmly. "I would have liked to give it after you returned, but the news that followed made it… unappropriate."
He folded his hands in his lap and held his grandson's gaze without flinching. "I kept it, in the hope I could find you in a better shape. But we couldn't let Lord Velaryon waiting any longer."
Valarr looked back at the seal, tracing the outline of the sigil with his fingers. After a moment's thought, he swiftly broke the wax seal and unrolled the parchment in front of his grandfather's violet eyes. The handwriting was elegant and precise, and each word was carefully chosen to reflect the importance of the request.
At first Valarr read in silence, the only sounds allowed in the room were two people's slow breathing and the soft crackling of the fire. It took few minutes and a couple of re-readings to fully grasp the weight of what was written.
"A marriage proposal." Valarr announced flatly, his eyes still trained to the parchment. Daeron nodded, his fingers clasped together on his lap.
"Lord Velaryon has a daughter, closer to your age. She has a calm and gentle temperament, and as you she has lost someone dear to her recently." Daeron said. "You may not recall her, but she was presented to the court with her father for few moons, hoping that he might find a decent suitor for her."
Valarr listened carefully, pinching the bridge of his nose as he tried to recall the memory of the Lord of the Tides appearing in court with his daughter by his side. A fragmented memory surfaced from his memory, blurred at first, then cleaner soon after: a little girl, standing beside her lord father, wearing a gracious sea green gown, composed and polite despite her bashfulness.
He recalled the pale blue hues of her eyes, watching and finding him among the crowd, her little hand squeezing the hem of his father's doublet, the torchlight catching her silver-gold hair, the same Valyrian traits that lacked in Valarr, saved for that silver streak running through his hair.
King Daeron took a careful pause, pondering his next words carefully. "Your cousin Daeron has tied himself to the lady Kiera of Tyrosh, and Aerion has caused so many troubles I wouldn't be surprised no lords have sent a marriage proposal to him yet," Daeron sighed in defeat, almost ashemed by his grandson's reckless behaviour. "Aemon belongs to the Citadel and Matarys have plenty of years to come to age."
"So Lord Velaryon's choice falls on me," Valarr concluded, his fingers nervously playing with one of his late father's rings, an habit he inherited from Baelor himself.
"You have been his choice from the moment he showed his daughter to court, I wager." Daeron muttered, as if he was talking more to himself than to Valarr. "He has a high regard on your late father, a regard that has not faded with his passing.”
Valarr’s gaze didn't waver, though something in it dimmed for a bit. He hit the inside of his cheek, his gaze unfocused on the parchment as he dramatically slumped in his chair. "I don't think I am capable of giving this lady the love his lord father is seeking from this House."
"Lord Velaryon favours strategy and the safety of our Houses over matters of the heart." Daeron explained with unwavering patience, leaning close to his grandson. “Not every marriage begins in love, Valarr. Most begin in need. Affection, if the gods are kind, comes later. And in this case, you may carry the same weight together, if you will allow her."
Valarr opened his mouth to protest, but no words came out. His mind drifted unbidden to a long-buried memory of his father, standing in front of the small council's windows, hands clasped on his back as his eyes watched King's Landing thrive another day. Valarr remembered how, on that day, he looked at him, explaining with his unfaltering calm and kindness what would be expected from him once he will be King:
"A king or queen cannot hope to rule wisely without the counsel of their consort. You may be wed out of duty rather than desire, but if you allow your hearts to truly see one another, and if both remain honest and steadfast, then love may yet take root and grow into its most noble form.”
The prince's lips pressed into a thin line: his words lingered steadily in his mind. Despite how much he refused to accept it, his father had stated the simple but cold truth. Baelor himself was tied to a woman he did not choose, but once they had got to know each other, a gentle love and affection blossomed between them.
"If so, I will graciously accept the Lord of the Tides' marriage proposal." Valarr announced in the end, leaving the parchment rolled up on the desk. "I will summon a the council on the morrow. We must arrange the arrival-"
"The matter has been settled already." Daeron interrupted him, his gaze following the young prince's movements. "The fleet is ready. You'll be setting off for Driftmark at dawn."
Valarr froze mid-gesture, his palm pressed on the cold wood of the door. “At dawn?” He asked, his voice betrayed a mixture of surprise. "Why me?"
"It is better for you to stay away from the court for a while." Daeron said, his expression calm but firm. "I am not banishing you like Aerion, but I'm sending you where you may breathe without half the court measuring every silence you keep. You deserve a moment of respite after the tourney, and I promise you Matarys will be well guarded."
A heavy silence settled between them, thick and cold. Every word Valarr might have spoken seemed to vanish before it reached his lips. He simply sat there, absorbing Daeron’s words, letting them sink in. Slowly, deliberately, Valarr processed the weight behind them, poundering the expectation of the realm with the mere desires of his broken heart.
"As you wish, Your Grace," he solemny announced before pushing open the door and stepping with one foot outside the chamber when Daeron called him, forcing Valarr to turn again on his grandsire once more.
"I am a mourning man too, for me having lost my dear firstborn," the old king said, and for the first time Valarr heard some vulnerability in him, "I don’t know how much time the gods have granted me, but my last wish is to see you truly happy."
The two men stood for a long time, glazing at each other. Then, Valarr simply nodded, and with quick steps he vanished into the darkness of the towers' corridors.
Castle Driftmark lacked of the splendor High Tide had before its doom.
People from Hull remembered with nostalgic fondness of the walls built in pale stone, of the rich roots of beaten silver shining through the daylight, its rays dancing across the surface like moving water, of the Great Hall richily decorated by all the trinkets and treasure that the Sea Snake used to proudly expose after a long journey, giving prestige to the Driftwood Throne that would serve as a seat to the Lord of the Tides.
But the Dance brought fire and blood to his House and its close allies in both side, and with it came ruin that no waves could wash away. A wound that still lingered on Velaryon's pride, who reclaimed their ancestral seat without formal ceremonies.
You were used of the dark, salt-stained walls of your chambers, rich of that salsedine scent that made your guests leave in discomfort; yet, as you're used to remember, Velaryons belonged to the sea, and that scent was nothing but a simple reminder of your ancestral heritage.
You sat on the wooden table in the Great Hall with a book in your hands, listening to the sound of the waves crashing against the rocks. You carefully turned the pages describing the life and legacy of Lord Corlys Velaryon, whose name was synonimous with all the empire he built from the sea. Remarkable were his famous "nine voyages" beyond the known world with his Sea Snake, his fortunes carved from salt and storm and how his fleets had ruled the Narrow Sea with great ambition.
As you traced the carved letters of the paragraph about his marriage to Princess Rhaenys Targaryen, you heard the door open. You father announced himself with the same humility and quietness that had carried with him since your mother's loss. It was barely a decade when the titles of Lord of the Tides and Master of Driftmark fell on his shoulders, and he still held them with uneffortless grace.
Lord Velaryon took a seat next to you, smiling warmly. Your eyes caught an open parchment, but failed to see the broken sygil. "What news do Hull brings today, Father?" you asked with an inquisitive look, closing your book with a slow movement.
Your father glanced down at the parchment, his smile lingering something deeper you couldn't quite catch. "Not from Hull, my siren. From King's Landing."
Something inside you rose at the tip of your stomach, and a strange tension settled in your chest. Lord Velaryon leaned back slightly, the creak of his wooden chair echoing in the room.
"Am I expected to sail for the Crownlands soon?" You simply asked, trying to keep your voice steady despite the anxiety rising inside you. It wasn't the first time you were summoned at King Daeron's court, but each felt heavier at every parchment sent.
"No," Lord Velaryon said, his pale blue eyes resting on your tense figure. "Not this time. I have asked Mira to assist you in preparing for our guest. Prince Valarr Targaryen has expressed his wish to meet you here, on Driftmark, away from the court's prying eyes."
At first you said nothing, the words your father had spoken settled slowly in your mind, leaving you speechless. It had been so long since Castle Driftmark has hosted a valuable guest, most of the time a lord of a minor or almost forgotten House. Hosting a prince of the blood, a heir of a House that has crossed the sky with their impressive beasts… That was another matter.
Your father took your hand, squeezing it gently as a way to easy your discomfort. "Fear not, child. Our Houses have been tied since the beginning of the Conquest, we both share the same blood from Old Valyria. I highly doubt the Prince has forgotten the fidelty we show to his House during the Dance."
"It is not of this that I am afraid, Father." You said softly, lowering your gaze on the book resting on your lap.
"Then what troubles you, truly?"
You knitted your eyebrows together, nervously tearing your cuticles until they bled. A part of you wanted to downplay your concern, to say that it would pass soon. But the way your father noticed your hands with a somber look, covering them with his large palms, murmuring a gentle 'don't do this to you' helped your defences to go down.
"I am afraid," you started, "that the prince might not be the man people claim him to be.” You paused a bit, raising your gaze as you continued, "Tales grow in the telling, I know. They said that the prince is an honourable man, much like his father. What if the whispers prove to be wrong, father?"
Lord Velaryon casted an understanding glance on you, sighing softly. He felt how nervous you were and couldn't blame you: the weight of a marriage with the crown's heir was not a small thing to set on a girl's shoulders, however steady those had always proven to be.
"I had the honour to face Prince Baelor in a tournament, when I was closer to your age." He said solemnly, his pale blue gaze present but distant at the same time. "He unhorsed me on the second pass. Cleanly, with a precision and switftness that left me dazzled."
"You have already told me this story, Father."
"I know I did." He continued, unbothered by your interruption. "What I remember most is the Prince dismounting from his horse and helping me to my feet in front of the astonished realm. He looked me in the eyes and said that I had ridden well, and he meant it, with all the dignity he could show in that moment." Lord Velaryon paused, recollecting his thoughts before continuing. "He was a great man, the best heir I'd ever had the occasion to meet. I can promise you that Valarr Targaryen was raised by one of the finest men I ever had the privilege of being unhorsed by."
Your father leaned towards you closely, his thumbs affectionately rubbing your knuckles. "He has lost his father, and I'm sure he is still mourning him along with the king and the realm. If you allow him, you might be able to find comfort in each other."
You listened without interrupting, nodding slowly at your father as tears began to well up in your eyes. Even though it wasn't recent, your mother's death was still a wound fresh in your heart, a dull ache that you had learned to carry quietly. News of the terrible events in Ashford had reached Hull as well, and you remembered how upset and hurt you had been by the death of someone you had barely met years ago.
A comfortable silence settled between you, broken only by the sound of the waves outside. Your father's arms stretched out to you and engulfed your body in an embrace filled with love and warmth. This both calmed you and made you reflect: the gods may have taken your mother from you, but they had the decency to allow your loving father to stay.
"Go, now." Lord Velaryon murmured, breaking the embrace to look at you. "Change your clothes. If the wind holds, our guest arrives by late morrow." His gaze dropped to your hands, settling on your tortured fingers. "And have Mira clean those. There is no need to ruin such pretty hands."
You nodded again, a little smile forming on your face. "Yes, Father."
Standing with the book safely tugged in your chest, you left the Great Hall to reach your personal chambers, where Mira, a warm bath and a sea green dress were waiting for you.
It had been since dawn that the Targaryen's fleet has left the harbor of King's Landing under King Daeron's watchful eyes, and thank to the good gods' grace, the journey proceeded swiftly.
The sea was a perfectly flat, crystal-clear expanse; the only ripples were caused by the ships gliding across the water’s surface. A soft spring breeze blew through the black sails, proudly displaying the red three-headed dragon sigil against the cloudless blue sky.
Prince Valarr stood at the centre of the ship's bridge, his gaze fixed on the sky as he played with his father's ring. Still dressed in black and wearing Baelor's clothes, he tucked his dagger into his belt — a habit he had kept since returning from Ashford. Men were working around him in swift motion, and Ser Williem Wylde was watching him with hawk-like intensity, his hand resting on the hilt of his sword.
Valarr's mismatched gaze was fixed on the sky, blue and empty as it had ever been. He had been born into a world already deprived of dragons; the consequences of the Dance of Dragons had robbed the Targaryens of the only thing that had elevated them to godlike status, prompting the small folk to whisper about how they used to be the masters of the sky.
He had grown up surrounded by the tapestries of the Red Keep, each one recounting the long history of his ancestors: from the Doom of Valyria and the Age of Conquest to the great reign of Jaehaerys I and the Dance of the Dragons.
When he asked his father why the dragons had disappeared, Baelor told him that his ancestors had lost their wisdom in a war for the crown. At the time, he was too young to understand what his father meant.
Now, as he was about to reach the dock of Hull after days of travelling and looking at the sky, picturing the shadows of dragons engulfing the entire fleet, he finally understood. And for the first time, he thought about how fascinating it would have been to ride a dragon.
The sun was high in the sky when Valarr finally set foot on dry land, taking a breath of relief. Hull wasn't as big and wealthy as King's Landing, but the simplicity and modesty of its people moved him in an unexpected way.
Upon arriving at the gloomy Castle Driftmark, Valarr and his men were greeted by a modest welcome party, far from the opulence he had read about in books regarding the former High Tide. At the forefront was Lord Velaryon, exuding his customary polite confidence, a thing Valarr noted and appreciated, as well as the few household knights and servants surrounding their ruler. The banners were few and modest, the sigil of House Velaryon standing proud without excess.
And then he saw you.
You stood with pride and graciousness a couple of feet behind your father, your hair combed into a modest braid with some curls falling down your neck. You were not dressed for spectacle, there were no extravagant jewels around your neck and no elaborate court gown designed to impress. Yet, the simplicity of your attire lit up your face, along with your flushed cheeks and sweet, timid smile.
You were beautiful, Valarr thought. You were blossomed since the last time he briefly saw you in court.
"Your Grace." Lord Velaryon said, respectfully bowing at him while the young prince dismounted from his horse. "Driftmark is honoured to welcome a Targaryen on its shores again."
Valarr took a step forward, his gaze softening despite his smile didn't reach his ears. "My lord," he retorted, shaking with firmness his hand. "It's a great honour to be received from you."
He then took another step towards you. His bicoloured eyes moved to your hands, noticing little spots of red circling your nails. He frowned but quickly composed himself, pushing every thought aside.
"My lady," he said softly, taking one of your hands and bringing it to his lips. You felt a tender brush against your knuckles, sending a jolt of electricity that stunned you. "I must admit I am delighted to see you again."
You eyes widened and your lips slightly parted, but no words came out. Yet, you quick regained your composure, and your usual bright smile returned to your face. "The pleasure is mine, my prince."
Neither of you could clearly remember what had happened between you: the only thing you recalled was your father kindly inviting Valarr inside, breaking that magical moment that had almost formed between you.
But while Valarr turned towards you again, he didn't smile.
The early afternoon was pleasantly warm and calm, the waves lapped gently against the shore, unlike the forceful winter waves. The wind was calm, occasionally blowing gently to remind you of its presence as it watched life unfold beneath it.
You and Valarr walked long the shore with a slow pace, both of you showing the first signs of nervousness and discomfort: Valarr was twirling Baelor's ring on his finger, too large for him but had categorically refused to resize it; you, on the other hand, had your finger on your teeth, worrying the already torn cuticle of your thumb with the absent, compulsive discomfort that had always accompanied you once you didn't know how to begin a conversation.
The modest banquet you had was not the grand welcome feast that suited a prince of the realm; yet, in its modesty it was somehow well received by Valarr. Having attended and hosted enough feasts and banquets in the Red Keep, he had undoubtedly become weary of opulence and abundance, you thought.
With the two men seated at opposite ends of the table, you heard for the upteenth time the story of how Baelor Targaryen unhorsed your father on a wedding tournament of a House you hardly recall its name, and how the young prince listened with interest while sipping wine from his goblet.. There a was a certain light in his eyes, a flick of pain that you recognized well: a part of you wished to stop your father and tell him how indelicate it was to bring back a memory of a father he had recently lost. Yet Valarr did nothing to stop him and welcomed the memory with a bittersweet fondness that sat quietly on his features.
Perhaps that was how Baelor Breakspear wanted to be remembered: not as an heir who died tragically in unfortunate circumstances, but as a courteous and chivalrous man, the best the realm could ever hope for.
A soft brush of a hand brought you back to reality, lifting you gaze suddenly. Valarr's palm was resting on the back of your hand and took your finger out of your mouth.
"Don't do this to you," he murmured, squeezing your hand briefly. You blinked and stared at him for a while as you walked from side to side, his hand never leaving yours.
"I…" you started, swallowing as you felt your throat suddenly go dry. "Forgive me. It is an old habit."
"I can see it." Valarr replied smoothly, his hand releasing yours. "Forgive me if my presence is troubling you."
You shook your head, and you swore you could hear your heart breaking a little. "It is not your presence, my lord." You murmured, giving him a reassuring smile. "It is what it is expected from me. From us. I'm afraid I am not the consort the court deserves."
The young prince looked at you, taking in your words carefully. "Why would you think such?"
"I have read from the records of my family how the court can be demanding." You retorted earnestly, gazing back at him. "It can either strengthen or break you, every move you make will always be under prying eyes. I have lived in Driftmark my whole life, and I'm afraid it will take so long for me to fit into this new role."
The words hung between you and Valarr, who couldn't find the right words to ease your doubts. Born as the heir's firstborn son, he knew only too well how nerve-wracking it could be to feel the weight of the role on his shoulder: he had been raised to be the perfect future king the realm expected him to become. Despite his father and grandfather never putting excessive pressure on him, he never had the luxury of choosing, and part of him always admired and envied Matarys' freedom, and how little the realm demanded of him.
"I cannot promise the court won't look at you with its inquisitive look," Valarr said, his gaze temporarily resting on his father's ring and then on you. "But I can promise you I will not put some expectations on you that will cause discomfort. You are to be my wife, and your well being is my main concern."
There was a raw modesty in the young prince's words that left you stunned for a bit, and in their own way, his words eased the nervousness that had accompanied you since your father announced his arrival at Castle Driftmark. Your mind had already prepared for the worst: you had heard stories about King Daeron's youngest grandsons and how they had proven that Targaryen princes could be mad or complicated — a constant headache for the royal and noble families alike.
Yet, what you father said was true: Valarr was raised by the finest man the Seven Kingdoms ever had, and under his veil of sadness you had felt a warmth from him that you hadn't expected.
"Your words truly flatter me, my lord." You whispered, smiling as you felt your cheeks turning red. "But you are not wrong to expect a perfect wife."
"It is better to have an honest ally than an unhappy foe at your side." Valarr retorted with seriousness. "I know we let the others choose for us, and that this marriage is not the love union we both wanted. But I hope we could find common interests that could bring us close."
'And affection may grow, if the gods are kind to us,' Valarr thought, lacking of courage to say it out loud. Instead, his gaze as he watched your shoulders relax and colour return to your face. It was as if the sun were shining brighter in the sky and he were lucky enough to be engulfed by your inner warmth.
And for a fleeting moment, it felt as if his grief had softened.
You both walked in silence for a while, watching how the waves engulfed the shore while words lingered around you. You cast a brief glance on the prince, and your heart ached at the sight of him trying to hold himself together while inside he was falling apart. You couldn't help but notice his tired eyes, the way the corner of his mouth always turned down in a frown and how he clasped his father's ring as if it were the only tangible memory he had left of him.
As you held your late mother's pendant, you understood his pain, and you promised that he wouldn't have to carry it alone.
You pointed to the horizon with your finger, indicating a ruined castle far from the shore. "See those ruins over there?" You broke the silence, and Valarr followed you, nodding silently. "Records from Driftmark said that two dragons used to dance there, enticing onlookers to gaze in wonder at the spectacle from the shore."
You turned towards Valarr, pleased to say you had his full attention. "Apparently, Vhagar and Caraxes crossed the Gullet and started their journey to Pentos. Prince Daemon and Lady Laena must have had quite the adventure."
"They left King's Landing because King Viserys wasn't pleased with their marriage," Valarr continued, picturing the silhouette of the dragons circling the ruined stones in his mind. "Grandsire used to tell us this story when we were little."
You saw his worn features softening a bit, and you felt somehow relieved. "I have always wondered how different the world would be if dragons were still alive. I would fly over the Crownlands and across the Lands of the North.'
"My apologies I cannot offer you the dragons you seek, my lady. However, there is a large tapestry room in the Red Keep that tells the history of House Targaryen. We could stay there and watch all the dragons you wish."
It was a simple offer, yet there was a hidden sweetness that took you by surprise. With your eyes shining, you gave him a bright smile in return.
"Tapestries don't fly like dragons," you pointed out quietly, "but I will gladly accept you offer, Your Grace."
"Valarr," he said with a startling tenderness. "If we are meant to be wed, I would like to drop formalities between us."
You turned back to the water, the warmth inside your chest settled around you like the tepid light of the late afternoon.
"Then, I will gladly accept your offer, Valarr." You said softly, correcting yourself.
And for the first time since Ashford, Valarr genuinely smiled again.
The days turned into weeks, and a peaceful routine settled around Valarr's permanence in Driftmark. His grandsire had been adamant with his advices — 'take your time to grow accustomed to each other, before the duties of the crown will put its thorns around you' — and Valarr had put them into practice correctly, delaying his departure to King's Landing until the time felt right.
Time: that was a luxury that had lacked to him since the day the dreadful news had been brought to him. Since that, his life had taken an unexpected turn, and before he could ever blink his eyes properly, he found himself heir to the Throne and the King's right-hand man without the proper preparation, both intellectual and emotional.
He had wondered whether he should return once the marriage agreement had been finalised, given that he was the King's Hand and his presence was undoubtedly required at the small council. Again, the words of his grandsire echoed in his mind — 'The realm can spare its Hand for a few weeks.'
And he chose to stay.
Driftmark seemed to grant him a new lease of life: its castle appeared less gloomy each day that passed, and the sea air and salt were no longer so bothersome. Each member of servitude treated the young prince in the same way they had welcomed him a few days prior, with that same quietness and humility that undoubtly touched his heart, teaching him to appreciate the smallest acts of gentleness from the members of the court, and never take them granted.
Lord Velaryon, who appeared older than Daeron had described him, was a man with a keen sense of hospitality: he would bring the young prince with him outside in the morrow, fishing or sailing short distances along the coast, talking about his youthful adventures while discussing the matters regarding his daughter's marriage. It was a man the young prince grew to expect and admire, a good landlord who knew how to lay down the law when necessary.
And then there was you, the light that was conquering his neverending darkness.
Valarr couldn't tell what kind of spell you had cast on him, for him being drawn by your sunny nature and natural charm like Icarus to the sun. You would tell him stories about your House and the great names that had shaped the history of Driftmark and the seas beyond it, speaking with the same emotion and intensity of a child looking at a delicious plate of lemon cakes. In return, Valarr would tell you about the Conquest and the dragons, with a precision and care as if wanting to understand that many Targaryen had been touched by madness from birth.
And when there were days that he would grow quiet, waking up and screaming after dreaming about his father smiling at him while wearing his son's armour, blood dripping from the smashed gorget of his helm, you would just sit with him in religious silence, often singing for him or just holding his head, telling him a story coming from one of the books of your small library in the east hall. And for that, Valarr was profoundly grateful to you.
Affection was indeed growing between you two, along with something more you couldn't quite give a name yet.
One day, you decided to ride towards the southside of Driftmark, reaching what remained of High Tide and of its Ironwood Throne, passing through Spicetown.
All that remained was a heap of ruins, the Dance wiping out everything under its merciless fire. The great towers that Corlys Velaryon had built using the wealth from his eastern voyages had been reduced to ashes and ruins, but the remains stood proudly, despite their condition. The pale, sea-scoured stones had dramatically darkened, taking on a sulphurous hue. The Great Hall, which had displayed all kinds of treasures, maps and conquests, was now nothing but piles of half-standing walls and columns and a cold stone floor. The once-imposing Driftwood Throne was now nothing but charred wood scattered by the wind, the heart of the Velaryon power was nothing but a distant memory.
You had been here a hundred times. Valarr was seeing it for the first time.
"My mother used to bring me there, when she had enough strenght to bear horse riding." You said in the late afternoon, the two of you sat on the beach, under the wooden remnants of one of the Sea Snakes' deceased fleet. "She said she loved it here, albeit the ruins made her melancholic. She would sit exactly where we are now and tell me about the latest records she had read, concerning the fine spices and precious silks Lord Corlys imported from Yi Ti. and how much she wished she had have lived in that era, so she could have witnessed all this splendour."
You paused, running your fingers towards your mother's pendant, the light in your eyes fading slowly. Valarr held his breath for a moment, feeling lost for words and as if he had been stabbed in the heart: it was rare for him to see you so vulnerable beneath your happy and confident mask.
"The maesters could not find alogical explanation for why her health was deteriorating with each passing moon." you continued, your quiet voice trembling for a bit, "she was born fragile, she had always been, but somehow she found herself… joyful, with her short life."
You sighed, a small tear running down your cheek. Valarr fought the urge to reach out and wipe it away, afraid that even the slightest touch might be inappropriate.
"She would have liked you." You continued, your voice steadier than before. "She had always been inclined towards incorruptible nobles, standing for those who embody the values of a true king and warrior. I am sure you would have won her approval within the first evening here."
Something inside Valarr shifted, a wave of doubt washing over him. He shouldn't feel in this way, you were doing nothing but praise him and let him link with your late mother, but somehow you stunned and hurt him into the core. With his head low, the young prince clasped his hands together so tightly that his knuckles turned white. He had never considered himself like a prince who embodies the values of the perfect King and warrior: that was his father's, the same father whom he believed he had indirectly killed in Ashford when he allowed him to wear his armour for that illogical trial.
'It is him you should admire, not a fraud prince like me.'
"He died at my hands," Valarr said, breaking the silence suddenly. His gaze drifted to the horizon while you looked at him, noticing how hard he was trying to hold himself together. "The small folk whisper that the blow with the mace was deliberate, that Prince Maekar did it to outshine his valiant brother and stepping away from his shadow. The fools fail to whisper that it was his son's armour that failed to protect him."
He lowered his head, shaking it, his eyes shining with unshed tears as his body convulsed with the effort of containing a guilt that had been bottled up for too long.
"I should have stopped him." his voice fractured as he spoke, revealing a vision you weren't prepared for. "The trial, he… He should not have joined it. All because of a hedge knight who dared to hurt a prince of the blood. My father never met him until Ashford, but he rekindled his interest in some ways." He paused for a moment, breathing slowly. "Would I had been more persuasive that day, the Seven Kingdoms would still have its finest heir and I-" his voice broke entirely on the last word, and the tears he had held back all this time finally flowed, "I would still have my father."
A heavy silence fell upon you, the sea was the only answer needed in that moment. You hesitated, your mouth slightly parted as your mind raced through the many thoughts rushing through it. Yet, every word failed to reach your mouth and no sound came out.
You were rarely at a loss for words; your silver tongue had always helped you overcome different situations, even when your mother died. You remember watching your father become uncomfortable in a way you had never seen in such an overjoyed man. During your mother's funeral several years ago, as you watched the waves engulf her grave, you took your father's hand and squeezed it, and at the height of your grief, you gave him a warm smile, tears in your eyes.
'Mother would be displeased to see us cry over her burial like this. You know how she hated this kind of fuss.' you muttered, and he was so surprised by your witty response that he let out a little chuckle.
You knew how devastating grief could be, consuming your soul with an overwhelming array of emotions that you initially couldn't control. You could feel the same force slowly consuming Valarr, day by day, until nothing would be left but an empty shell. If you could, you would try to save him.
"He died doing the most chivalrous thing a prince could ever do to his realm." You said with a quiet voice, your hand naturally stretched towards his. Valarr's gaze followed your hand, his breath hitching at the soft contact against his flesh. Despite this, he didn't retract his hand.
"He stood up for a man who just act like a true knight should. He protected an innocent, stood alone against people who care less about a life that holds no lands or titles. He did what most noble men refused to do, and allow me to say that it's a rare thing."
You pronounced the last words proudly, smiling, hoping that your sincere admiration towards Baelor's figure would soothe him. But no smile appeared on Valarr's face, the young prince's eyes remained fixed on your hand touching his. A defeated sigh escaped his lips, and he swallowed the lump in his throat before lifting his gaze again.
"The darkest part of me wished that hedge knight had lost his head and foot for his offence towards my family." Valarr said, his tone bitter but not unkind. He was giving voice to a thought that had been torturing him ever since Ser Duncan apologised to him. He felt shame rise in his stomach and sensed an inquisitive gaze upon him — his father, he thought, watching him alongside the Seven. "It took me long enough to spare him my anger, he was just a knight who wished to prove himself and hope that some lord might take him in service. I’m ashamed to have felt so much hatred towards him."
"Why do you think such?" you tilted your head, softening your tone. "It was the grief talking to you, Valarr. Were I in your shoes, watching the man that raised me and admire more than any other figure in the realm's history fall tragically, I would feel a fury that would wipe the Seven Kingdoms off any map of this world."
Your words had cut deeper than intended, and you could feel Valarr stiffen under your touch. You were speechless for a moment, biting your lower lip and cursing your honest tongue and impulsive mind.
Then you saw him lower his head and hold back tears: the sight stirred something protective inside you, awakening an instinct stronger than your gentle nature. It was a feeling you couldn't name, but it urged you to move closer to him.
And so you did, stepping forward slowly, as if you were approaching a frightened animal. Your shoulder brushed against his, relieved that the prince didn't reject you. Then, you took his hand with your other one, engulfing it in your care and warmth; Valarr's fingers were tense at first, unmoving, as if he was unsure whether he deserved your compassion.
"I remembered how lost I was, when my own mother died." you confessed, your voice low, softened by memory. "I did not know where to place all that grief, if I may be honest. It felt too vast for me, like it would let the whole Seven Kingdoms fall into an endless, dark night. But time and love can heal even the deepest of wounds, and once I allowed the people close to me to share my grief, it became more bearable." A light chuckle interrupted you, and you briefly shook your head before continuing. "It still hurts sometimes, but more like a dull ache than a gnawing vice."
You leaned close to him, your eyes boring into his. "You do not have to pretend with me, as we are to be soon a husband and a wife. Allow me to carry this burned with you, Valarr. Do not let this darkness drive you away from me."
As silence fell again, Valarr noticed how natural it felt to be by your side and how relieving it was to be understood. Your presence was not as inquisitive as the members of the small council, nor you looked at him with the same pity as the King or the members of the servitude and small folk: you simply stood in own place, stepping into his life like a glimmer of light in a cold, dark room. Since childhood, Valarr remembered that timid gaze watching the world unfolding with tender curiosity: those same eyes were now resting on him, with that steady, loving look that made his heart squeeze suspiciously in his chest.
His fingers, once rigid and unmoving, curled under your palm and entangled yours in a timid, delicate hold. And when he lifted his gaze, red and puffy with his tears, he truly realized how ungodly pretty you were in the evening sunlight: your silver curls, wild and untamed by the wind, those pale blue eyes who shone like the crystal- clear Narrow Sea, those delightful cheeks that turned red every time he was around you and your smile, that sweet and merry smile, which still carried the same quite innocence it had since you were a child.
While on the ship, Valarr thought about how unhappy his marriage would have been, and how scared you would feel in his presence. He promised himself he would be the man that Baelor had raised with great care and discipline, and that he would honour and respect as any man with strong principles would. But the truth was far from what he had imagined: it was you who took care of him, and for the first time since grief took root in his heart, he didn't feel alone.
As his father had foretold, love was blossoming like a rare, beautiful flower.
The air turned crisp, the marine breeze enveloping you with a chill that wasn't annoying. At first, none of you dared to speak, Valarr's thumb brushing your knuckles with such care he was afraid you would disappear in front of him.
The young prince stretched a free hand towards you, marveling at how warm and soft you cheek was at your touch, as if he was brushing his palm against the finest silk. Then, as if pulled by an ancient force, he slowly leaned close to you, breaths mingling as you lips crashed into a deep, urgent kiss.
At first, you froze, feeling a chill run down your spine as your muscles tensed at the sudden intimacy. The kiss felt desperate, and you could taste in him the sweetness of the Arbor Red alongside his salty tears. However, it was intense enough to cloud your judgement and silence all your doubts.
You moved your hands up to the collar of his doublet and curled your fingers around the hem while pushing him closer, prolonging a kiss that was about to end. Valarr was surprised, and unexpectedly moaned against your mouth at the sudden closeness. He raised his trembling hands, which hesitated next to your waist before finding it, his grip was gentle at first, but it soon tightened without bruising you.
For a fleeting moment, the world around you faded slowly, along with the burden of the crown and the oaths made in form of political marriage and alliance between two old Houses. For now it was just both of you, two souls who find each other with grief and turned their pain in something noble, in a love that could burn brighter than wildfire.
The kiss turned into something soft, until it eventually broke as his forehead brushed yours gently, struggling to steady his breath for a moment. His eyes, still bright with unshed tears, were brighter than the day he arrived at Driftmark, as if a new spark crossed his bicoloured orbs.
"Valarr." You whispered, struggling to steady your own breath as well. "Forgive me, we should not-"
"I know." He shot back urgently, his voice full of vulnerability, and his grip on your waist tightened. "I just… I need you to be close to me. I will succumb to madness if I have to wait our wedding night."
You were ready to retort, but the honesty and fragility of his words weighted heavily on your chest. You realised that it wasn't just love talking to him; it was loneliness and the need to have someone real and close to fulfil his raw desire to protect and cherish the ones he loved most, without being afraid of losing them.
'Please,' Valarr pleaded, his hands squeezing yours and raised to the level of his mouth. He left lingering kisses on your soft skin, starting from your knuckles and lowering to your wrists. 'I need to feel this. I need to feel you."
His plead was enough to let your resolve finally falter.
And as you stood on tiptoe, you kissed him.
The moon was high in the sky when you woke up.
Your vision was blurred as you tried to adjust to the pale moonlight suspended in the starry sky above, the light chill breeze gave you little goosebumps. Once your eyes had adjusted, you became slowly aware of your surroundings: curved wooden planks shaped like a ship, rose up towards the sky in which you could still make out faint traces of paint on some of them. You raised your hand and noticed grains of salt slipping from your palm, sticking to your slightly wrinkled sleeve.
You steadied yourself on your elbows as you stood in a sitting position. You looked far from the composed lady you were on the morrow: your curls were loose and messy, damp and full of grains of salt, and your gown was wrinkled to the corset, one of the sleeves was so low that left one of your shoulders bare.
Placed on your lap there was a pitch-black coat, the only thing that could shield you from the cold evening. When a shining pin caught you attention — a silver circular pin with three dragon heads looking at the same direction — your mind finally rushed back to the moment that let you so exposed and vulnerable, fragments of memories surfacing in disjointing flashes.
You remembered how Valarr had kissed you the second time, starting slowly and lingeringly before exploding into a heated, passionate embrace. His arms held you close at the waist while you felt his lips curl softly, the tip of his tongue tentatively demanding to explore your mouth. Your fingers traced the nape of his neck, urging his body closer to yours as you complied, tongues brushing together in a timid dance.
You remembered how Valarr had gently lain down on the sand, his mismatched eyes shining at the sight of you beneath him. Your pale curls were scattered across the sand as he began to assault your collarbone, kissing and nibbling it as though he were starving, careful not to leave any trace of your lustful encounter. You were glad you were alone together, surrounded by nothing but the vastness of the High Tide ruins: you wouldn't have to explain your loud moans and whimpers or Valarr's exasperated groans every time you softly pulled his short hair, crushing your lips together in another heated kiss and gently nibbling his lower lip.
You remembered how his unexperienced hands mapped every curves of your body, and how his head disappeared under your underskirt — Valarr had told you softly how unappropriate would have been to him to left you undressed in the middle of the wildness — his lips brushing against your inner tight and linger deeply in your core, your back arching at the feeling of the pleasure warming your stomach, his tongue tentatively tasting you, until his confidence was enough to devour you and force you to come in his mouth.
You remembered how his own clothed body pressed urgently against yours, breaking the oath he had made to himself the moment his length slipped inside you with all his inexperience: despite having promised himself to you, you were still a maiden, and he had silently vowed to leave you as untouched as possible, which was soon broke the moment he felt the deliciously sweet taste of you on his tongue.
His trembling body struggled not to collapse on top of you, overwhelmed by your warmth sorrounding him. You felt a sharp burn stretching your velvet walls, an unpleasant feeling that turned into a bearable stretch as soon as your bodies moved in unison, the movements hurried and unpracticed until you followed a fluid motion, the sound of the waves reaching the shore mingling with your grunts and moans, desperately chasing your pleasure as you both whispered apologies to the Seven for what you were doing.
And when you both came quickly and intensely, Valarr held you close while he spilled inside you, kissing the crown of your head while his body still convulsed, whispering how the gods had been benevolent to send someone like you to him.
You turned your head around, searching for Valarr's figure in the dim light, heart tightened in your chest as you realised you were alone on the shore.
When you finally spotted a dark figure standing barefoot in the water, a quite sense of relief settled in your chest. You stood up and tried to look as much composed as possible — you tried to brush off your hair and gown — before making a few steps towards him with his coat safely resting on your shoulders.
Valarr had his pensive look towards the vastness of the dark horizon, his doublet slightly unbuttoned and exposing the hem of his white linen shirt. His hair were messily moved by the wind, the white streak more prominent and enlightened by the moonlight. His posture was loose, though his face was darkened by the many thoughts crossed on his mind.
A hand drifted to his chest, pressing lightly against his beating heart. Recognizing it as yours, he turned his head towards you, and the smile he gave was small, tired but full of warmth, as if he was finally happy and satisfied.
"How unchivalrous of you to leave a helpless lady to sleep beneath the wreckage of a ship, Your Grace." You teased him with a smirk, your chin resting on his shoulder. Valarr let out a chuckle — a real one, unlike the hollow, practiced ones he had worn at court.
"My apologize, my lady wife." He countered, feigning sorrow, "I thought it would be gallant of me to let you rest."
"It was your absence that woke me up." You said with raw honesty, watching the horizon stretching in front of you. The sea was calm when it reached the shores, wetting the hem of your gown.
"What troubles your mind?" you asked, and Valarr didn't give you an answer at first. He gazed at the horizon while his fingers shifted beneath yours, seeking warmth and reassurance.
"The realm." He simply admitted, sighing softly. "As a Hand, I expected to rejoice with the King and manage the burdens of the Seven Kingdoms. And then it comes the crown…" His voice faltered for a bit before continuing. "My father would have known perfectly how to handle the pressure of the realm."
His hand squeezed yours, a gesture you returned once you felt his nervousness building up.
"I am not perfect like him." Valarr confessed, lowering his voice slightly as to express his discomfort. "He was everything the realm required from an heir, and I still feel anything but."
His vulnerability tightened something in your chest, and for a moment you were at loss of words, the wind talking of your behalf as he blew gently between you.
"You are Valarr Targaryen." You finally said, your lips brushing against his cheek. "And the realm has never demanded you to be like Baelor. Your father will be remembered with fondness and nostalgia, but wha the Iron Throne needs is the light of the future, not the shadow of the past."
You tightened your fingers around him, giving him an encouraging smile as his gaze fell upon you. "I am about to become your wife, and your burdens will be mine as well. I will help you carry the weight of the crown once it will be too heavy for you to bear, to rejoice with you in your defeats and celebrate your victories. You don't need to be the perfect dragon the realm seek. Be the gentle, tiepid flame, and the people will give you the right gratitude and recognition with time."
Valarr didn't look away as he carefully absorbed your words, feeling so inspired that he finally thought he had found a new purpose. Since the events in Ashford Valarr had always relied on Baelor's ghost, striving to embody the ideal of the perfect heir that his father had cultivated through years of study and training. This standard was so unattainable that it had started to feel less like guidance and more like a burden.
But the realm didn't need a flawless sovereign; it needed someone who could allow themselves to falter and stand still, and be humble enough to recognize his flaws and be mature enough to admit the mistakes.
With a silent nod, Valarr looked at the darkening sea on the horizon. His heart was frightened to face the uncertain future stretching beneath him, but for the first time, the fear did not chain him. It steadied him, like the tide that retreats only to return stronger.
When the young prince's time would come, and Daeron the Good would draw his last breath, he would wear a crown his father had never lived to wear it, forged not in grief and in lost, but in the strength and will of a man who learned to endure the hardship of a throne cut like steel.
And when the time would come, his faithful queen would be steadily at his side.
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Pairing: Valarr Targaryen x Velaryon!Reader
Setting: A Knight Of The Seven Kingdoms (post The Hedge Knight).
Summary: The events in Ashford have changed the fate of House Targaryen in a tragic way as Baelor Breakspear perished after the trial of seven. The eyes of the realm now falls on Baelor's firstborn, Valarr, who is weighed down by the burden of the crown and the grief he feels at his father’s death. To shield him from the court's gaze, Daeron sends Valarr to Driftmark to seal a marriage pact, not knowing he will find solance in your company.
Word Count: 11,5 K
Warnings: Mature contents, angst, hurt and comfort, mention of a major character death, grief and loss, implied depression, arranged marriage, suggestive intimacy, light smut, p in v sex, oral (f receiving), Aegon III / Daenaera dynamics like, Reader has the typical Velaryon features, Baelor haunts the narrative, hopeful ending, no beta'd. Please, tell me if I have missed something else!
A.N. It has been so long, but I finally finished this giant fantasy I had while listening to sad songs. I'm not in a good mental space lately, so I poured out all my pain and distress in this fic. It's not the best fic I've made, it was way better in my mind, I still hope you can enjoy it and I hope I didn't made Valarr too OOC (it's my first time writing for him, sorry-).
Now I can finally resume all the readings and write all the requests I paused, enjoy this all!. 💜
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ENGLISH IS NOT MY FIRST LANGUAGE. I APOLOGISE IN ADVANCE FOR MY GRAMMAR AND VOCABULARY MISTAKES.
VALARR TARGARYEN MASTERLIST
The surrounding landscape of Ashford Castle was the perfect blend of old-world charm and natural beauty, where ancient stone walls met the untamed beauty of nature. The yard was made from a rock idle connected with the castle, — dark rocks blending with tufts of green grass and small yellow ears of corn — spacious enough to welcome nobles and host formal gatherings. The laughter of these guests, once carried on the wind, still seemed to linger in the mossy crevices of the stone.
That day, however, the wind carried the whispers of the dead and the salt tears of the ones who loved, along with the memories of the ones who lay on the arms of the Stranger.
Baelor Targaryen, Prince of Dragonstone, Hand of the King and Protector of the Realm, perished on the second day of the Ashford tourney, standing as a champion for a hedge knight whose guilt was to strike the royal blood in defense of an innocent puppeteer.
His body lay on a pyre of cedar and pine wood, wrapped in a shiny black armour with the Targaryen sygil embodied on it, a golden chain adorning his neck and his sheathed sword by his side. His face was calm, relaxed and composed, carrying the same dignity and nobility which distinguished him when he was alive.
When the pyre was lit and the flames reached up into the cloudy sky, no one dared to speak. Three members of the Kingsguard — Ser Williem Wylde, Ser Roland Crakehall, and Ser Donnel of Duskendale — stood rigidly, hands on the hilts of their swords, their white armour gleaming on their battered and gloomy faces. Prince Maekar stood few steps behind, his son Aegon gathered at his side; his face was bruised, his eyes were vacant and his hands were still. He had schooled every muscle in his face to hold, because Aegon was beside him and a father could not crumble before his son. But beneath that stillness something turned inside, and guilt haunted him like a dreadful ghost.
A few steps further stood the new Prince of Dragonstone, Valarr.
The Young Prince was the perfect embodiment of the righteousness, with his shoulders and back straight as a rod, striking a serious yet dignified pose. His face was a mask, and a convincing one: jaw set, eyes dry, gaze fixed upon the fire with the kind of steadiness that lesser men might have mistaken for composure. At first glance, Valarr appeared to be a young man who had chosen to wear his grief with grace and honour, the same principles that his father had upheld throughout his brief life.
Yet every fortress has a crack that allows you to catch the slightest glimpse of what lies beyond. And judging by his small gestures, Valarr was not immune to pain.
His hands were clasped together, straining the fabric of his dark doublet. His eyes, one pale blue as open water and the other warm brown as heartwood, were dull and fixed on his father’s motionless figure, as he watched the flames slowly engulf him, for him being a blood of the dragon and his end was writ in flame. He felt a tightness in his throat, swallowing a lump every time he felt his eyes welling up; but his gaze did not waver, and tears failed to stream down his face.
Valarr loved Baelor with the a painful sincerity and intense devotion of a son who has always believed that his father is better than him in every way. Valarr was shorter and slimmer, not the fierce and powerful warrior Baelor was, and his youthful inexperience made him impatient and impulsive, whereas his father weighed up his impulses and displayed a cool, rational calm, yet never lost his mercy towards his foes. Baelor had been good in a way that seemed unwordly, and Valarr had spent his whole life quietly wondering whether that goodness was something a man was born with, or something that could be learned. Sadly, he will never find this answer from him.
"He died in my armour," Valarr murmured with steady yet regretful voice. His gaze drifted somewhere beyond the wildness of Ashford Meadow while Ser Duncan's condolences reached him as if from a great distance. Baelor had barely known the hedge knight, yet he had found a reason enough, in that blunt and honest heart of his, reason enough to die for him. Valarr had tried to cultivate hatred towards him in his heart, but nothing close to it never emerged.
"He had it in him to be the greatest king, since Aegon the Dragon," the young prince said at the horizon, and the next question that fell out from his mouth was the quietest form of anger his body could produce. Why would the gods take him and leave you?
But with this question still unanswered and grief sitting heavily in his chest, Valarr mounted his horse and resumed his journey back to King's Landing. He had left the city as the heir's heir, and he would cross its gates again as heir apparent to the Iron Throne, with all the little joy he could ever feel.
And when Daeron the Good would draw his last breath, Valarr would wear a crown his father had never lived to wear it, forged not in fire and blood, but in grief and in loss.
The Red Keep was gloomier than he remembered.
The corridors of pale marble were now like soft hues of grey stones, cold and unmoved by the passage of time. Even the torches burned low in their sconces — or perhaps they burned the same, and it was only his eyes that had changed, learning in the space of a fortnight to perceive darkness where there had once been light.
His footsteps felt like heavy echoes in his ears, and all the guards and servants that crossed his way stood still and bowed in respect, murmurs of 'Your Grace' and 'my prince' felt like a distant sound. Valarr could see from his mismatched eyes that pity was performed on their faces, and some of the servants still cried at his passage.
Or maybe they were just living and performed their duties day after day, as they always did once they crossed the heavy doors of the Red Keep, but the Young Prince's eyes were too clouded by grief to give a proper judgement of his surroundings.
Once back to the castle, Valarr avoided the unbearable ceremonies of condolences and stormed in his private chambers, facing a task even more gruelling than watching his father burn on a pyre: telling his younger brother, Matarys, that Baelor was in the hands of the Stranger.
He had not yet come of age, a boy of three-and-ten whose gentleness and politeness had already been praised at court. There was a six-year age gap between them — the same that ironically ran between Baelor and Maekar, Valarr thought — yet there was a maturity and sense of duty that was rare to find in boys his age. He knew how sensible Matarys could be, taking all the news and processing them with unnecessary formality or drama.
But when Valarr found him curled on himself at the edge of his bed, blue eyes swollen and shiny and fidgeting one of his father's rings in his hands, he realized that the loss of a parent was a blow hard to absorb even for a quiet soul like him. There were no words spoken between them, only a hug and silent cries, Valarr kissing the crown of his red head and muttering soft apologies, for he feeling responsible of not having stopped Baelor of wearing his armour. He made a vow to himself he would take care of him, taking all his pain away and make him his.
Despite of loathing Aerion for what he did — had him choose a fair punishment, he would had likely demanded his head, thought his exile in Lys was nothing but a meagre consolation — and growing cold with Maekar while never blaming him for the accidental blow that swung, Valarr decided to carry his grief with silence and dignity; his handsome features were veiled with an evident tiredness, his mismatched eyes losing all the lightness they once carried. Black was the colour he started to wear, even in formal occasions. The court had seen the young prince seldom smiling since his return to Ashford, and on the rare occasions when he did, his smile never reached his ears.
The court observed how he adapted to his new role as heir, swiftly adopting the necessary mannerisms and behaviours, suggesting that he had moved on easily. In truth, Valarr had mastered the art of masking his pain, turning himself into this armour and showing the same strong, unwavering resolve as his father.
But even the strongest wall was designed to crack soon.
The small council room was hit by the usual spring warmth, the long windows casting a pleasant light that made the whole room golden at the sight. There was a smell of ink, burning candles and old parchments rolled on the tables, filled with the chatters between Lord Penrose and the Grand Maester about the potential public discontent over the rise in wheat prices.
At the right side of King Daeron II, Valarr listened with forced focus, one cheek resting on his hand while the other one was busy with playing with a small marble ball.
He was named Hand of the King few days after his return in court, the youngest the realm ever had, and he took his role with silent, unhesitating gravity with which he had taken everything else the world had recently seen fit to place upon him.
He had joined few council sessions in the past, watching with a keen eye how Baelor managed a minor small folk crisis or debated on wether to send a traitor to the Wall or setting a public execution. The young prince marveled at how his father could hold a room with a gentle authority, handling situations that could be tedious for even the most experienced sovereign, without losing his temper or raising his voice.
Valarr had studied him in a way a maester studies a written book, hoping to grasp all his wisdom and take into practice once his time would come. But now, he just though how little he felt ready.
Once the council was dismissed, Valarr silently marched towards the Tower of the Hand, a small, darker and more modest chamber than the one of his royal apartments. It was late afternoon when the Young Prince sealed his tenth parchment of the day, the smell of the melted wax so unpleasant enough to make his nose wrinkle in discomfort.
The low orange light filtered through the windows, lighting up the room along with the few candles and the faint glow of the fire. While lifting the gaze, he was finally aware how tired he felt all at once — his head hurt, his back was seized with cramps whilst his stomach growled for lack of food.
The soft knock of the door made him raise his head, huffing nervously. "Leave me," he sneered, his quill moving faster while starting his eleventh parchment, "The Hand is too busy to grant an audience."
"Would the Hand grant an audience to a close kin?" a gentle voice came behind the door, king Daeron appearing without announcing himself. He was't wearing his crown, making him more like a concerned grandsire than the Lord of the Seven Kingdoms itself.
Valarr put the quill down and stood up, only to be stopped by Daeron's hand gesture. "You may sit." He murmured, "I did not come as your king."
"You are still my grandsire, and as such, you deserve the respect you are due." Valarr countered.
"I'd rather enjoy a healthy and content grandson than a somber and dutiful one." Daeron retorted, his tone still kind and careful. He took a set on a chair nearby, and waited for Valarr to sit as well.
"Matarys came to me after supper." Daeron continued, his voice so low as if he was speaking to a wounded animal.
"Of course he did-"
"He said you had not eaten, and had not left this tower since the council has been dismissed." The old king took a brief pause before continuing. "He is worried, Valarr. In the same way your grandmother and me are, in the same way the realm is."
"The realm can breath in relief, I am fine." Valarr replied, his tone unintentionally sharp. He looked down at the half-begun parchment, and resisted the urge to start working again. "TeI am your heir, Your Grace, and your Hand as well. King's Landing shall deserve a prepared Prince when the time comes."
Daeron let out a faint chuckle, which startled Valarr for a bit. "Unless you're planning to depose your own grandsire or praying the Stranger to claim me, you have enough time to prepare yourself for the crown."
Valarr had no answer for that, as he knew he was perfectly true. His mismatched gaze rested on the chaos that reigned on his desk: the little open box, containing the ten parchment perfectly sealed; few half-opened books scattered around, some about the history of Old Valyria, some about the political relationships between the regions of the Seven Kingdoms; the small ceramic inkwell spilled on a blank sheet, leaving drops of solified wax behind.
It was the typical chaos of a young man trying to outrun his grief, burying himself so thoroughly beneath the accumulated weight of books and correspondence. Daeron saw it and smiled bitterly, Valarr followed with a frown.
"Father would be displeased to see all this mess," Valarr managed to say with feeble voice.
"Your father would be proud to see such a diligent son, instead," the old king declared, "but he would be happier to see his son free from his grief, and content with someone standing by his side."
His slender fingers fumbled in the pockets of his doublet, pulling out a parchment. He lent the roll to Valarr, who took it with his inky hands and inspected the wax seal: it was perfectly circular, the sea green shining under the candlelight. An intricate raised stamp of a seahorse could be seen on the seal, the ancient sygil that belonged to House Velaryon of Driftmark, one of the few families in the Seven Kingdoms who could claim to have Old Valyrian blood in their veins, to have ridden dragons in the past and a to have a close connection to House Targaryen even before the Conquest.
Valarr looked up from the parchment and watched the old king, his expression curious as he waited for an explanation.
"I received this on the morrow after your departure for Ashford." Daeron confesses calmly. "I would have liked to give it after you returned, but the news that followed made it… unappropriate."
He folded his hands in his lap and held his grandson's gaze without flinching. "I kept it, in the hope I could find you in a better shape. But we couldn't let Lord Velaryon waiting any longer."
Valarr looked back at the seal, tracing the outline of the sigil with his fingers. After a moment's thought, he swiftly broke the wax seal and unrolled the parchment in front of his grandfather's violet eyes. The handwriting was elegant and precise, and each word was carefully chosen to reflect the importance of the request.
At first Valarr read in silence, the only sounds allowed in the room were two people's slow breathing and the soft crackling of the fire. It took few minutes and a couple of re-readings to fully grasp the weight of what was written.
"A marriage proposal." Valarr announced flatly, his eyes still trained to the parchment. Daeron nodded, his fingers clasped together on his lap.
"Lord Velaryon has a daughter, closer to your age. She has a calm and gentle temperament, and as you she has lost someone dear to her recently." Daeron said. "You may not recall her, but she was presented to the court with her father for few moons, hoping that he might find a decent suitor for her."
Valarr listened carefully, pinching the bridge of his nose as he tried to recall the memory of the Lord of the Tides appearing in court with his daughter by his side. A fragmented memory surfaced from his memory, blurred at first, then cleaner soon after: a little girl, standing beside her lord father, wearing a gracious sea green gown, composed and polite despite her bashfulness.
He recalled the pale blue hues of her eyes, watching and finding him among the crowd, her little hand squeezing the hem of his father's doublet, the torchlight catching her silver-gold hair, the same Valyrian traits that lacked in Valarr, saved for that silver streak running through his hair.
King Daeron took a careful pause, pondering his next words carefully. "Your cousin Daeron has tied himself to the lady Kiera of Tyrosh, and Aerion has caused so many troubles I wouldn't be surprised no lords have sent a marriage proposal to him yet," Daeron sighed in defeat, almost ashemed by his grandson's reckless behaviour. "Aemon belongs to the Citadel and Matarys have plenty of years to come to age."
"So Lord Velaryon's choice falls on me," Valarr concluded, his fingers nervously playing with one of his late father's rings, an habit he inherited from Baelor himself.
"You have been his choice from the moment he showed his daughter to court, I wager." Daeron muttered, as if he was talking more to himself than to Valarr. "He has a high regard on your late father, a regard that has not faded with his passing.”
Valarr’s gaze didn't waver, though something in it dimmed for a bit. He hit the inside of his cheek, his gaze unfocused on the parchment as he dramatically slumped in his chair. "I don't think I am capable of giving this lady the love his lord father is seeking from this House."
"Lord Velaryon favours strategy and the safety of our Houses over matters of the heart." Daeron explained with unwavering patience, leaning close to his grandson. “Not every marriage begins in love, Valarr. Most begin in need. Affection, if the gods are kind, comes later. And in this case, you may carry the same weight together, if you will allow her."
Valarr opened his mouth to protest, but no words came out. His mind drifted unbidden to a long-buried memory of his father, standing in front of the small council's windows, hands clasped on his back as his eyes watched King's Landing thrive another day. Valarr remembered how, on that day, he looked at him, explaining with his unfaltering calm and kindness what would be expected from him once he will be King:
"A king or queen cannot hope to rule wisely without the counsel of their consort. You may be wed out of duty rather than desire, but if you allow your hearts to truly see one another, and if both remain honest and steadfast, then love may yet take root and grow into its most noble form.”
The prince's lips pressed into a thin line: his words lingered steadily in his mind. Despite how much he refused to accept it, his father had stated the simple but cold truth. Baelor himself was tied to a woman he did not choose, but once they had got to know each other, a gentle love and affection blossomed between them.
"If so, I will graciously accept the Lord of the Tides' marriage proposal." Valarr announced in the end, leaving the parchment rolled up on the desk. "I will summon a the council on the morrow. We must arrange the arrival-"
"The matter has been settled already." Daeron interrupted him, his gaze following the young prince's movements. "The fleet is ready. You'll be setting off for Driftmark at dawn."
Valarr froze mid-gesture, his palm pressed on the cold wood of the door. “At dawn?” He asked, his voice betrayed a mixture of surprise. "Why me?"
"It is better for you to stay away from the court for a while." Daeron said, his expression calm but firm. "I am not banishing you like Aerion, but I'm sending you where you may breathe without half the court measuring every silence you keep. You deserve a moment of respite after the tourney, and I promise you Matarys will be well guarded."
A heavy silence settled between them, thick and cold. Every word Valarr might have spoken seemed to vanish before it reached his lips. He simply sat there, absorbing Daeron’s words, letting them sink in. Slowly, deliberately, Valarr processed the weight behind them, poundering the expectation of the realm with the mere desires of his broken heart.
"As you wish, Your Grace," he solemny announced before pushing open the door and stepping with one foot outside the chamber when Daeron called him, forcing Valarr to turn again on his grandsire once more.
"I am a mourning man too, for me having lost my dear firstborn," the old king said, and for the first time Valarr heard some vulnerability in him, "I don’t know how much time the gods have granted me, but my last wish is to see you truly happy."
The two men stood for a long time, glazing at each other. Then, Valarr simply nodded, and with quick steps he vanished into the darkness of the towers' corridors.
Castle Driftmark lacked of the splendor High Tide had before its doom.
People from Hull remembered with nostalgic fondness of the walls built in pale stone, of the rich roots of beaten silver shining through the daylight, its rays dancing across the surface like moving water, of the Great Hall richily decorated by all the trinkets and treasure that the Sea Snake used to proudly expose after a long journey, giving prestige to the Driftwood Throne that would serve as a seat to the Lord of the Tides.
But the Dance brought fire and blood to his House and its close allies in both side, and with it came ruin that no waves could wash away. A wound that still lingered on Velaryon's pride, who reclaimed their ancestral seat without formal ceremonies.
You were used of the dark, salt-stained walls of your chambers, rich of that salsedine scent that made your guests leave in discomfort; yet, as you're used to remember, Velaryons belonged to the sea, and that scent was nothing but a simple reminder of your ancestral heritage.
You sat on the wooden table in the Great Hall with a book in your hands, listening to the sound of the waves crashing against the rocks. You carefully turned the pages describing the life and legacy of Lord Corlys Velaryon, whose name was synonimous with all the empire he built from the sea. Remarkable were his famous "nine voyages" beyond the known world with his Sea Snake, his fortunes carved from salt and storm and how his fleets had ruled the Narrow Sea with great ambition.
As you traced the carved letters of the paragraph about his marriage to Princess Rhaenys Targaryen, you heard the door open. You father announced himself with the same humility and quietness that had carried with him since your mother's loss. It was barely a decade when the titles of Lord of the Tides and Master of Driftmark fell on his shoulders, and he still held them with uneffortless grace.
Lord Velaryon took a seat next to you, smiling warmly. Your eyes caught an open parchment, but failed to see the broken sygil. "What news do Hull brings today, Father?" you asked with an inquisitive look, closing your book with a slow movement.
Your father glanced down at the parchment, his smile lingering something deeper you couldn't quite catch. "Not from Hull, my siren. From King's Landing."
Something inside you rose at the tip of your stomach, and a strange tension settled in your chest. Lord Velaryon leaned back slightly, the creak of his wooden chair echoing in the room.
"Am I expected to sail for the Crownlands soon?" You simply asked, trying to keep your voice steady despite the anxiety rising inside you. It wasn't the first time you were summoned at King Daeron's court, but each felt heavier at every parchment sent.
"No," Lord Velaryon said, his pale blue eyes resting on your tense figure. "Not this time. I have asked Mira to assist you in preparing for our guest. Prince Valarr Targaryen has expressed his wish to meet you here, on Driftmark, away from the court's prying eyes."
At first you said nothing, the words your father had spoken settled slowly in your mind, leaving you speechless. It had been so long since Castle Driftmark has hosted a valuable guest, most of the time a lord of a minor or almost forgotten House. Hosting a prince of the blood, a heir of a House that has crossed the sky with their impressive beasts… That was another matter.
Your father took your hand, squeezing it gently as a way to easy your discomfort. "Fear not, child. Our Houses have been tied since the beginning of the Conquest, we both share the same blood from Old Valyria. I highly doubt the Prince has forgotten the fidelty we show to his House during the Dance."
"It is not of this that I am afraid, Father." You said softly, lowering your gaze on the book resting on your lap.
"Then what troubles you, truly?"
You knitted your eyebrows together, nervously tearing your cuticles until they bled. A part of you wanted to downplay your concern, to say that it would pass soon. But the way your father noticed your hands with a somber look, covering them with his large palms, murmuring a gentle 'don't do this to you' helped your defences to go down.
"I am afraid," you started, "that the prince might not be the man people claim him to be.” You paused a bit, raising your gaze as you continued, "Tales grow in the telling, I know. They said that the prince is an honourable man, much like his father. What if the whispers prove to be wrong, father?"
Lord Velaryon casted an understanding glance on you, sighing softly. He felt how nervous you were and couldn't blame you: the weight of a marriage with the crown's heir was not a small thing to set on a girl's shoulders, however steady those had always proven to be.
"I had the honour to face Prince Baelor in a tournament, when I was closer to your age." He said solemnly, his pale blue gaze present but distant at the same time. "He unhorsed me on the second pass. Cleanly, with a precision and switftness that left me dazzled."
"You have already told me this story, Father."
"I know I did." He continued, unbothered by your interruption. "What I remember most is the Prince dismounting from his horse and helping me to my feet in front of the astonished realm. He looked me in the eyes and said that I had ridden well, and he meant it, with all the dignity he could show in that moment." Lord Velaryon paused, recollecting his thoughts before continuing. "He was a great man, the best heir I'd ever had the occasion to meet. I can promise you that Valarr Targaryen was raised by one of the finest men I ever had the privilege of being unhorsed by."
Your father leaned towards you closely, his thumbs affectionately rubbing your knuckles. "He has lost his father, and I'm sure he is still mourning him along with the king and the realm. If you allow him, you might be able to find comfort in each other."
You listened without interrupting, nodding slowly at your father as tears began to well up in your eyes. Even though it wasn't recent, your mother's death was still a wound fresh in your heart, a dull ache that you had learned to carry quietly. News of the terrible events in Ashford had reached Hull as well, and you remembered how upset and hurt you had been by the death of someone you had barely met years ago.
A comfortable silence settled between you, broken only by the sound of the waves outside. Your father's arms stretched out to you and engulfed your body in an embrace filled with love and warmth. This both calmed you and made you reflect: the gods may have taken your mother from you, but they had the decency to allow your loving father to stay.
"Go, now." Lord Velaryon murmured, breaking the embrace to look at you. "Change your clothes. If the wind holds, our guest arrives by late morrow." His gaze dropped to your hands, settling on your tortured fingers. "And have Mira clean those. There is no need to ruin such pretty hands."
You nodded again, a little smile forming on your face. "Yes, Father."
Standing with the book safely tugged in your chest, you left the Great Hall to reach your personal chambers, where Mira, a warm bath and a sea green dress were waiting for you.
It had been since dawn that the Targaryen's fleet has left the harbor of King's Landing under King Daeron's watchful eyes, and thank to the good gods' grace, the journey proceeded swiftly.
The sea was a perfectly flat, crystal-clear expanse; the only ripples were caused by the ships gliding across the water’s surface. A soft spring breeze blew through the black sails, proudly displaying the red three-headed dragon sigil against the cloudless blue sky.
Prince Valarr stood at the centre of the ship's bridge, his gaze fixed on the sky as he played with his father's ring. Still dressed in black and wearing Baelor's clothes, he tucked his dagger into his belt — a habit he had kept since returning from Ashford. Men were working around him in swift motion, and Ser Williem Wylde was watching him with hawk-like intensity, his hand resting on the hilt of his sword.
Valarr's mismatched gaze was fixed on the sky, blue and empty as it had ever been. He had been born into a world already deprived of dragons; the consequences of the Dance of Dragons had robbed the Targaryens of the only thing that had elevated them to godlike status, prompting the small folk to whisper about how they used to be the masters of the sky.
He had grown up surrounded by the tapestries of the Red Keep, each one recounting the long history of his ancestors: from the Doom of Valyria and the Age of Conquest to the great reign of Jaehaerys I and the Dance of the Dragons.
When he asked his father why the dragons had disappeared, Baelor told him that his ancestors had lost their wisdom in a war for the crown. At the time, he was too young to understand what his father meant.
Now, as he was about to reach the dock of Hull after days of travelling and looking at the sky, picturing the shadows of dragons engulfing the entire fleet, he finally understood. And for the first time, he thought about how fascinating it would have been to ride a dragon.
The sun was high in the sky when Valarr finally set foot on dry land, taking a breath of relief. Hull wasn't as big and wealthy as King's Landing, but the simplicity and modesty of its people moved him in an unexpected way.
Upon arriving at the gloomy Castle Driftmark, Valarr and his men were greeted by a modest welcome party, far from the opulence he had read about in books regarding the former High Tide. At the forefront was Lord Velaryon, exuding his customary polite confidence, a thing Valarr noted and appreciated, as well as the few household knights and servants surrounding their ruler. The banners were few and modest, the sigil of House Velaryon standing proud without excess.
And then he saw you.
You stood with pride and graciousness a couple of feet behind your father, your hair combed into a modest braid with some curls falling down your neck. You were not dressed for spectacle, there were no extravagant jewels around your neck and no elaborate court gown designed to impress. Yet, the simplicity of your attire lit up your face, along with your flushed cheeks and sweet, timid smile.
You were beautiful, Valarr thought. You were blossomed since the last time he briefly saw you in court.
"Your Grace." Lord Velaryon said, respectfully bowing at him while the young prince dismounted from his horse. "Driftmark is honoured to welcome a Targaryen on its shores again."
Valarr took a step forward, his gaze softening despite his smile didn't reach his ears. "My lord," he retorted, shaking with firmness his hand. "It's a great honour to be received from you."
He then took another step towards you. His bicoloured eyes moved to your hands, noticing little spots of red circling your nails. He frowned but quickly composed himself, pushing every thought aside.
"My lady," he said softly, taking one of your hands and bringing it to his lips. You felt a tender brush against your knuckles, sending a jolt of electricity that stunned you. "I must admit I am delighted to see you again."
You eyes widened and your lips slightly parted, but no words came out. Yet, you quick regained your composure, and your usual bright smile returned to your face. "The pleasure is mine, my prince."
Neither of you could clearly remember what had happened between you: the only thing you recalled was your father kindly inviting Valarr inside, breaking that magical moment that had almost formed between you.
But while Valarr turned towards you again, he didn't smile.
The early afternoon was pleasantly warm and calm, the waves lapped gently against the shore, unlike the forceful winter waves. The wind was calm, occasionally blowing gently to remind you of its presence as it watched life unfold beneath it.
You and Valarr walked long the shore with a slow pace, both of you showing the first signs of nervousness and discomfort: Valarr was twirling Baelor's ring on his finger, too large for him but had categorically refused to resize it; you, on the other hand, had your finger on your teeth, worrying the already torn cuticle of your thumb with the absent, compulsive discomfort that had always accompanied you once you didn't know how to begin a conversation.
The modest banquet you had was not the grand welcome feast that suited a prince of the realm; yet, in its modesty it was somehow well received by Valarr. Having attended and hosted enough feasts and banquets in the Red Keep, he had undoubtedly become weary of opulence and abundance, you thought.
With the two men seated at opposite ends of the table, you heard for the upteenth time the story of how Baelor Targaryen unhorsed your father on a wedding tournament of a House you hardly recall its name, and how the young prince listened with interest while sipping wine from his goblet.. There a was a certain light in his eyes, a flick of pain that you recognized well: a part of you wished to stop your father and tell him how indelicate it was to bring back a memory of a father he had recently lost. Yet Valarr did nothing to stop him and welcomed the memory with a bittersweet fondness that sat quietly on his features.
Perhaps that was how Baelor Breakspear wanted to be remembered: not as an heir who died tragically in unfortunate circumstances, but as a courteous and chivalrous man, the best the realm could ever hope for.
A soft brush of a hand brought you back to reality, lifting you gaze suddenly. Valarr's palm was resting on the back of your hand and took your finger out of your mouth.
"Don't do this to you," he murmured, squeezing your hand briefly. You blinked and stared at him for a while as you walked from side to side, his hand never leaving yours.
"I…" you started, swallowing as you felt your throat suddenly go dry. "Forgive me. It is an old habit."
"I can see it." Valarr replied smoothly, his hand releasing yours. "Forgive me if my presence is troubling you."
You shook your head, and you swore you could hear your heart breaking a little. "It is not your presence, my lord." You murmured, giving him a reassuring smile. "It is what it is expected from me. From us. I'm afraid I am not the consort the court deserves."
The young prince looked at you, taking in your words carefully. "Why would you think such?"
"I have read from the records of my family how the court can be demanding." You retorted earnestly, gazing back at him. "It can either strengthen or break you, every move you make will always be under prying eyes. I have lived in Driftmark my whole life, and I'm afraid it will take so long for me to fit into this new role."
The words hung between you and Valarr, who couldn't find the right words to ease your doubts. Born as the heir's firstborn son, he knew only too well how nerve-wracking it could be to feel the weight of the role on his shoulder: he had been raised to be the perfect future king the realm expected him to become. Despite his father and grandfather never putting excessive pressure on him, he never had the luxury of choosing, and part of him always admired and envied Matarys' freedom, and how little the realm demanded of him.
"I cannot promise the court won't look at you with its inquisitive look," Valarr said, his gaze temporarily resting on his father's ring and then on you. "But I can promise you I will not put some expectations on you that will cause discomfort. You are to be my wife, and your well being is my main concern."
There was a raw modesty in the young prince's words that left you stunned for a bit, and in their own way, his words eased the nervousness that had accompanied you since your father announced his arrival at Castle Driftmark. Your mind had already prepared for the worst: you had heard stories about King Daeron's youngest grandsons and how they had proven that Targaryen princes could be mad or complicated — a constant headache for the royal and noble families alike.
Yet, what you father said was true: Valarr was raised by the finest man the Seven Kingdoms ever had, and under his veil of sadness you had felt a warmth from him that you hadn't expected.
"Your words truly flatter me, my lord." You whispered, smiling as you felt your cheeks turning red. "But you are not wrong to expect a perfect wife."
"It is better to have an honest ally than an unhappy foe at your side." Valarr retorted with seriousness. "I know we let the others choose for us, and that this marriage is not the love union we both wanted. But I hope we could find common interests that could bring us close."
'And affection may grow, if the gods are kind to us,' Valarr thought, lacking of courage to say it out loud. Instead, his gaze as he watched your shoulders relax and colour return to your face. It was as if the sun were shining brighter in the sky and he were lucky enough to be engulfed by your inner warmth.
And for a fleeting moment, it felt as if his grief had softened.
You both walked in silence for a while, watching how the waves engulfed the shore while words lingered around you. You cast a brief glance on the prince, and your heart ached at the sight of him trying to hold himself together while inside he was falling apart. You couldn't help but notice his tired eyes, the way the corner of his mouth always turned down in a frown and how he clasped his father's ring as if it were the only tangible memory he had left of him.
As you held your late mother's pendant, you understood his pain, and you promised that he wouldn't have to carry it alone.
You pointed to the horizon with your finger, indicating a ruined castle far from the shore. "See those ruins over there?" You broke the silence, and Valarr followed you, nodding silently. "Records from Driftmark said that two dragons used to dance there, enticing onlookers to gaze in wonder at the spectacle from the shore."
You turned towards Valarr, pleased to say you had his full attention. "Apparently, Vhagar and Caraxes crossed the Gullet and started their journey to Pentos. Prince Daemon and Lady Laena must have had quite the adventure."
"They left King's Landing because King Viserys wasn't pleased with their marriage," Valarr continued, picturing the silhouette of the dragons circling the ruined stones in his mind. "Grandsire used to tell us this story when we were little."
You saw his worn features softening a bit, and you felt somehow relieved. "I have always wondered how different the world would be if dragons were still alive. I would fly over the Crownlands and across the Lands of the North.'
"My apologies I cannot offer you the dragons you seek, my lady. However, there is a large tapestry room in the Red Keep that tells the history of House Targaryen. We could stay there and watch all the dragons you wish."
It was a simple offer, yet there was a hidden sweetness that took you by surprise. With your eyes shining, you gave him a bright smile in return.
"Tapestries don't fly like dragons," you pointed out quietly, "but I will gladly accept you offer, Your Grace."
"Valarr," he said with a startling tenderness. "If we are meant to be wed, I would like to drop formalities between us."
You turned back to the water, the warmth inside your chest settled around you like the tepid light of the late afternoon.
"Then, I will gladly accept your offer, Valarr." You said softly, correcting yourself.
And for the first time since Ashford, Valarr genuinely smiled again.
The days turned into weeks, and a peaceful routine settled around Valarr's permanence in Driftmark. His grandsire had been adamant with his advices — 'take your time to grow accustomed to each other, before the duties of the crown will put its thorns around you' — and Valarr had put them into practice correctly, delaying his departure to King's Landing until the time felt right.
Time: that was a luxury that had lacked to him since the day the dreadful news had been brought to him. Since that, his life had taken an unexpected turn, and before he could ever blink his eyes properly, he found himself heir to the Throne and the King's right-hand man without the proper preparation, both intellectual and emotional.
He had wondered whether he should return once the marriage agreement had been finalised, given that he was the King's Hand and his presence was undoubtedly required at the small council. Again, the words of his grandsire echoed in his mind — 'The realm can spare its Hand for a few weeks.'
And he chose to stay.
Driftmark seemed to grant him a new lease of life: its castle appeared less gloomy each day that passed, and the sea air and salt were no longer so bothersome. Each member of servitude treated the young prince in the same way they had welcomed him a few days prior, with that same quietness and humility that undoubtly touched his heart, teaching him to appreciate the smallest acts of gentleness from the members of the court, and never take them granted.
Lord Velaryon, who appeared older than Daeron had described him, was a man with a keen sense of hospitality: he would bring the young prince with him outside in the morrow, fishing or sailing short distances along the coast, talking about his youthful adventures while discussing the matters regarding his daughter's marriage. It was a man the young prince grew to expect and admire, a good landlord who knew how to lay down the law when necessary.
And then there was you, the light that was conquering his neverending darkness.
Valarr couldn't tell what kind of spell you had cast on him, for him being drawn by your sunny nature and natural charm like Icarus to the sun. You would tell him stories about your House and the great names that had shaped the history of Driftmark and the seas beyond it, speaking with the same emotion and intensity of a child looking at a delicious plate of lemon cakes. In return, Valarr would tell you about the Conquest and the dragons, with a precision and care as if wanting to understand that many Targaryen had been touched by madness from birth.
And when there were days that he would grow quiet, waking up and screaming after dreaming about his father smiling at him while wearing his son's armour, blood dripping from the smashed gorget of his helm, you would just sit with him in religious silence, often singing for him or just holding his head, telling him a story coming from one of the books of your small library in the east hall. And for that, Valarr was profoundly grateful to you.
Affection was indeed growing between you two, along with something more you couldn't quite give a name yet.
One day, you decided to ride towards the southside of Driftmark, reaching what remained of High Tide and of its Ironwood Throne, passing through Spicetown.
All that remained was a heap of ruins, the Dance wiping out everything under its merciless fire. The great towers that Corlys Velaryon had built using the wealth from his eastern voyages had been reduced to ashes and ruins, but the remains stood proudly, despite their condition. The pale, sea-scoured stones had dramatically darkened, taking on a sulphurous hue. The Great Hall, which had displayed all kinds of treasures, maps and conquests, was now nothing but piles of half-standing walls and columns and a cold stone floor. The once-imposing Driftwood Throne was now nothing but charred wood scattered by the wind, the heart of the Velaryon power was nothing but a distant memory.
You had been here a hundred times. Valarr was seeing it for the first time.
"My mother used to bring me there, when she had enough strenght to bear horse riding." You said in the late afternoon, the two of you sat on the beach, under the wooden remnants of one of the Sea Snakes' deceased fleet. "She said she loved it here, albeit the ruins made her melancholic. She would sit exactly where we are now and tell me about the latest records she had read, concerning the fine spices and precious silks Lord Corlys imported from Yi Ti. and how much she wished she had have lived in that era, so she could have witnessed all this splendour."
You paused, running your fingers towards your mother's pendant, the light in your eyes fading slowly. Valarr held his breath for a moment, feeling lost for words and as if he had been stabbed in the heart: it was rare for him to see you so vulnerable beneath your happy and confident mask.
"The maesters could not find alogical explanation for why her health was deteriorating with each passing moon." you continued, your quiet voice trembling for a bit, "she was born fragile, she had always been, but somehow she found herself… joyful, with her short life."
You sighed, a small tear running down your cheek. Valarr fought the urge to reach out and wipe it away, afraid that even the slightest touch might be inappropriate.
"She would have liked you." You continued, your voice steadier than before. "She had always been inclined towards incorruptible nobles, standing for those who embody the values of a true king and warrior. I am sure you would have won her approval within the first evening here."
Something inside Valarr shifted, a wave of doubt washing over him. He shouldn't feel in this way, you were doing nothing but praise him and let him link with your late mother, but somehow you stunned and hurt him into the core. With his head low, the young prince clasped his hands together so tightly that his knuckles turned white. He had never considered himself like a prince who embodies the values of the perfect King and warrior: that was his father's, the same father whom he believed he had indirectly killed in Ashford when he allowed him to wear his armour for that illogical trial.
'It is him you should admire, not a fraud prince like me.'
"He died at my hands," Valarr said, breaking the silence suddenly. His gaze drifted to the horizon while you looked at him, noticing how hard he was trying to hold himself together. "The small folk whisper that the blow with the mace was deliberate, that Prince Maekar did it to outshine his valiant brother and stepping away from his shadow. The fools fail to whisper that it was his son's armour that failed to protect him."
He lowered his head, shaking it, his eyes shining with unshed tears as his body convulsed with the effort of containing a guilt that had been bottled up for too long.
"I should have stopped him." his voice fractured as he spoke, revealing a vision you weren't prepared for. "The trial, he… He should not have joined it. All because of a hedge knight who dared to hurt a prince of the blood. My father never met him until Ashford, but he rekindled his interest in some ways." He paused for a moment, breathing slowly. "Would I had been more persuasive that day, the Seven Kingdoms would still have its finest heir and I-" his voice broke entirely on the last word, and the tears he had held back all this time finally flowed, "I would still have my father."
A heavy silence fell upon you, the sea was the only answer needed in that moment. You hesitated, your mouth slightly parted as your mind raced through the many thoughts rushing through it. Yet, every word failed to reach your mouth and no sound came out.
You were rarely at a loss for words; your silver tongue had always helped you overcome different situations, even when your mother died. You remember watching your father become uncomfortable in a way you had never seen in such an overjoyed man. During your mother's funeral several years ago, as you watched the waves engulf her grave, you took your father's hand and squeezed it, and at the height of your grief, you gave him a warm smile, tears in your eyes.
'Mother would be displeased to see us cry over her burial like this. You know how she hated this kind of fuss.' you muttered, and he was so surprised by your witty response that he let out a little chuckle.
You knew how devastating grief could be, consuming your soul with an overwhelming array of emotions that you initially couldn't control. You could feel the same force slowly consuming Valarr, day by day, until nothing would be left but an empty shell. If you could, you would try to save him.
"He died doing the most chivalrous thing a prince could ever do to his realm." You said with a quiet voice, your hand naturally stretched towards his. Valarr's gaze followed your hand, his breath hitching at the soft contact against his flesh. Despite this, he didn't retract his hand.
"He stood up for a man who just act like a true knight should. He protected an innocent, stood alone against people who care less about a life that holds no lands or titles. He did what most noble men refused to do, and allow me to say that it's a rare thing."
You pronounced the last words proudly, smiling, hoping that your sincere admiration towards Baelor's figure would soothe him. But no smile appeared on Valarr's face, the young prince's eyes remained fixed on your hand touching his. A defeated sigh escaped his lips, and he swallowed the lump in his throat before lifting his gaze again.
"The darkest part of me wished that hedge knight had lost his head and foot for his offence towards my family." Valarr said, his tone bitter but not unkind. He was giving voice to a thought that had been torturing him ever since Ser Duncan apologised to him. He felt shame rise in his stomach and sensed an inquisitive gaze upon him — his father, he thought, watching him alongside the Seven. "It took me long enough to spare him my anger, he was just a knight who wished to prove himself and hope that some lord might take him in service. I’m ashamed to have felt so much hatred towards him."
"Why do you think such?" you tilted your head, softening your tone. "It was the grief talking to you, Valarr. Were I in your shoes, watching the man that raised me and admire more than any other figure in the realm's history fall tragically, I would feel a fury that would wipe the Seven Kingdoms off any map of this world."
Your words had cut deeper than intended, and you could feel Valarr stiffen under your touch. You were speechless for a moment, biting your lower lip and cursing your honest tongue and impulsive mind.
Then you saw him lower his head and hold back tears: the sight stirred something protective inside you, awakening an instinct stronger than your gentle nature. It was a feeling you couldn't name, but it urged you to move closer to him.
And so you did, stepping forward slowly, as if you were approaching a frightened animal. Your shoulder brushed against his, relieved that the prince didn't reject you. Then, you took his hand with your other one, engulfing it in your care and warmth; Valarr's fingers were tense at first, unmoving, as if he was unsure whether he deserved your compassion.
"I remembered how lost I was, when my own mother died." you confessed, your voice low, softened by memory. "I did not know where to place all that grief, if I may be honest. It felt too vast for me, like it would let the whole Seven Kingdoms fall into an endless, dark night. But time and love can heal even the deepest of wounds, and once I allowed the people close to me to share my grief, it became more bearable." A light chuckle interrupted you, and you briefly shook your head before continuing. "It still hurts sometimes, but more like a dull ache than a gnawing vice."
You leaned close to him, your eyes boring into his. "You do not have to pretend with me, as we are to be soon a husband and a wife. Allow me to carry this burned with you, Valarr. Do not let this darkness drive you away from me."
As silence fell again, Valarr noticed how natural it felt to be by your side and how relieving it was to be understood. Your presence was not as inquisitive as the members of the small council, nor you looked at him with the same pity as the King or the members of the servitude and small folk: you simply stood in own place, stepping into his life like a glimmer of light in a cold, dark room. Since childhood, Valarr remembered that timid gaze watching the world unfolding with tender curiosity: those same eyes were now resting on him, with that steady, loving look that made his heart squeeze suspiciously in his chest.
His fingers, once rigid and unmoving, curled under your palm and entangled yours in a timid, delicate hold. And when he lifted his gaze, red and puffy with his tears, he truly realized how ungodly pretty you were in the evening sunlight: your silver curls, wild and untamed by the wind, those pale blue eyes who shone like the crystal- clear Narrow Sea, those delightful cheeks that turned red every time he was around you and your smile, that sweet and merry smile, which still carried the same quite innocence it had since you were a child.
While on the ship, Valarr thought about how unhappy his marriage would have been, and how scared you would feel in his presence. He promised himself he would be the man that Baelor had raised with great care and discipline, and that he would honour and respect as any man with strong principles would. But the truth was far from what he had imagined: it was you who took care of him, and for the first time since grief took root in his heart, he didn't feel alone.
As his father had foretold, love was blossoming like a rare, beautiful flower.
The air turned crisp, the marine breeze enveloping you with a chill that wasn't annoying. At first, none of you dared to speak, Valarr's thumb brushing your knuckles with such care he was afraid you would disappear in front of him.
The young prince stretched a free hand towards you, marveling at how warm and soft you cheek was at your touch, as if he was brushing his palm against the finest silk. Then, as if pulled by an ancient force, he slowly leaned close to you, breaths mingling as you lips crashed into a deep, urgent kiss.
At first, you froze, feeling a chill run down your spine as your muscles tensed at the sudden intimacy. The kiss felt desperate, and you could taste in him the sweetness of the Arbor Red alongside his salty tears. However, it was intense enough to cloud your judgement and silence all your doubts.
You moved your hands up to the collar of his doublet and curled your fingers around the hem while pushing him closer, prolonging a kiss that was about to end. Valarr was surprised, and unexpectedly moaned against your mouth at the sudden closeness. He raised his trembling hands, which hesitated next to your waist before finding it, his grip was gentle at first, but it soon tightened without bruising you.
For a fleeting moment, the world around you faded slowly, along with the burden of the crown and the oaths made in form of political marriage and alliance between two old Houses. For now it was just both of you, two souls who find each other with grief and turned their pain in something noble, in a love that could burn brighter than wildfire.
The kiss turned into something soft, until it eventually broke as his forehead brushed yours gently, struggling to steady his breath for a moment. His eyes, still bright with unshed tears, were brighter than the day he arrived at Driftmark, as if a new spark crossed his bicoloured orbs.
"Valarr." You whispered, struggling to steady your own breath as well. "Forgive me, we should not-"
"I know." He shot back urgently, his voice full of vulnerability, and his grip on your waist tightened. "I just… I need you to be close to me. I will succumb to madness if I have to wait our wedding night."
You were ready to retort, but the honesty and fragility of his words weighted heavily on your chest. You realised that it wasn't just love talking to him; it was loneliness and the need to have someone real and close to fulfil his raw desire to protect and cherish the ones he loved most, without being afraid of losing them.
'Please,' Valarr pleaded, his hands squeezing yours and raised to the level of his mouth. He left lingering kisses on your soft skin, starting from your knuckles and lowering to your wrists. 'I need to feel this. I need to feel you."
His plead was enough to let your resolve finally falter.
And as you stood on tiptoe, you kissed him.
The moon was high in the sky when you woke up.
Your vision was blurred as you tried to adjust to the pale moonlight suspended in the starry sky above, the light chill breeze gave you little goosebumps. Once your eyes had adjusted, you became slowly aware of your surroundings: curved wooden planks shaped like a ship, rose up towards the sky in which you could still make out faint traces of paint on some of them. You raised your hand and noticed grains of salt slipping from your palm, sticking to your slightly wrinkled sleeve.
You steadied yourself on your elbows as you stood in a sitting position. You looked far from the composed lady you were on the morrow: your curls were loose and messy, damp and full of grains of salt, and your gown was wrinkled to the corset, one of the sleeves was so low that left one of your shoulders bare.
Placed on your lap there was a pitch-black coat, the only thing that could shield you from the cold evening. When a shining pin caught you attention — a silver circular pin with three dragon heads looking at the same direction — your mind finally rushed back to the moment that let you so exposed and vulnerable, fragments of memories surfacing in disjointing flashes.
You remembered how Valarr had kissed you the second time, starting slowly and lingeringly before exploding into a heated, passionate embrace. His arms held you close at the waist while you felt his lips curl softly, the tip of his tongue tentatively demanding to explore your mouth. Your fingers traced the nape of his neck, urging his body closer to yours as you complied, tongues brushing together in a timid dance.
You remembered how Valarr had gently lain down on the sand, his mismatched eyes shining at the sight of you beneath him. Your pale curls were scattered across the sand as he began to assault your collarbone, kissing and nibbling it as though he were starving, careful not to leave any trace of your lustful encounter. You were glad you were alone together, surrounded by nothing but the vastness of the High Tide ruins: you wouldn't have to explain your loud moans and whimpers or Valarr's exasperated groans every time you softly pulled his short hair, crushing your lips together in another heated kiss and gently nibbling his lower lip.
You remembered how his unexperienced hands mapped every curves of your body, and how his head disappeared under your underskirt — Valarr had told you softly how unappropriate would have been to him to left you undressed in the middle of the wildness — his lips brushing against your inner tight and linger deeply in your core, your back arching at the feeling of the pleasure warming your stomach, his tongue tentatively tasting you, until his confidence was enough to devour you and force you to come in his mouth.
You remembered how his own clothed body pressed urgently against yours, breaking the oath he had made to himself the moment his length slipped inside you with all his inexperience: despite having promised himself to you, you were still a maiden, and he had silently vowed to leave you as untouched as possible, which was soon broke the moment he felt the deliciously sweet taste of you on his tongue.
His trembling body struggled not to collapse on top of you, overwhelmed by your warmth sorrounding him. You felt a sharp burn stretching your velvet walls, an unpleasant feeling that turned into a bearable stretch as soon as your bodies moved in unison, the movements hurried and unpracticed until you followed a fluid motion, the sound of the waves reaching the shore mingling with your grunts and moans, desperately chasing your pleasure as you both whispered apologies to the Seven for what you were doing.
And when you both came quickly and intensely, Valarr held you close while he spilled inside you, kissing the crown of your head while his body still convulsed, whispering how the gods had been benevolent to send someone like you to him.
You turned your head around, searching for Valarr's figure in the dim light, heart tightened in your chest as you realised you were alone on the shore.
When you finally spotted a dark figure standing barefoot in the water, a quite sense of relief settled in your chest. You stood up and tried to look as much composed as possible — you tried to brush off your hair and gown — before making a few steps towards him with his coat safely resting on your shoulders.
Valarr had his pensive look towards the vastness of the dark horizon, his doublet slightly unbuttoned and exposing the hem of his white linen shirt. His hair were messily moved by the wind, the white streak more prominent and enlightened by the moonlight. His posture was loose, though his face was darkened by the many thoughts crossed on his mind.
A hand drifted to his chest, pressing lightly against his beating heart. Recognizing it as yours, he turned his head towards you, and the smile he gave was small, tired but full of warmth, as if he was finally happy and satisfied.
"How unchivalrous of you to leave a helpless lady to sleep beneath the wreckage of a ship, Your Grace." You teased him with a smirk, your chin resting on his shoulder. Valarr let out a chuckle — a real one, unlike the hollow, practiced ones he had worn at court.
"My apologize, my lady wife." He countered, feigning sorrow, "I thought it would be gallant of me to let you rest."
"It was your absence that woke me up." You said with raw honesty, watching the horizon stretching in front of you. The sea was calm when it reached the shores, wetting the hem of your gown.
"What troubles your mind?" you asked, and Valarr didn't give you an answer at first. He gazed at the horizon while his fingers shifted beneath yours, seeking warmth and reassurance.
"The realm." He simply admitted, sighing softly. "As a Hand, I expected to rejoice with the King and manage the burdens of the Seven Kingdoms. And then it comes the crown…" His voice faltered for a bit before continuing. "My father would have known perfectly how to handle the pressure of the realm."
His hand squeezed yours, a gesture you returned once you felt his nervousness building up.
"I am not perfect like him." Valarr confessed, lowering his voice slightly as to express his discomfort. "He was everything the realm required from an heir, and I still feel anything but."
His vulnerability tightened something in your chest, and for a moment you were at loss of words, the wind talking of your behalf as he blew gently between you.
"You are Valarr Targaryen." You finally said, your lips brushing against his cheek. "And the realm has never demanded you to be like Baelor. Your father will be remembered with fondness and nostalgia, but wha the Iron Throne needs is the light of the future, not the shadow of the past."
You tightened your fingers around him, giving him an encouraging smile as his gaze fell upon you. "I am about to become your wife, and your burdens will be mine as well. I will help you carry the weight of the crown once it will be too heavy for you to bear, to rejoice with you in your defeats and celebrate your victories. You don't need to be the perfect dragon the realm seek. Be the gentle, tiepid flame, and the people will give you the right gratitude and recognition with time."
Valarr didn't look away as he carefully absorbed your words, feeling so inspired that he finally thought he had found a new purpose. Since the events in Ashford Valarr had always relied on Baelor's ghost, striving to embody the ideal of the perfect heir that his father had cultivated through years of study and training. This standard was so unattainable that it had started to feel less like guidance and more like a burden.
But the realm didn't need a flawless sovereign; it needed someone who could allow themselves to falter and stand still, and be humble enough to recognize his flaws and be mature enough to admit the mistakes.
With a silent nod, Valarr looked at the darkening sea on the horizon. His heart was frightened to face the uncertain future stretching beneath him, but for the first time, the fear did not chain him. It steadied him, like the tide that retreats only to return stronger.
When the young prince's time would come, and Daeron the Good would draw his last breath, he would wear a crown his father had never lived to wear it, forged not in grief and in lost, but in the strength and will of a man who learned to endure the hardship of a throne cut like steel.
And when the time would come, his faithful queen would be steadily at his side.
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Pairing: Baelor "Breakspear" Targaryen x Reader
Setting: A Knight Of The Seven Kingdoms
Summary: In the privacy of your chambers, you hear Baelor sharing an intimate moment with you in High Valyrian.
Word Count: 3 K
Warnings: Mature contents, estabilished relationship, fluff, smut, p in v sex, breeding kink (sorta?), Baelor speaking High Valyrian, no beta'd . Please, tell me if I have missed something else!
A.N. It's my birthday today, so here's a little birthday fic I wrote to myself, still not accepting that Baelor is dead in canon.
I'm not very good with writing smut, so I hope you can all enjoy it and thank you for the ones who will read it. 💜
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ENGLISH IS NOT MY FIRST LANGUAGE. I APOLOGISE IN ADVANCE FOR MY GRAMMAR AND VOCABULARY MISTAKES.
BAELOR BREAKSPEAR MASTERLIST
The night took King's Landing without warning, swallowing the last amber light from the hills and settling over the Red Keep like a burial shroud. Its corridors, restless all day with servants and knights, were devoid of any human interaction, until the only sound were shadows.
The heavy wooden door of the small council room closed beneath Baelor's back, a deaf thud echoing in the empty stone corridors. With his books and parchments tucked safely under his arm, he sighed with relief as he walked back through his chambers, exchanging polite glances with the guards on duty.
He was tired, and his features were so weathered that he looked older than his years. Being an heir to the Iron Throne was a duty and a burden he had learned to bear like armour from the age of ten and four. Serving as Hand of the King had honed his skills further, hardening his mind and steeling his resolve in ways that childhood never could. State affairs were thorny by nature, tangled up in ambition, mistrust and the ever-present threat of ruin, and no matter how great a king was, he needed men of sound judgement standing beside him.
Baelor had seen with his own eyes how power could corrupt a man's mind, in the same way a wounded soldier become attached to the milk of the poppy — clouding his judgement, making him believe he was omnipotent. When greed threatened to stain the values of nobility and chivalry, someone had to take on the onerous task of being a moral compass to restore balance for the well-being of the realm. Baelor was that kind of man.
Yet, despite his mind failing to acknowledge it, the comfort of his private quarters was a well-earned balm for his weary soul, lifting his spirits and restoring the youth that his duties had hidden from him for so many years. There, he would be cared for properly, with slender hands gently rubbing his worn cheeks and the soft scents of gillyflower, lilac and lavender filling his nostrils and dancing pleasantly around him.
When Baelor opened the door to his chambers, he was greeted by the sweetest vision: his beloved wife, wrapped in a silky nightgown and blankets, with her curls loose and a book on her lap. He watched with awe and amusement as your face scrunched up in concentration — a side of you that was both adorable and endearing.
He tried to take his steps as lightly as possible, being careful not to break her concentration. But the echo of his footsteps was enough to make you look up, your eyes tender as they rested on him.
"Forgive me, my wife." Baelor began, leaving his heavy pile of books on the table behind. "I did not want to be a nuisance to your evening reading."
You blinked at him and lifted the corners of your mouth into a timid smile. "You are never a nuisance," you said, meaning it without reservation. You shifted in bed and gently tapped the covers. "Come, I have felt your absence since this morrow."
Without thinking, Baelor's body was pulled towards the bed. Once his boots had thudded to the ground, he climbed onto the bed. You felt the bed dip under his weight, and then his warmth and tiredness enveloped you. Your faces were so close that your breaths mingled and emerged together.
His lips met yours in a sweet, lingered kiss which carried all the guilt he felt in that moment — the reluctance to leave you alone, surrounded by nothing but servants and ladies-in-waiting, the knowledge that he was depriving you of his warmth and love for the sake of the realm.
When he pulled back, his eys fell to the book you had abandoned, its pages open and unhurried. The handwriting was neat, glyphs and accents were eerly familiar to him: he remembered when in childhood he used to read those pages along with his brothers, admiring Aerys' steel memory, inviting Rhaegel to read with him and gently admonishing Maekar's indulgence in learning. It made him raise an eyebrow in delight.
"High Valyrian." the Prince of Dragonstone hummed, his calloused fingers tracing the words of his pages with surgical precision. "Not many outside this family bother with the old tongue anymore."
Your eyes are saddened at his casual declaration, catching that hint of nostalgia in his tone. "It is still part of your family's tradition." You retorted in such an innocent and honest way Baelor felt warmth blooming in his chest. "I married you, it is my duty to honour every tradition that is yours."
Baelor snorted through his broken nose, genuinely touched by your devotion. "You don't need to learn an extinct language to honor me and my family." pulling you close and trailing his lips along your exposed collarbone. "High Valyrian belongs to royals and dragons, and unfortunately the latter has been absent from this world for far too long."
Your eyelids fluttered, breath uneven as you leaned your head back, allowing him to indulge in your skin for as long as he wanted. "Yet, the blood of the dragon still runs through your veins," you replied earnestly. "They may have gone forever, but your House still honoured them by the banners they proudly show in every corner of the castle."
You managed to free yourself from his grasp, shifting the book on your lap and lying down in bed, holding your head with one hand. You stretched out your other hand towards him, inviting Baelor to lie down next to you; your touch and the pull were both delicate.
"I would like you to speak in High Valyrian, my heart." you murmured, your gaze locked with his. "Maekar has told me how you were impressively fluent in your youth."
A light chuckle escaped Baelor's lips, clearly unimpressed by his brother's unpredictability. "Maekar always says things to flatter me, mind him less," he murmured. "I did spoke few words in High Valyrian, albeit only for academic purposes."
"But if you wish," Baelor continued, sighing as he felt the tiredness draining him, "I could teach you a few words. But you must forgive your dear husband. The council has been quite demanding."
Despite swallowing the protests down your throat — it wasn't rare for you to see Baelor so fatigued —, the stubborn part of you longed for his touch and his warmth. It had been too long since you last lay together, and his planned visit to Dorne would considerably increase the physical and emotional distance between you: soon, you would wake up alone in a cold bed, haunted by the ghost of his presence.
You let your stubborn side get the better of you and prevented Baelor from surrendering to slumber.
"Kostilus, Baelor," you murmured softly, closing the distance between you, "Vīlīts… nyke āo emba… ragon bisa bantis." (Please, Baelor. Let me take care of you tonight.)
Baelor listened silently as you spoke High Valyrian for the first time, a glint of pride crossing his dark eyes. Your words were marked by a rough, foreign accent typical of non-native speakers. Yet the courage you showed in learning his native language released something inside him that he had not realised was tied up. He had been fluent out of duty his entire life; until now, he had never been spoken to so softly in his mother tongue by someone who had chosen to learn it.
The candles were the only lights allowed in your chambers, softening the Hand's features. Baelor reached out to you, brushing a strand of hair from your forehead. "You impressed me," he said, expression stoned in wonder. "However, I must admit that there are some pronunciation errors. A princess who wants to learn such a noble language should not fail in these flaws."
A little smirk curved the corner of your lips, amused by his boldness masked by his composure. "Then it will be your burden to teach me, ñuha vala ābrazȳrys." (My lord husband.)
There was something in the lightness of your tone, in the way you batted your eyelashes in such a feigned innocence that made his eyes darken with desire. A crack had begun to splinter through his apparent earnestness under the warmth of your teasing.
A long silence passed between you, broken only by the soft guttering of the candles. Baelor's hand remained still against your hair, then trailed down your cheek and jaw until his thumb traced the soft, plump contour of your lower lip.
It had been so long since he had seen you like this: completely vulnerable by his side and eager to please with aching tenderness. Baelor had never forced himself on you, nor had you done the same. Your love was like a fairy tale, beginning against the odds and culminating in the birth of two well loved sons.
Baelor leaned towards you, eyes darkened with desire and shining with trepidation. His lips curled, the sounds coming from your throat made your body shiver. "Gevie."
"What word is this, my prince?" you whispered softly, eyes half closed.
"It means 'beautiful'." Baelor explained kindly, foreheads touching. "And I meant any word of it. Your beauty has never stopped flourishing, not since the first day you were brought to this court, not through a single season that has passed since."
He carefully intertwined his fingers with yours, bringing your palm near his lips and lingering there. "Nyke jēda dēvī māzīnon, se pōnta āo nyke dōratas."He whispered, and something inside you snapped. He pronounced every word with the confidence of a scholar, rolling the "r" deliciously on his tongue. He spoke words that had no meaning for you, but which seemed full of devotion and love. (I will always be thankful to the gods, for they gave you to me.)
Slowly, the control you both struggled to maintain snapped clean in two. You surged forward and he met you halfway, his hands finding your face with a certainty that undid you entirely. The book laid forgotten in your bed, mind too clouded from lust and desire as your lips met together in a heated kiss.
Your lips both moved in unison, fastly and with a rising urgency, as if you both tried to revive all the intimacy lost, when duties weren't suffocating and Valarr and Matarys were nothing but distant memories.
The kiss became sloppy, Baelor's teeth nibbling your lower lip and the tip of your tongue timidly teasing his, asking for indulgence inside his mouth. Baelor gently approved, and soon your tongues met in a languid, unhurried dance. You cradled the nape of his neck with one hand, pressing him close to you, while the other hand rested steadily on his chest, feeling his racing heartbeat beneath your palm. Baelor's hands steadied on your waist, his fingers dipping into your silk and flesh. His grip was bruising, but not enough to hurt you: you knew that tenderness was the defining characteristic of your intimate moments together, and Baelor was the epitome of chivalry, even in bed.
The kiss broke between ragged breaths, his forehead touching yours as he prepped the tip of your nose. "Ābra qelbar pōntys." He ordered in High Valyrian, fingers slowly unfastening the laces of your nightgown. (Remove your clothes.)
Soon, your nightgown pooled on your knees, exposing your holy flesh under the gentle candlelight and pale rays of moonlight. Baelor felt his mouth go dry and his eyes widen in admiration at your beautiful body, which was still stunning despite the flaws and stretch marks you had acquired during your two pregnancies.
"Gevie." The prince repeated, lips trailing down your body, kissing your cheeks, jaws, collarbone and every inch of your breast. One hand gently squeezed one breast while his mouth captured your hardened nipple, licking and sucking it without hurting you, his teeth nibbling it gently.
You struggled to keep your breath steady, throwing your head down and hitting the pillows as you squeezed your legs, feeling the heat blooming at the pit of your lower abdomen.
"Baelor," his name escaped your lips like a prayer as your slender fingers trailed over his short hair and tugged it gently. This made Baelor groan against your skin, but he didn't stop what he was doing. Once he felt his breeches were too tight, he stood up and took off all his clothes, leaving them on the ground along with your nightgown.
He still had an impressive body, each scars and bruises forging the royal knight he became. His broad chest was a map of all his victories, each scar a word in a language written in iron and endurance. You had seen men proud of such marks, quick to recount the battles behind them. Baelor wore them silently, the way he wore most things with the dignity that made him beloved by his family, nobles and small folk.
One of your fingers traced the scar on his hand, which he received while fighting in the Battle of the Redgrass Field. Although losses were heavy to bear, it was a decisive victory against the rebel branch of the Blackfyre. Baelor never spoke proudly of how he and Maekar had led their army; he kept the memory of the fallen allies inside him, a burden he still struggled to release completely.
"Gevie...?" you asked tentatively in High Valyrian, afraid that calling a war scar beautiful might offend him. Fortunately, Baelor smiled and nodded in devoted silence, leaning close again to capture your lips in a more tender, less heated kiss.
Your body tensed as you felt his thick head pressing against your velvety folds, a mixture of whimpers and moans escaping your lips without your consent. This made Baelor freeze on the spot, his hands cradling your face as he searched for any sign of discomfort.
"Was it too much?" he whispered, earning a shake of your head as a reply.
"It is just…" you said, lowering your gaze as your cheeks turned red for embarrassment, "it has been so long, Baelor. I am afraid my body is not as accustomed as it was before."
There was no accusation in Baelor's face, just pure love and understanding as he kissed your brow. "Then I will be gentler than I have been during our first nights."
He drew back to look at you fully, his thumbs brushing your cheeks with a patience that made your eyes sting unexpectedly. "There is no hurry," he said softly. "There never was."
And he kissed you again and waited, with all the stillness of a man who has learned that some things cannot be taken, but only received.
When he felt you relax under his touch, he began moving again, slowly entering you. At first, your eyes squeezed shut as your lower body burned, adjusting to a stretch it had not experienced since your last conception. But the pain soon faded, replaced by a pleasant warmth as you looked at him, silently begging him to move.
Baelor's hips moved in a slow, steady rhythm. The pleasure was so intense that it made you roll your eyes back: you forgot how much you had missed him. It wasn't just this; it was the warmth of him, the weight of him, and the devastating patience with which he loved you.
You dug your fingers into his hair, and he breathed out slowly and deeply against your skin. You pulled him closer, afraid that if you loosened your grip, even slightly, he might come to his senses and pull away. Instead, he let you wrap your legs around his waist, pressing his body close enough to reach places inside you that he had long forgotten.
A low, guttural groan left his lips, the sound so deep you thought a true dragon was fucking you. "Ñuha zȳhon riña", he switched back to High Valyrian, his face hidden in the crook of your neck as he slowly fastened his pace, leaving a trail of hisses or holding your hands, his way to take care of you during the lovemaking. "Ñuha brȳzȳna hāedar. Ñuha gaoma."(My beloved, my beautiful wife, my everything.)
"Baelor." you whispered, moaning and whimpering as you felt your body bouncing against his, the bed creaking beneath your weight. One of his hands trailed down to your abdomen, rough palm flat against your womb, the one he once accommodated Valarr and Matarys' lives.
"Skoros brȳzȳna kessa," the Prince said, voice filled with awe, "se bantis hen zaldrīzes sagon." (How beautiful would it be, to have another dragon in the family.)
Your mind was too busy processing your building climax to grasp the meaning behind your husband's words. Now, the only language your body understood was his: the press of his hand against your abdomen; the steady, devastating rhythm of him; and the low sound he made against your throat, which you felt more than heard.
His name left your lips one final time, broken and breathless, and then the world came apart at the seams. Baelor followed shortly after, his forehead dropping to yours as he emptied inside you with hot white ropes, impregnating your womb once again, with the same innocence as the first time.
Baelor collapsed next to you, bodies still tangled as his arms squeezed you in a delicate embrace, kissing your sweaty temple and rubbing the small of your back soothingly. You waited for your body to stop shaking and for your breathing to stabilize before looking him straight in the eyes.
"Those words… what did you say?"
Silence followed, Baelor's gaze lost in thoughts as a hum escaped his lips. He then looked at you, his gaze intense on you. "I said that it would be wonderful to welcome a new little dragon into our family."
His lips brushed against yours, a featherlight touch that made your skin tickle, giggling in reply. "Perhaps the gods will give us a girl. As brave and beautiful as her lady mother."
You hid a smile against his shoulder and felt him smile against your hair in reply, are entirely yours.
"Then the gods had better listen," you whispered. Baelor pressed his lips to your brow and held them there, a long and wordless promise. "They will," he said simply.
And in the warm, guttering dark of your chambers, with his arms around you and the night spread soft and endless outside your window, you felt safe and content in his embrace.
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Prompt: Bucky Barnes’s new 21st century hobby/obsession.
Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader
Setting: TFATWS
Summary: A simple role-play session made in your friend's house introduces Bucky to the twisted and magic world of Dungeons&Dragons. With time, patience, a lot of study and a vivid immagination, you watch how Bucky's casual encounter with D&D becomes a full-blown new passion.
Word Count: 1k
Warnings: None, just Bucky being a very picky Dungeon Master
A.N. First entry for the @writer-in-a-cryofreeze event. Bucky's nerd side makes me want to imagine him so into Dungeons&Dragons.
ENGLISH IS NOT MY FIRST LANGUAGE. I APOLOGISE IN ADVANCE FOR MY GRAMMAR AND VOCABULARY MISTAKES.
BUCKY BARNES MASTERLIST
It all started on a cold winter night.
You were still in the early days of your relationship when you and Bucky went to a friend’s house for his birthday. The evening unfolded easily: pop music, laughter, and the soft hum of conversation filling the living room. Bucky’s shoulders slowly eased, his usual gruffness melting into gentle murmurs and the occasional laugh. His arm stayed snug around your waist the whole night, never leaving your side like the vigilant boyfriend he was.
Later, you and your friends set up your weekly role-play session, and Bucky was suddenly thrust into an entirely new universe.
For a moment he just stared at the table, eyebrows climbing to his hairline, as you fiercely debated a badly-placed trap with one of your friends, or when another player was yelling about stolen food and starving villagers, as if the stakes were life or death. At the head of the table, the game master narrated the world with steady patience, pausing for each roll of the dice before weaving the story forward.
The more you played, the more Bucky was hooked by the whole story and the characters in it: every time you glanced at him, you could see a bright flicker crossing his steel-blue eyes, the same he had once you came back home and gifted him the umpteenth reprint of the Lord Of The Rings book.
"That game you played last night," he began the day after, casually eating a slice of bread and butter while talking to you on the phone, "it was really cool. Was hooked the whole time."
"I see we're curious, this morning," you retorted with a light chuckle, but Bucky didn't reply. He just stood there, waiting, as if you had to tell him a state secret.
You'd never seen him so captivated by a game before.
You patiently explained to him what Dungeons&Dragons is: how players built characters with backstories, how the dungeon master guided the world, how dice rolls decided their fates. You told him about campaigns and quests, critical hits and critical failures, and how an entire evening could disappear without anyone noticing the time.
"So…" he replied after a brief pause, "can anyone play? Or I need… like… A masterclass for this?"
"Of course you can play, silly!" you replied with a small smile, "Anyone can play. You just need a character sheet and a set of dice."
He went silent again. Then, more hesitant this time, “Would you teach me?”
That night he came into your apartment, Alpine snoring on the couch while you were sitting opposite one another, a prepared character sheet and one of your set of dice in front of him. Bucky paid close attention to your words, never missing a flaw in your narration, and despite a rough start you noticed how Bucky managed to successfully conclude a one-shot.
Little did you know you would create a monster.
Within a few weeks, Bucky's house became a temple of all the things D&D related: he would storm to the nearest bookstore and buy all manuals, whether they were old or new editions; he would watch hours of live stream campaigns and character-building videos, notebook in hand and scribbling ideas; he would collect any dice sets and miniature figures, which crowded his once empty shelves like little armies.
When he became more skilled with technology, he would spend the whole day on Inkarnate to create maps, though he would prefer the more old-fashioned 'graphite staining papers' method. With Steve's artistic help, he started world building his own fantasy campaign, creating a lore, powerful enemies and rival factions, wars that have changed the world and new ones about to start.
And when everything was set, he gathered you, Steve and Sam to start his first campaign as dungeon master.
"You can't go around and say you're a wizard if you made a sorcerer!" Bucky argued with Sam one day, during a break.
"Christ sake, not again," Sam sighed dramatically, pinching the bridge of his nose as he waited for his scolding.
"A wizard is a mage that studies magic and only casts through learning. You, a sorcerer, cast spells because it's your blood that allows you to do it. Pay attention to your words, next time."
"You're insane, Buck? They're basically the same thing-"
"They're not the same thing, Sam. They're just two different classes!" Bucky retorted, bumping his vibranium fist on the table, "If you'd paid attention to the manual you’d know sorcerers don’t need spell books and actually work better when-”
"When the master doesn't lecture the player during every wrong step," Sam cut in, throwing his hands up. “I swear this is worse than fighting 'The-Big-fucking-Three.'”
At the other side of the table, you and Steve watched the scene in religious silence. Steve did his best not to burst out laughing in front of them, while you just hid your face behind your hands. "Oh God, this is even worse than bananas," you muttered between a groan and a sigh.
"Take it easy, Buck," Steve murmured, squeezing his shoulder lightly, "Sam and I are new and still learning, but I swear you're a good narrator."
"When you don't scold us every five minutes," Sam murmured, crossing his arms and sinking into the chair, nodding in to Steve's words.
"They're right," you add, looking at Bucky with a proud look in your eyes, "You're even better than my friend, and he’s been mastering campaigns since we were in high school.”
Bucky blinked at you, the edge in his posture softening as his cheeks flushed a faint pink. He looked down at his notebooks, at the carefully drawn maps and the dog-eared manuals, and then back at the three of you crowded around the table. At first he said nothing, a sense of pride filled his chest in a pleasant warmth while smirking slightly.
Then, he cleared his throat and caught your attention again.
“All right. Travelers, roll for initiative.”
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Prompt: Writing a fic using said quote: “You know what I think?" she says. "That people's memories are maybe the fuel they burn to stay alive. Whether those memories have any actual importance or not, it doesn't matter as far as the maintenance of life is concerned. They're all just fuel.” - Haruki Murakami, After Dark
Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader
Setting: Post CATWS
Summary: After finally escaping Hydra's control and with Captain America's words still fresh in his mind, the Soldier tries to find a piece of his lost past among documented history. He can never imagine the most precious life lesson will come from a simple museum night guard.
Word Count: 1k
Warnings: Angst, hurt/comfort, hopeful ending.
A.N. Second and last entry for the @writer-in-a-cryofreeze event, the one who let me win my personal cryo chamber.
Honestly, don't know if I'm so proud of this, but I'll post it anyway.
ENGLISH IS NOT MY FIRST LANGUAGE. I APOLOGISE IN ADVANCE FOR MY GRAMMAR AND VOCABULARY MISTAKES.
BUCKY BARNES MASTERLIST
Working at night in museums wasn't an unpleasant experience after all.
It was just you and history, jealously guarded within a huge and elegant space, something that could easily take your breath away.
There were days you felt like Larry Daley in 'Night At The Museum', wandering the halls as if the past itself had chosen you as its only witness. Some nights, you would just stop and wonder if any of this would come back to life, like in those films.
Then, one day, when you least expected it, you witnessed a piece of Captain America's history become real.
You never imagined that it would put a gun to your back, the coldness of a metal hand covering your mouth and stopping you from screaming.
"Stay still," a voice ordered quietly, steady but not with cruelty or authority. You swallowed under his mouth and nodded slowly, feeling his hand leaving your mouth soon after, allowing you to breath.
"Take me to a place," he continued, his words slow and calculated, as if he was more like a walking machine than a human.
You cleared your throat, painfully aware of the gun’s weight at your spine even though he hadn’t pressed it any harder.
“Where?” you asked, your voice barely holding together.
You felt the absence of the gun behind your back, and he pointed with it to a distant spot in the room.
Without asking, you silently agreed, guiding him toward the spot he’d indicated. The walk felt long and endless, each step swallowed by the quiet — neither of you daring to speak, barely daring to breathe. You had no idea you were escorting the infamous Winter Soldier, carefully concealed beneath layers of clothing, his presence alone radiated torment and rigid control, a man held together by discipline rather than peace, haunted by a past he no longer remembered.
After long minutes, you stopped. A large, bright panel opened among you, one of them you barely saw due to the endless people walking cross to it. There was a large black and white picture of a young man, his dress perfectly polished and looking at the public with eyes full of life and hope for a better future.
Then, you read the black letters opening the panel:
James Buchanan Barnes. The only member of the Howling Commandos to give his life during the war.
You felt him freeze, his breath abruptingly stopping. It was only when you turned your head you saw something flickering in his eyes - a raw, painful recognition.
"You… seem to know this person, sir," you murmured, afraid to receive a harsh reaction from him. Instead, the Soldier looked at you, and for the first time he seemed tired.
"I do," he replied with hoarse voice. "It was me."
From that night onwards, it became the Winter Soldier's — or rather, Bucky Barnes' — custom to visit you, trying to piece together bits of a past that Hydra had meticulously buried deep in his brain. You made sure your surveillance shifts coincided with every night he showed up, offering him personal guidance on the part of the exhibition.
With a little notebook on his hands, he started to note every notion he apprehended from your words and the documented materials, holding himself to those newfound memories like a lifeline. And as a certain level of trust grew between you two, he used to tell you about what he could remember that wasn't written — like Peggy's meticolous work ethic, the crazy exhibitions Howard Stark used to set, or how Steve used to wear big shoes by putting some rolled newspapers inside.
Bittersweet memories that made Bucky's heart nostalgic of the man he was and guilt of the monster he became.
And once those words collided, a dulled pain crushed him.
"Every time I look at him," Bucky said one night, his gaze resting on his younger face, "I see a person I'm not anymore. I saw freedom, thriving, a man whose motivation would burn down the world. And now, seeing this," he murmured, looking down at his ungloved metal atm, "I see anything but what they shaped me into."
"Bucky…" you breathed, and he continued.
"How can you be so kind at me, and seeing far from the Hydra's brainwashed puppet? How can I be the same person of that guy who helped Captain America and stood by his side until the very hend?"
You felt his breath ragging, his eyes glimmering with sorrow, "How can I live with the memory of the people I killed haunting me?"
A long silence stretched among you, so real and yet so painful. Neither of you spoke, all the words you wanted to say died easily in your throat.
Then, you reached for his hand — the metal one, fingers clasping softly. Bucky froze, but didn't dare to retreat his hand; he felt strangely releaved to see you didn't flinch.
"You know," you said softly, "my mother used to say that no matter how we try to bury them, or brush them away. Memories will return when you least expect it. It's the kind of "fire" that keeps us alive, that makes us look back and realize how much we grow up and left behind."
"You may have lost James Barnes during the way, and others let the Winter Soldier to take his place," you raised the other hand, placing it steadly on his racing heart, "Try to create a new fuel. Let both of these words collide and be just Bucky."
Your words left Bucky stunned, the honesty of them causing a shift inside him.
His eyes dropped to where your hand rested over his heart, as if he needed proof it was still there, still beating for him.
He finally clasped your hand gently. "Just Bucky," he simply murmured, and a ghost of a smile appeared on his face.
In the darkness of that night, James Buchanan Barnes and the Winter Soldier were buried forever.
And Bucky Barnes was finally born.
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Requested by: anon
Pairing: Ser Duncan The Tall x Targaryen!Reader
Setting: A Knight Of The Seven Kingdoms
Summary: Finding out he is set to leave along with Egg, you convince Duncan to have a last reading lesson under the Godswood. But every time he grasps new information, your soft touches and affection makes his task impossible, until he finally gives up.
Word Count: 4,5 K
Warnings: Tooth rotting fluff, Duncan being the awkward giant towards ladies, Egg being the cute prince and squire he is, mild spoilers from 1x05 (just in one line), the words Duncan is reading comes from Martin's Fire and Blood book... let's pretend it has been written by maesters. Please, tell me if I have missed something else!
A.N. To the anon asking this, thank you so much for the lovely request! I had a lot of fun writing this and so sorry if it took so long to finish it. This can be considered the direct sequel of Reading Lessons.
Special thanks and kudos to my wife @sylasthegrim for helping me with the beta and giving me this cute idea from the start! 💜
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ENGLISH IS NOT MY FIRST LANGUAGE. I APOLOGISE IN ADVANCE FOR MY GRAMMAR AND VOCABULARY MISTAKES.
SER DUNCAN THE TALL MASTERLIST
The chamber was different from those Ser Duncan The Tall was used to.
Being an hedge knight, he was accustomed to the crisp air of spring evenings and of wet and muddy ground. It would never replace the warmth of fresh blankets and a comfortable mattress, but as Ser Arlan told him when he was just as high as half of an apple tree; 'you will get used to this life, lad.'
If lucky enough, he would have plenty of coppers to pay for the most dilapidated tavern he could find, contenting himself with a simple but short bed, mostly filled with straw.
But now? He was surrounded by nothing but elegance and royalty. The room was built of pale stones, smooth and cool, with a ceiling high enough that his head would likely avoid to hit doorframes as he did in a stable loft or an inn common room. There was no smell of horse or hay, no sharp tang of sweat and leather, nor the comforting reek of smoke, ale, and last night’s stew: just a rich scent of incense and wildflowers, delicate but intense at the same time, picturing him in a dimension of wealth he wasn't used to.
Sat near the fire, Dunk held a book in his hands, cover richly tooled with gold and stamped leather, the emboidment of the House Targaryen sygil standing out. It was a fine book, finer than anything he’d ever owned, and his heart burned with both pride and concern; he made an oath to himself, to guard it with obsessive care. It was something gifted from a lovely princess, and he would do everything on his power not to ruin it with his big, clumsy hands.
He flipped the page with great care, resuming the reading he did with you in the morrow. Behind him, Egg was blissfully jumping on the bed, swinging a wooden sword in the air. The silence was interrupted by the mattress creaking beneath Egg's jumps, the young boy singing the famous tale of the hammer and anvil.
"I swear by the Seven," Dunk warned, his voice lacking authority, "if the king sets to wailing over a smashed bed, it will take more than a clout in the ear to knock sense back into that thick skull of yours."
"Father has graver matters than a broken bed, ser," the bald boy retorted, quitting his bouncing immediately.
“Does he?” Dunk arched his brow. “And you know them all, do you?”
Egg’s mouth tightened, stubborn as any prince. “I know enough.”
“Seven save me from princely wisdom, of course you do," Dunk shook his head, resuming his reading with little difficulty. Words still sounded strange while pronounced out loud, the long Valyrian names still tangled his tongue when he tried them under his breath. Yet, each page came easier than the last; that, at least, was something.
After a moment, Egg climbed his large shoulders, curiosity winning out over his young mind. “Is that the book my sister gave you?”
Dunk turned a page, thick finger brushing the parchment. “Aye,” he said, "it is. Now lay down and close your eyes, the hour is quite late."
The boy blinked, a small smirk forming on his lips. "You’ve been staring at the same page this whole while, ser."
Dunk froze on the spot, the tip of his ears turning bright red, "I am not."
"You have. I have heard you reading them since supper."
"That is because," Duncan retorted, his mind failing to formulate a concrete answer, "err… I read slowly. The old man has never taught me how to read. Now lay down and sleep."
At first, Egg obeyed without protesting, his little body wrapped in the silky, lavish blankets. Then, as if sensing Duncan relaxing his shoulders and resuming his reading, he looked at him with a mishevolous look. "He has taught you how to stare, though."
Dunk shifted on the stool, which creaked beneath his weight. “What?"
“You do,” Egg pressed. “You stare at the page the same way you stare at my sister.”
"I do not stare! Nor am I allowed to stare at your sister this much."
Egg propped himself up on one elbow, staring deeply to the hedge knight. “And who might forbid this to you, ser?"
"What sort of question is this?" Dunk inquired, hoping the fire would hide his crimson cheeks, "She is a princess, I am just-" He let out a weary sigh, hands trembling while holding the book, "There are rules settled, and I will not face another trial of seven because my gaze has indulged too much on the king's daughter."
Before the young prince could protest, Duncan shot a careful glance, growling despite his tone harboured no true anger, "Sleep, now. We will leave late on the morrow, after brushing Thunder."
The boy obeyed, though not without a last, measuring look from beneath his lashes. He turned upon his side and drew the blanket close, small shoulders rising and falling in exaggerated patience.
Duncan waited, and after making sure that the boy had fallen asleep, a weary sigh escaped from his lips. He left his spot near the fire, book tucked safely under his arm, found his place on the large bed and pulled the blanket up to his chin, waiting for sleep to come.
And once his blue eyes finally closed, the ghost of your smile plagued his dreams.
At the crack of the dawn, King's Landing and its inhabitants welcomed another day by resuming their endless clamor.
Above all the narrow street loomed the Red Keep, its towers flushed pink by the rising sun. The gold cloaks changed the watch at the gates, and crossing the street knights and members of the Kingsguard stood on their way, scanning with their watchful eyes and swords ready to be unsheathed in the event of stopping threats to the royal House.
Your steps graciously echoed in the castle's corridors as you descended the great stairs, often casting glances to the servants and members of the small council who greeted you. Generally followed by your closest group of ladies-in-waiting, you chose to walk alone in the morrow, crossing the lively courtyard.
It was already astir: squires hurried with polished helms tucked beneath their arms; stablehands led restless horses toward water troughs. The white cloaks stood out stark against the bustle, bowing their heads as they acknowledged your presence.
You headed towards the stables, heart fluttering in anticipation as you hoped to find what you were looking for.
And, for your own luck, the gods were in your favour.
Duncan stood beside Thunder, sleeves rolled to the elbow, broad forearm flexing each time he stroke a deliberate brush on the horse's coat. A loose curl of short hair fell over his brow, tickling him gently, but the giant hedge knight was too focused to care, the well being of his horse more important than his own discomfort.
Dunk worked with the quiet focus of a man who treats beasts like sacred creatures — firm, patient, unhurried. Someone who has never harboured resentment or malice in his heart, a knight who has sworn to serve with his sword to protect and care for the innocent, the epitome of a pure, immaculate man.
It made you chest bleeding with desire towards him.
Noticing that he hadn't seen you yet, you pressed your shoulders against the stable wall, arms crossed over the chest as you cleared your voice.
"Good morrow, Ser Duncan," you greeted with a gentle voice, and it was enough for Dunk to freeze on the spot, shoulders stiff and eyes wide.
"M'lady… I mean, Your Grace," the hedge knight stammered, quickly bending the knee and lowering his head — he hoped you wouldn't see his red cheeks, "I humbly apologize, I did not see you come in."
"No harm was done, ser," you laughed, your voice as sweet as honey. "Rise. You do not need to address me with such formalities."
Dunk hesitated a heartbeat longer, as if addressing you without your titles by birth would be a kind of discourtesy. Then, slowly, he rose.
“As you command-” He faltered, swallowed, and tried again. “As you wish… my princess.”
Duncan felt his cheeks burning, the tips of his ears still red. His eyes, once gentle and focused on his horse, were hesitant and fixed on his feet, his Adam's apple wobbling continuously.
It wasn't the first time Dunk was around you, Maekar made sure to appoint him as a guardian for Egg and you. Yet, despite the countless hours spent in your company, he feels smaller than Egg, more exposed than any battlefield he had faced alone.
His heart felt suddenly tight in his chest, his mind plagued by the impure thoughts of his hands wrapping your flesh, the thought of his lips trailing your pale, silky skin…
"I did not mean to startle you," your voice brought him back to reality, his stunned gaze resting on your figure again. "You seemed lost in thoughts… Is my brother giving you trouble?"
"I- No! No, m'lady," Duncan stuttered, his hands brushing the mare's coat again. "Egg is a good squire and a good boy. I… I was merely tending my horse. My squire and I are ready to leave as soon as he finds enough suppers for both of us."
Your lips quivered in a frown, your eyes gleaming with hurt mixed to disappointment. You had expected a way longer permanence in the Red Keep, for you had required the most comfortable and opulent chambers just for him.
But he was just a hedge night, while you were a princess of the realm. You couldn't expect to chain him, to rob him of the freedom and adventure that defined himself.
Still, the ache in your chest refused to be quelled by reason alone.
"For how long will you be away?" you asked, the slight trembling of your voice made Dunk's heart crack a little.
"I am not certain, m'lady," he sighed, "we could be away for days, perhaps longer."
You hummed in response, eyes lowered slightly on your hands. You nervously play with your rings, a habit you took from your late uncle, Baelor. "I wish you could stay just longer to resume our reading lessons."
Duncan's eyes softened at your thin voice, cursing yourself for making you suffer because of his choices. He had longed to stay away from King's Landing so he could not fail in temptation, fighting that evil voice that urged him to close the distance between you and show all the love and devotion he could give.
"We shall have our lessons again," Duncan said, his voice calm and measured, "once Egg and I return from the road."
Your gaze lifted slightly, catching his earnest eyes, and your chest ached at the mixture of longing and self-denial in him. "Allow me to have a last one again before your departure," you approached with your courteous steps, your small hands engulfing his large ones, "as a way to store a pleasant memory before you are away."
Dunk's breath hitched; a part of him wanted to draw his distance and refuse your gentle offer. But the warmth your hands emanated once taking his, the soft plead in your voice and the way your eyes felt like two shining amethysts while close to him…
May the Seven forgive him for falling into the temptation.
"As you wish, princess," he breathed, giving in to your kind request. And seeing your face light up again, lips curved into a bright smile, was enough to delay his journey.
"Meet me under the Godswood tree," you murmured, freeing his hands while stepping back, "we shall read together once more, before you leave."
Dunk nodded, feeling his chest so tight he could hardly breath. "I… will be there, Your Grace," he simply retorted, earning a soft laugh from you.
"Then I shall wait for you," you mused, lingering in the doorway before leaving, the sun hitting your silver-gold hair. "Have a good day, Ser Duncan."
The hedge knight stood at the doorway, lips parted while your eyes followed every movement, every subtle gesture, memorizing the curve of your smile and the way your gown brushed against your ankles when you held your skirt up. He was so caught up by your presence he barely heard other footsteps approaching from his back.
"Suppers are ready," Egg said, his short arm stretching towards Thunder's reins. "I have polished your armour and helm, we can leave now-"
"Departure has been delayed to the next morrow," Dunk blinked, words coming out too fast. His young squire raised an eyebrow, bewildered by his odd behaviour.
"Ser? You told me we should-"
"Sorry, lad. I… must attend to a matter of courtesy first." he concluded solemnly, his body moving against his will as he left Egg alone in the stables. Thunder was now the boy's only company, which addressed him with a low, guttural neigh.
"I'm sorry, good boy," Egg sighed, scratching behind the stallion’s ear. "But this 'matter of courtesy' has denied you green grass fields, today."
The spot beneath the Godswood tree was ridiculously cramped for someone as tall as Duncan, but the hedge knight seemed not to pay too much attention, for his mind being occupied by the thought of your arrival.
The sun was already set, casting a light that danced among the red leaves. A soft breeze caressed Dunk's short hair, the air gently tickling the nape of his neck and allowing few blonde strands to fall in front of his blue eyes; yet, his mental state was too alienated to shiver from a banal cold or to adjust his hair.
He was almost curled on himself, head low and eyes shining in anticipation. He rubbed his sweaty palms continuously, the crackling of his skin so obsessive that it made his calloused palms redden. Opened next to him the book you generously gifted, the page moving gently at the passing of the wind. It showed a large illustration, borders decorated with red and gold, the picture of one of the Targaryen kings that sat on the Iron Throne, and two dragons dancing on the back.
The sound of heavy boots awakened him from his dreamlike state, and in the distance two guards dressed in white took their positions — he recognized them as Ser Roland Crakehall and Ser Donnel of Duskendale, the two knights of the Kingsguard he met at Ashford.
And as if you came from the holiest of the vision, you emerged from the shadows, the sun catching first on silver-pale hair, then on the faint gleam of your amethyst eyes. For a suspended instant, Duncan forgot how to breathe and stood still, afraid that a sudden movement would shatter you like stained glass or vanish like sand in the wind.
Eventually, he managed to find the strength to stand up and bow his head respectfully, only to raise it when he heard your melodious laugh.
"I thought we had already passed the topic of courtesy," you chided, a tone that held no accusation. "Rise."
Duncan obeyed, standing up and muttering words that couldn't reach your ears. The opened page of your books caught your attention, an imperceptible smirk crepting your lips. "I see you are enjoying the reading of Jaehaerys' reign."
His reply seemed to satisfy you, who took a seat beside him. You reached for the book, slender fingers dancing while flipping the pages. "Then I suppose you will find the chapters of the Dance fruitful as well."
Dunk raised an eyebrow, a hint of surprise crossing his face. He had heard bits of the Dance of the Dragons from the several puppeteers' shows he attended; whether those tales were exaggerations or not, he knew perfectly well that this was still an open wound for your House, and he would curse himself for inflicting such displeasure to you.
"Might I suggest another reading?" Duncan tentatively asked, studying you with his eyes. "I wish to cause you no annoyance-"
"No annoyance is made, I swear," you replied curtly, your sincerity so astonished to leave him speechless. "I get the Dance might be something a member of House Targaryen should never mention again, but what kind of princess would represent her House without knowing his strengths and flaws?"
Dunk's eyes followed every movement of your fingers, so swift and delicate while brushing against the illustration of the two dragons fighting in the sky. “I meant no disrespect,” he said quietly. “Only… I have heard how brothers burned brothers. How the sky itself was set aflame. It seems a cruel thing to revisit.”
"Dragons are gone now, Ser," you replied with a sad smile, "Any trace of cruelty that existed in my family disappeared forever with that war... apart from a few exceptions."
Silence stretched painfully as Duncan absorbed your words slowly, so full of wisdom for such a young princess. Then, without saying a word, he just took his seat beside you, gulping down every groan of discomfort he felt for such a tight seat.
Little did he know that nothing escaped your watchful eyes.
"Are you uncomfortable, ser?" you asked softly, and Duncan nodded almost quickly.
"I have sat and lain in worse places," the hedge knight replied with a timid smile, "nothing I cannot manage."
The carved spaces in the wood were narrow, a seat crafted more for elegance than comfort. You ordered your servants to make it as comfortable as possible, layers of soft blankets and pillows arranged around to make your reading sessions pleasant. Alas, this didn't seem to work for Duncan, whose shoulders were stiff along with his body, knuckles pale while exaggeratingly grabbing his knees.
"Nothing you cannot manage, you say," you carefully repeated his words, and he replied with a small nod.
It didn't satisfy you enough. Managing is not the same as resting.
Without a word, you shifted in your seat, creating as much space as would be required for a giant to feel comfortable. Your hand came to rest on one of his sleeves, without pulling or gripping him too tight. It was simply there, as a silent way to comfort him. Dunk could swear a true dragon was touching him, for how warm your flesh was against his.
"Come and lay down," you whispered, your touch easing his tense muscles for a bit. "You need not be stone in my presence. You've had enough rigidity in your life."
Duncan froze, unsure if placing his head on your lap could incur the wrath of the king. But his resolve collapsed the moment the guards were gone. Slowly, he shifted; his shoulders lowered first, then the rigid line of his spine softened, and in the end his head lowered down enough to place his weight on your laps.
His blue eyes — tentative, hesitant — searched for any trace of uneasiness in your face. Instead, he found nothing but calm, welcomed by a warm smile.
"Better?" You mused, earning a nod from him. You passed the book in his hands, pointing at the words he had to read out loud. "Here. See how long you can read without my help."
Dunk adjusted the page with careful fingers, calloused thumb brushing the gilded margin. He cleared his throat soundly while reading the first words. "The Dance of the Dragons is the flowery name be… best…"
"Bestowed," you guided him kindly, noticing his uncertainty.
"Right… Bes… Bestowed upon the savage inter… necine struggle for… for the Iron Throne of Westeros fought between two rival breeches- no, branches… of House Targaryen…"
You listened with soft hums, moving your lips only when you noticed him faltering in front of a world too complex to be elaborated.
Since you brought him your book and taught some basics, you were surprised to notice how he was quick to grasp information and eager to learn, along with the fact he grew accustomed to reading fast each day. A part of you blessed the presence of your young brother at his side, probably teaching him on your behalf, but deep in your heart you cherish every moment you got to witness his growth yourself.
While listening to him reading, one of your hands absently came to rest on his hair, fingers gently brushed his scalp. It made Dunk's breath hitch, words dying in his throat as he stopped reading.
"Princess…" he breathed with a hoarse voice, "did I… read something wrong?"
You simply shook your head, giving him a silent invitation to resume. The hedge knight obeyed, not ignoring the presence of your fingers on his scalp. "There were two principal claim… claimants to the Iron Throne upon… the death of King Viserys I Targaryen: his daughter Rha… Rae…"
"Rhaenyra," you said, pronouncing the Valyrian name slowly.
"Rhae… Nyra. Rhaenyra. The only surviving child of his first marriage… and Aegon, his elder..st. Eldest son by his second wife…"
While listening to him reading, your fingers traced absent-minded paths through his sun-roughened hair, smoothing where the wind had tangled it. The motion was slow, unhurried — a gesture that made Dunk stop his readings for a bit, either closing his eyes or exhaling a breath he forgot he was holding for too long.
"M'lady," Duncan called, voice rough as his body relaxed at your fingers tracing the contour of his jaw, "I'm afraid I would easily fall asleep on your lap if you keep touching me in such a way."
"No problem will be caused," you reply with a bold attitude, moving strands of hair from his forehead, "I will find the way to wake you."
Duncan snorted at your words, the first real laugh he had since he was in your company, "may the gods help you, princess. I am afraid it will be hard to wake up a giant like me."
The morning passed in a haze, and as the afternoon lights welcomed the Red Keep's gardens, you and Dunk stood still, the echo of his voice filling such an empty space. He tried to focus on the reading, to grasp every word he was learning, but concentration failed every time your thumbs left a gentle brush on his skin, enough to let him feel his skin like fire and soothe his nerves.
Eventually, he fell into a light slumber halfway through reading, the last word trailing into a soft murmur. The first time you woke up with your lips brushing on his brow, a gentle press that made his senses awake, muttering how wrong it was for a princess to kiss a low born knight. But you paid no attention to his paranoia, every trail of kisses becoming a reward for every Valyrian name pronounced correctly or every word read without faltering.
But when he became too accustomed to the softness of your lips, he allowed sleep to take him. And for a moment you just stood still. You studied his gentle features softening even more, chest rising and falling in a steady rhythm, mouth softened at the corners.
It was a pleasant side that made your cheeks flush and your heart filled with tenderness. Dunk the lunk, thick as a castle wall, slow as an aurochs, and gentle as a lamb nestled in your arms.
Your eyes trailer on his lips, thin but slightly parted, and a warmth blossomed in your chest. Despite the rational part of you screaming for not falling into this forbidden desire, the instinctive part made your head leaning close to his, hair gently falling on the tip of his nose and breath mingling together.
A wave of uncertainty hit you at first, your lips hovering just above a whisper of a kiss, then a gentle brush followed, until a soft press sealed a kiss so tender to make the coldest of hearts bleed.
Duncan groaned softly against your mouth, slumber still clouding his mind as his eyes fluttered open. Once he realized how close and intimate you two were to each other, a wave of shame warmed his stomach, abruptly casting you aside.
"Y-Your Grace!" Dunk stammered, his eyes wide, his skin coloured in red. "M'lady, I… Please, forgive me. I allowed myself to lower my guards I-"
"Duncan," you firmly called, cupping his cheeks and brushing them softly, "I told you I would find a way to wake you up."
You leaned your head again, foreheads touching and chests brushing timidly, "and that was my reward, for being such a devoted scholar and learning better than all the lords that keep courting me."
Something in your words made Duncan feel confident around you: was it because of your endless praises, on the way you elevate a simple boy from Flea Bottom above members of noble Houses, or in the way you were just around him, sweet and fearless, treating him with a devoted respect and kindness he had never experienced in his life.
It was enough for him to lean himself again, capturing your lips again in a soft, urgent kiss, which exploded in a symphony of two souls who found themselves in the noble art of reading, divided by their difference in rank but united by such a deep passion that would burn brighter than the wildfire. His rough hands rested on your waist, squeezing it but being incredibly gentle despite the callousness of his palm.
You melted into him, letting the world fall away until there was nothing but the warmth of his body, the taste of him, the steady beat of his heart beneath your hand. When you both pulled away it was like Duncan woke up from a spell, and with short breath he looked at you with the same eyes of a man yearning for something he could never have.
"I… I am afraid the hour is quite late, Your Grace," he said, finding his lost formality, "I should prepare my squire for the rest and then we can resume our journey."
You stood still at first, lips full and cheeks flushed, body still trembling for the wave of pleasure crashing you both. When you hear the news of his departure, you quickly stand on your feets, hands fumbling to reach for your book. "Duncan, wait!"
The hedge knight stopped in his tracks, watching you tearing out one of the illustrated pages, then stretching it to him. "Keep it. So you will never forgive me once you're gone."
Dunk looked at the paper with curiosity, carefully lifting in his hands. "It will be hard to forgive you, m'lady." he replied with a warm smile, bowing his head in respect, "I will make sure the journey will be as short as possible, so I may turn to you unscratched."
"You better have, ser," you retorted, raising on your tips before brushing your lips on his cheeks and retiring in your chambers.
Duncan didn't move at first, his eyes watching you leave and making sure you would come inside in safety. Then, his hands quickly opened the torn paper, inspecting the page you gifted. It was a royal portrait of Prince Baelor Targaryen and his sister-wife, princess Alyssa, looking at each other with longing and eternal devotion.
A slow, awed smile spread across Dunk’s face as he whispered to himself, “Then I shall carry this with me… and think of you every step of the way, my love.”
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Pairing: Baelor "Breakspear" Targaryen x Reader
Setting: A Knight Of The Seven Kingdoms
Summary: Fear and devastation torments your soul as you witness your husband, Baelor, sustaining a life-threatening damage that keeps him on the verge of the life of death. You stands vigil at his side, and once he recovers, you show him that he can be strong in his weakness by leaning on you.
Word Count: 3,4 K
Warnings: Mature contents, spoilers from AKOTSK 1x05, angst, hurt/comfort, non graphic description of violence, mention of a serious injury, mention of blood, fluff in the end, happy ending, Baelor lives in this AU because Martin fuck you for killing him, no beta'd . Please, tell me if I have missed something else!
A.N. It's Wednesday, I'm still not over Baelor's death (despite having read the books and trying to mentally prepare myself for that moment), so I had to write something for my beloved Breakspear. It's written in a rush, so sorry for the errors or strange things I've written, I had to put my sadness over a document and keep my status as widowed wife.
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ENGLISH IS NOT MY FIRST LANGUAGE. I APOLOGISE IN ADVANCE FOR MY GRAMMAR AND VOCABULARY MISTAKES.
BAELOR BREAKSPEAR MASTERLIST
The world became nothing but muffled around you.
Your ears failed to hear the occasional cheers of the lords, their gasp of terror once one of the challengers fell under the dead weight of their horses, or when swords clashed between them or tore a piece of unprotected flesh. You weren't even able to grasp Egg's shouts, the boy's deep blue eyes following the almost lifeless body of Ser Duncan The Tall.
Your eyes were focused elsewhere. On your husband, Baelor Breakspear.
Allowing a member of the royal blood, let alone the heir to the Iron Throne and Hand of the King, join a form of brutal Andalry combat was indeed a gamble, for you seeing this as a way to lower yourself to Aerion's cowardly and arrogance.
The night prior to the fight you wept for Baelor, almost dropping to your knees when he made the intimate announcement to join Duncan's side, urging to reconsider his decision. Yet, he looked at you with a mix of longing and compassion, holding your hands and kissing them as if it was the last thing the gods would allow him to do.
"This honourable man protected an innocent," he claimed, voice low and soft, "What kind of prince of the realm would I be, if I stood idle while goodness was made to kneel before egotism?"
And so you let him go, the following morrow silently adjusting his armour — the one belonged to his son, Valarr, who complained about the tightness over his father's figure — kissing him goodbye and whispering a prayer for the Mother to cast a protective light on him.
You thought that it worked, that the Baelor that was fighting was indeed kissed by the gods.
Then Maekar's mace hit him, brutal but unintentional, so loud it echoed through the whole arena.
And breath failed to reach your lungs.
Maesters were fussing around after the trial, dragging the bodies of the dead and offering a standing to the living wounded. When the dreadful news reached your delicate ears, your own body almost collapsed, the strong arms of Ser Raymun Fossoway and Goodman Pate supporting you before you fell to the ground.
The helmet was severely damaged to the gorget, wound and metal melded together in a way that made their faces go carefully, deliberately blank. And when they finally managed to remove it, they watched how the prince fell on the ground, Duncan's arms steadying him before his fall could damage him further.
Your own skin went pale, mind racing to the worst case scenario. Perhaps you prayed too thin and low, the gods couldn't quite reach your tears or were just parading their cruelty, allowing the rotten apples to stand on the ground while taking away the good ones.
It was when maesters guided you at his bedside that you finally pictured what it was considered by them a miracle itself.
Baelor's face was pale, too pale for your own liking, stripped of all his warmth and gentle authority, cleansed of all the blood that coloured his skin. He was still, too still, as if he was about to be claimed at any moment.
But it was then you heard the faintest of the whimpers, his chest rising and falling slowly beneath his son's armour.
He breathes, you told yourself. He still breathes.
Your mind came back to the conversation you both had the previous night, his words to you were now calculated as a prophecy.
What kind of prince of the realm would I be, if I stood idle while goodness was made to kneel before egotism?
A kind of prince who would perish for the good, you slowly realized.
And you hated him, just briefly, for being so good.
The journey to King's Landing was long and winding, time dilated into something unreal, the ghost of a pain wrapping you like a deadly vice.
The members of House Targaryen were not the same after the Trial of the Seven, each of them dealing with the waiting in their own way: you wept when you held Valarr in your arms, eyes hurt and face drained of all his confidence, blaming himself for allowing his father to use his armour.
Egg and Daeron were genuinely worried about you, often checking beneath your cloth of righteousness, in search of any kind of crack that would let them see through the high walls you built to shield you from the pain.
Maekar was the hardest to deal with, for him looking at you with guilt and sorrow. Would Baelor be dead, Maekar's hands would carry that weight to his grave — and the knowledge of it sat between you like a wound neither of you dared to touch. You wanted to tell him it was not his fault; words were true, they simply would not leave your throat.
Instead you offered him the only thing you could manage: the absence of accusation. It was a meagre gift. By the hollowness in his eyes, he knew it too.
You felt the shadow of Duncan, following you like a lost puppy, bending his knees and muttering apologies between tears for so long you stopped counting them. A part of you would hate him, for you considering him responsible for your husband's downfall. But your heart failed to harvest such cruelty and give them to him, so you learn to forgive.
But it was the confrontation with king Daeron that was even worse than every form of punishment since the First Men. You saw how his face contorted in pain, watching from the sunset to the dusk the body of his firstborn and heir grasping for life, his veiny hands holding his son's so tight he was afraid the gods would take him.
Your presence, silent and haunted, was in the small council when a confrontation between Daeron and Maekar came, the first one bringing on the plate the jealousy the latter harbored in his heart for his brother. You vaguely remembered how you pleaded the king mercy for his son, successfully having made him see reason and preventing him from removing Maekar from his court.
With the realm dealing with the indefinite absence of his Hand and heir, you stood vigil at his side as you stood at nothing else in your life, stripped of the careful composure you had maintained through the journey and the whispers and the well-meaning prayers that felt like small, blunt knives. Rarely you were seen leaving his chambers, only to allow maesters to do their work or being summoned by the king in the small council, in place of your spouse when the realm needed a firm Hand to solve the urgent matters.
You learn to become the pillar of the family, to draw strength from your agony and wear it like armor, especially for Valarr and Matarys: those two sweet boys already lost the love of a mother, they did not deserve to be mocked by the gods by missing the comfort of a father.
But when the dusk drew his final goodbye, in the dim light of your shared chambers, you crumbled and waited.
Your hands worked carefully as you carefully wrapped Baelor's head with clean cloth. His breathing was slow. Too slow, the maesters said, wonder still painted in their faces; it was nearly impossible to survive with such a blow.
You took his hand — broad and warm, still, always so terribly warm — and held it between both of yours the way he had held yours the night before the trial. In some moments, you just stood silent. In others, you prayed for the Mother to cast her protection on him again.
"I resent you." You said one day, cheek resting on your forearm while the other hand rested on his cheek, his stubble tickling your palm. "You promised to take me to the land where your lady mother was born, so that I could explore and understand her Dornish culture. Yet, you chose to parade your chivalry soul in front of the realm and be the champion of a man you barely met. You left me quite mad."
Your tone was low and soothing, no hint of accusation laced within it. Only love, and the quiet, aching pride you carried for the man who had stood for the good and the innocent, who would make House Targaryen worthy of the loyalty it carried decades ago.
You were accustomed to his silences. But tonight the grief was louder than your discipline, rising through the careful walls you had built around yourself until it found the cracks and spilled through without permission.
You adjusted on your chair, your hands engulfing him. They were broad, calloused, of a man who saw many battlefields than royal decrees, and the contrast of them against your own soft palms undid something in you that you had been holding tightly shut for days.
You brought them to your lips, kissing his knuckles once, twice, and again, your tears falling freely now, salt-warm against his skin.
"I need you to live, Baelor." You breathed against his palm, sniffing softly, "you may not have its features but you are the blood of the dragon. From fire you are born and to fire you will return. To me. To your father and brothers. To your children."
You stood silent for a while, pain squeezing your throat in an uncomfortable vice until you found the courage to continue, "The realm needs a good man, someone who embodies the values of true chivalry, someone just and humble enough to keep the reins of the Seven Kingdoms."
Another short silence followed, then you continued. "This house will be doomed without your wisdom, your death will be a wound difficult to heal."
Your vision got blurred as you leaned close, foreheads touching and tears staining his cheeks. "Come back to me, my heart. Do not leave the Mother's hand and claim you."
His silence was too empty, too still; it made your heart shatter into pieces and believing your voice would live far enough to reach for him, that it was too late even to try to restore his life back.
You pressed your lips to his brow, lingering there as long as you could, a sigh breaking your walls and lowering your guard.
Yet, you were so engulfed in your sadness that you failed to notice his chest rising and fall, stronger than the time you found him on the verge of death in Ashford.
A weak, trembling hand reached for you, engulfing your cheek and wiping the tears that were staining your eyes. Lifting up your gaze you saw Baelor, face pale and eyes dull and unfocused, but with that faint light of recognition that made your heart squeeze in your chest.
"Baelor." you called him between tears and laughs, so low as if you were dealing with a newborn babe.
The heir to the Iron Throne looked at you, lips parted but no sound came at first. Until a faint rattle left his mouth. "My brother…" he breathed. Of course Maekar would be the first thing his mind would process, for him loving his brother so dearly. "He… Strong…"
You nodded your head, holding his hand as you kissed his palm with utterly devotion. "He is. As strong as his brother."
He smiled, or he made something that resembled a small smile, and as if exhaustion hit him again he closed his eyes.
And for the first time after days of holding your breath, you watched over your wounded husband with hope for a bright future.
Saying that maesters cried miracles would be an understatement. Their carefully composed faces fracture into something caught between the relief and misbelief as they watch Baelor Breakspear slowly coming back to life, his body regaining the strength that it had before the trial. Many of them whispered of the impossibility of surviving after such a serious blow, and the small council was privately arranging the funeral of the heir.
His family rushed to his bedside as soon as they were informed of his condition. Valarr and Matarys were the first to come, accompanied by their grandsire , the king, wrapping their arms around him and breathing words of thanks to the Seven with tears in their eyes. Daeron praised the recovery of his son, generously ransoming the maesters for having saved the future of the realm. Maekar was the last one to pay a visit, his heart still haunted by the trial and gaze still guilty, unable to look at his brother. But Baelor was quick to forgive him — he never resented his brother for taking Aerion's side — and his soft smile and a measuring squeeze of his hand was enough to ease the torment in Maekar's heart.
Behind the renewed joy, your shadow stood silent and vigilant. His sons had thanked you for your prayers, his father and brothers were impressed by the devotion you showed on Baelor. But you didn't claim public praise, nor a reward for what you did. You simply acted like a devoted wife, and their happiness was the best gift the gods could ever give to you.
The maesters had warned that his recovery would be long and complex. The first days for Baelor were a true nightmare: his eyes were still dull and unfocused, struggling to keep his focus longer than a few seconds. Words failed to form in his brain and come out from his lips, talking in a clumsy, slurred way.
Pain was constant, dull headaches that come and never go totally, forcing him to stand still in his bed. You were used to the rich scent of the milk of poppy, which you gave him in small doses and when the pain was too intense to bear.
It took Baelor more than a year to fully recover.
The wound behind his head turned into a scar, pale and uneven beneath the hair that had grown back to cover it. He was strong enough to talk again, to see things without squinting his eyes or asking for someone to describe things. The headaches became a part of him, annoying but manageable.
However, there were damages that stood permanently.
The hand that used to raise his sword was weak, shaking at every slight movement. Writing had been a challenge for him, a limitation that is an obstacle for his role as Hand of the King, as he regularly held petitions in his hands, along with exchanging letters he sent to the other Houses.
His legs weren't as strong as they had been in the past, the long hours of standing that his duties demanded leaving him completely drained. You had caught him more than once bracing himself against the stone walls of the corridors, head slightly bowed, waiting for the weakness to pass before continuing on as though nothing had happened. He never acknowledged these moments, nor did he ever ask you for help: he felt responsible for your own suffering, promising to himself he would never bother you with such discomforts.
You, on the other hand, watched every movement, and waited for any request of help.
They never came, until one day.
You heard the sound of something heavy hitting the floor, a loud thud that made your blood freeze in your veins. Reaching quickly for your chambers, your eyes widen to the scene unfolding before you: Baelor was on one knee to the floor, one hand braced flat against the cool stine floor, the other hand — the trembling one — gripping the chair in a tight vice, knuckles turning white. His gaze was low, but you caught the faint muscle of his jaw twitching, the veil of shame that covered his calm and composed face.
It hurt you to see him like this.
instinctively you reached for him, words ready to come out from your mouth when he lifted his gaze.
"I am fine," he simply replied, too plain, too steady, even when nothing else in his current health was. He groaned when he managed to stand up, the palms of his hands pressed on the cold surface of the wooden table, reaching for stability.
"Forgive me, my beloved," Baelor replied, casting a sympathetic glance, "I feel so ashamed of the spectacle you have witnessed before. You must think ill of your husband, now."
You blinked at his light chuckle, your lips twitching in disbelief. "I never thought such a thing,"you replied flatly, crossing the distance between you and reaching for him. Your hand stood on his elbow, your touch featherlight. "Let me help you, Baelor."
He casted a look on your hand, feeling the utterly devotion in your touch, the same one you showed during his convalescence. It was enough for him to feel shame building at the pit of his stomach, guilt gnawing at his soul.
"You have done nothing but help me," he said quietly, "since long before I deserved it."
"You have always deserved it." The words came without hesitation, without performance. Simply the truth, stated as plainly as you knew how.
"You survived something a common man would never, Baelor. Your father was already mourning you, Maekar was consumed with guilt and your sons were learning to stand tall in the shadow of their late father," you stated, words so honest to hit him. "I would never blame you for being hurt, nor would your family or the realm. You gave a chance to a poor man whose sin was to protect an innocent person from an ill member of the family. The small folk have sworn their loyalty to you and cheered at your return."
Baelor absorbed your words carefully. He did not argue, he could never argue with words spoken with great wisdom. He was so focused on coming back in court, to show that strong part of himself that the trial of the seven damaged permanently, casting a shadow over his weaknesses and neglecting your requests of help.
"Let me help you, Baelor," you pleaded, something in your voice cracking. "My heart bleeds every time you cast me aside. Do not let your pride poorly judge my actions. You have always been my hammer and my strength. Let me be it for you, for once."
You saw his calmness faltering for a bit, a twitch of sadness and regret crossing his dark eyes. The composed, measured man that the realm knew — that even his own children knew — quietly came undone before you, in the privacy of a room that had witnessed more of his vulnerability than any battlefield ever had.
Silence stretched between you for a few seconds. Then he sighed, straightening himself further, his trembling hand reaching for yours, rough thumb rubbing your soft knuckles.
"The small council will resume its peace terms with the Stormlands late on the morrow," he said, shoulders relaxed. "Help me reach the room, if you're so kind."
You didn't have to be asked twice. Your arm was already wrapped around his waist, your movements careful as you helped him straighten in place, stopping at every winch or discomfort he felt. Once he was ready enough to walk, you both left the chamber, crossing the vast and populated corridors of the Red Keep.
Different eyes were set on the body of the cracked Hand, but none of them dared to breathe. Servants bowed quietly, mumbling softs "Your Grace" at his passing. Members of the Kingsguard did the same, some of them relieved to see the heir alive and well. Lords just greeted with a welcoming smile, bowing at their passage.
"I did not wish you to carry the weight of this broken man," Baelor faintly protests, but you are quick to shout it.
"I want to. I married you, I swore to the Seven to serve and be devoted to my lord husband. Never you were a weight, you are anything but."
A shadow of a smile crossed Baelor's lips, proud of the woman he married and fiercely loved from the start of their courtship. He would never tell her out loud, but he blessed the Seven for sending him something like you.
"You should forgive this proud, stubborn man, then." he murmured, and soon your lips were on his cheek.
"There is nothing to forgive," you said. "The gods have given you back to me, this is worth anything else."
And you meant every word.
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Prompt: Writing a fic using said quote: “You know what I think?" she says. "That people's memories are maybe the fuel they burn to stay alive. Whether those memories have any actual importance or not, it doesn't matter as far as the maintenance of life is concerned. They're all just fuel.” - Haruki Murakami, After Dark
Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader
Setting: Post CATWS
Summary: After finally escaping Hydra's control and with Captain America's words still fresh in his mind, the Soldier tries to find a piece of his lost past among documented history. He can never imagine the most precious life lesson will come from a simple museum night guard.
Word Count: 1k
Warnings: Angst, hurt/comfort, hopeful ending.
A.N. Second and last entry for the @writer-in-a-cryofreeze event, the one who let me win my personal cryo chamber.
Honestly, don't know if I'm so proud of this, but I'll post it anyway.
ENGLISH IS NOT MY FIRST LANGUAGE. I APOLOGISE IN ADVANCE FOR MY GRAMMAR AND VOCABULARY MISTAKES.
BUCKY BARNES MASTERLIST
Working at night in museums wasn't an unpleasant experience after all.
It was just you and history, jealously guarded within a huge and elegant space, something that could easily take your breath away.
There were days you felt like Larry Daley in 'Night At The Museum', wandering the halls as if the past itself had chosen you as its only witness. Some nights, you would just stop and wonder if any of this would come back to life, like in those films.
Then, one day, when you least expected it, you witnessed a piece of Captain America's history become real.
You never imagined that it would put a gun to your back, the coldness of a metal hand covering your mouth and stopping you from screaming.
"Stay still," a voice ordered quietly, steady but not with cruelty or authority. You swallowed under his mouth and nodded slowly, feeling his hand leaving your mouth soon after, allowing you to breath.
"Take me to a place," he continued, his words slow and calculated, as if he was more like a walking machine than a human.
You cleared your throat, painfully aware of the gun’s weight at your spine even though he hadn’t pressed it any harder.
“Where?” you asked, your voice barely holding together.
You felt the absence of the gun behind your back, and he pointed with it to a distant spot in the room.
Without asking, you silently agreed, guiding him toward the spot he’d indicated. The walk felt long and endless, each step swallowed by the quiet — neither of you daring to speak, barely daring to breathe. You had no idea you were escorting the infamous Winter Soldier, carefully concealed beneath layers of clothing, his presence alone radiated torment and rigid control, a man held together by discipline rather than peace, haunted by a past he no longer remembered.
After long minutes, you stopped. A large, bright panel opened among you, one of them you barely saw due to the endless people walking cross to it. There was a large black and white picture of a young man, his dress perfectly polished and looking at the public with eyes full of life and hope for a better future.
Then, you read the black letters opening the panel:
James Buchanan Barnes. The only member of the Howling Commandos to give his life during the war.
You felt him freeze, his breath abruptingly stopping. It was only when you turned your head you saw something flickering in his eyes - a raw, painful recognition.
"You… seem to know this person, sir," you murmured, afraid to receive a harsh reaction from him. Instead, the Soldier looked at you, and for the first time he seemed tired.
"I do," he replied with hoarse voice. "It was me."
From that night onwards, it became the Winter Soldier's — or rather, Bucky Barnes' — custom to visit you, trying to piece together bits of a past that Hydra had meticulously buried deep in his brain. You made sure your surveillance shifts coincided with every night he showed up, offering him personal guidance on the part of the exhibition.
With a little notebook on his hands, he started to note every notion he apprehended from your words and the documented materials, holding himself to those newfound memories like a lifeline. And as a certain level of trust grew between you two, he used to tell you about what he could remember that wasn't written — like Peggy's meticolous work ethic, the crazy exhibitions Howard Stark used to set, or how Steve used to wear big shoes by putting some rolled newspapers inside.
Bittersweet memories that made Bucky's heart nostalgic of the man he was and guilt of the monster he became.
And once those words collided, a dulled pain crushed him.
"Every time I look at him," Bucky said one night, his gaze resting on his younger face, "I see a person I'm not anymore. I saw freedom, thriving, a man whose motivation would burn down the world. And now, seeing this," he murmured, looking down at his ungloved metal atm, "I see anything but what they shaped me into."
"Bucky…" you breathed, and he continued.
"How can you be so kind at me, and seeing far from the Hydra's brainwashed puppet? How can I be the same person of that guy who helped Captain America and stood by his side until the very hend?"
You felt his breath ragging, his eyes glimmering with sorrow, "How can I live with the memory of the people I killed haunting me?"
A long silence stretched among you, so real and yet so painful. Neither of you spoke, all the words you wanted to say died easily in your throat.
Then, you reached for his hand — the metal one, fingers clasping softly. Bucky froze, but didn't dare to retreat his hand; he felt strangely releaved to see you didn't flinch.
"You know," you said softly, "my mother used to say that no matter how we try to bury them, or brush them away. Memories will return when you least expect it. It's the kind of "fire" that keeps us alive, that makes us look back and realize how much we grow up and left behind."
"You may have lost James Barnes during the way, and others let the Winter Soldier to take his place," you raised the other hand, placing it steadly on his racing heart, "Try to create a new fuel. Let both of these words collide and be just Bucky."
Your words left Bucky stunned, the honesty of them causing a shift inside him.
His eyes dropped to where your hand rested over his heart, as if he needed proof it was still there, still beating for him.
He finally clasped your hand gently. "Just Bucky," he simply murmured, and a ghost of a smile appeared on his face.
In the darkness of that night, James Buchanan Barnes and the Winter Soldier were buried forever.
And Bucky Barnes was finally born.
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Prompt: Bucky Barnes’s new 21st century hobby/obsession.
Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader
Setting: TFATWS
Summary: A simple role-play session made in your friend's house introduces Bucky to the twisted and magic world of Dungeons&Dragons. With time, patience, a lot of study and a vivid immagination, you watch how Bucky's casual encounter with D&D becomes a full-blown new passion.
Word Count: 1k
Warnings: None, just Bucky being a very picky Dungeon Master
A.N. First entry for the @writer-in-a-cryofreeze event. Bucky's nerd side makes me want to imagine him so into Dungeons&Dragons.
ENGLISH IS NOT MY FIRST LANGUAGE. I APOLOGISE IN ADVANCE FOR MY GRAMMAR AND VOCABULARY MISTAKES.
BUCKY BARNES MASTERLIST
It all started on a cold winter night.
You were still in the early days of your relationship when you and Bucky went to a friend’s house for his birthday. The evening unfolded easily: pop music, laughter, and the soft hum of conversation filling the living room. Bucky’s shoulders slowly eased, his usual gruffness melting into gentle murmurs and the occasional laugh. His arm stayed snug around your waist the whole night, never leaving your side like the vigilant boyfriend he was.
Later, you and your friends set up your weekly role-play session, and Bucky was suddenly thrust into an entirely new universe.
For a moment he just stared at the table, eyebrows climbing to his hairline, as you fiercely debated a badly-placed trap with one of your friends, or when another player was yelling about stolen food and starving villagers, as if the stakes were life or death. At the head of the table, the game master narrated the world with steady patience, pausing for each roll of the dice before weaving the story forward.
The more you played, the more Bucky was hooked by the whole story and the characters in it: every time you glanced at him, you could see a bright flicker crossing his steel-blue eyes, the same he had once you came back home and gifted him the umpteenth reprint of the Lord Of The Rings book.
"That game you played last night," he began the day after, casually eating a slice of bread and butter while talking to you on the phone, "it was really cool. Was hooked the whole time."
"I see we're curious, this morning," you retorted with a light chuckle, but Bucky didn't reply. He just stood there, waiting, as if you had to tell him a state secret.
You'd never seen him so captivated by a game before.
You patiently explained to him what Dungeons&Dragons is: how players built characters with backstories, how the dungeon master guided the world, how dice rolls decided their fates. You told him about campaigns and quests, critical hits and critical failures, and how an entire evening could disappear without anyone noticing the time.
"So…" he replied after a brief pause, "can anyone play? Or I need… like… A masterclass for this?"
"Of course you can play, silly!" you replied with a small smile, "Anyone can play. You just need a character sheet and a set of dice."
He went silent again. Then, more hesitant this time, “Would you teach me?”
That night he came into your apartment, Alpine snoring on the couch while you were sitting opposite one another, a prepared character sheet and one of your set of dice in front of him. Bucky paid close attention to your words, never missing a flaw in your narration, and despite a rough start you noticed how Bucky managed to successfully conclude a one-shot.
Little did you know you would create a monster.
Within a few weeks, Bucky's house became a temple of all the things D&D related: he would storm to the nearest bookstore and buy all manuals, whether they were old or new editions; he would watch hours of live stream campaigns and character-building videos, notebook in hand and scribbling ideas; he would collect any dice sets and miniature figures, which crowded his once empty shelves like little armies.
When he became more skilled with technology, he would spend the whole day on Inkarnate to create maps, though he would prefer the more old-fashioned 'graphite staining papers' method. With Steve's artistic help, he started world building his own fantasy campaign, creating a lore, powerful enemies and rival factions, wars that have changed the world and new ones about to start.
And when everything was set, he gathered you, Steve and Sam to start his first campaign as dungeon master.
"You can't go around and say you're a wizard if you made a sorcerer!" Bucky argued with Sam one day, during a break.
"Christ sake, not again," Sam sighed dramatically, pinching the bridge of his nose as he waited for his scolding.
"A wizard is a mage that studies magic and only casts through learning. You, a sorcerer, cast spells because it's your blood that allows you to do it. Pay attention to your words, next time."
"You're insane, Buck? They're basically the same thing-"
"They're not the same thing, Sam. They're just two different classes!" Bucky retorted, bumping his vibranium fist on the table, "If you'd paid attention to the manual you’d know sorcerers don’t need spell books and actually work better when-”
"When the master doesn't lecture the player during every wrong step," Sam cut in, throwing his hands up. “I swear this is worse than fighting 'The-Big-fucking-Three.'”
At the other side of the table, you and Steve watched the scene in religious silence. Steve did his best not to burst out laughing in front of them, while you just hid your face behind your hands. "Oh God, this is even worse than bananas," you muttered between a groan and a sigh.
"Take it easy, Buck," Steve murmured, squeezing his shoulder lightly, "Sam and I are new and still learning, but I swear you're a good narrator."
"When you don't scold us every five minutes," Sam murmured, crossing his arms and sinking into the chair, nodding in to Steve's words.
"They're right," you add, looking at Bucky with a proud look in your eyes, "You're even better than my friend, and he’s been mastering campaigns since we were in high school.”
Bucky blinked at you, the edge in his posture softening as his cheeks flushed a faint pink. He looked down at his notebooks, at the carefully drawn maps and the dog-eared manuals, and then back at the three of you crowded around the table. At first he said nothing, a sense of pride filled his chest in a pleasant warmth while smirking slightly.
Then, he cleared his throat and caught your attention again.
“All right. Travelers, roll for initiative.”
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Prompt: Day 20 - I represent to you all the sins you never had the courage to commit.
Pairing: Ser Duncan The Tall x Targaryen!Reader
Setting: A Knight Of The Seven Kingdoms
Summary: Despite your stark difference in status, you and Ser Duncan The Tall fell into a forbidden love deepened through tender moments and unspoken devotion. And as a sinner, Duncan would risk everything for you.
Word Count: 300
Warnings: Mature contents, secret relatioship, tooth rotting fluff, typical knight/princess love story, reader has Targaryen features, implied intimacy, suggestive contents, no beta'd. Please, tell me if I have missed something else!
A.N. Day 20 snippet from the event "January Jumble Scribbles", organized by @societynsoelsscribbles.
So happy to write for my favourite hedge knight, he literally stole my heart since AKOTSK premiered yesterday. Hope you can appreciate this!
ENGLISH IS NOT MY FIRST LANGUAGE. I APOLOGISE IN ADVANCE FOR MY GRAMMAR AND VOCABULARY MISTAKES.
JANUARY JUMBLE SCRIBBLES MASTERLIST
Ser Duncan the Tall was a knight like no other.
Broad and tall, standing among the others with his humility and unwavering honour, with an aura of genuine nobility that surrounded him, unlike the arrogant knights you had met.
You sensed it in the way Duncan approached you after winning the tourney, head low in a bow and a polite smile plastered on his face as he crowned you the Queen of Love and Beauty under the watchful eyes of your father, King Maekar I.
From that moment, that simple encounter turned into a continuous relationship once Duncan became your sworn knight.
It all started softly, with achingly tender gestures like casual hand kisses after your courteous regards, followed by lingering gazes respectful yet undeniably earnest. Long horseback rides filled your days, setting a new kind of intimacy made by tender whispers and unspoken love language.
And as in all chivalric tales, you both fell in love.
You knew it was all wrong; you were a princess of a great House, he was a hedge knight raised in Flea Bottom. Yet love bloomed anyway—quiet, stubborn, and devastatingly sincere.
"Tell me to stop, m'lady, and I will," Duncan pleaded one day against your skin, bodies bare and tangled in your chambers. He knew that Maekar would likely demand his head if he found his affair with his daughter, but the warmth engulfing both of you was quick to cloud his judgement.
"Stay," you murmured, cupping his cheeks and leaning close to him, "Love me not as a princess bound by blood and crown, but as a woman who conquered your heart."
Your plea was enough to let his spirit break.
He felt like Icarus, wings melting not from arrogance, but from devotion.
Falling willingly into the ruin of loving you.
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Prompt: Day 19 - Women are meant to be loved, not to be understood
Pairing: FTAWTS!Bucky Barnes x Reader
Setting: TFATWS
Summary: Bucky learns how hard being a woman in the 21st century is.
Word Count: 300
Warnings: Mature contents, angst, implied misoginy, implied sexual harassment, a bit of fluff in the end, hopeful ending, no beta'd. Please, tell me if I have missed something else!
A.N. Breaking my writing hiatus with day 19 snippet from the event "January Jumble Scribbles", organized by @societynsoelsscribbles.
This snippet was extremely hard to write because of treating such a complex topic like this, but the line and Paris Paloma's song literally made me write this. Some things written here are inspired by events of the past that happened to me, so I give all my hug and strenght to all the women (and men, because there are some violence against them, even though very hidden) to overcome the hard times.
Light sidenote: Additionally, in these days I'm going to post one/two old days of the scribbles so I can recuperate the whole challenge.
ENGLISH IS NOT MY FIRST LANGUAGE. I APOLOGISE IN ADVANCE FOR MY GRAMMAR AND VOCABULARY MISTAKES.
BUCKY BARNES MASTERLIST || JANUARY JUMBLE SCRIBBLES MASTERLIST
Bucky noted with his own eyes how hard being a woman in the 21st century could be.
It was in the way you called him during the night. You would insist you just wanted some company on your way home; yet, the slight tremble in your voice was too hard to ignore.
It was in the way men sickeningly drooled over you in the streets as if you were just a mere peace of meat, either you were alone or just walking with Bucky hand in hand, his enhanced ears eavesdropping their disgusting comments.
And when one day you confessed you got twisted attentions and touches from a man while you were in the overcrowded underground? It took all his self control not to rush out into the street and chase after him.
It was in the way men always underestimate you, calling you "difficult" or "disinterested" when you refused their attention, or when they judged your clothes, or when you tried to raise your voice but they shut them down, as if your opinion didn't matter and you were just good as a obedient wife and baby machine.
It disgusted Bucky to the core.
In the 40's women didn't have the same rights of today: he was happy to see that there was reached a certain legal equality, but the cold truth is that men didn't respect them in the way they should.
He vowed to become your silent shadow — to listen whenever you spoke, to be a refuge whenever fear brushed your heart, to love you the way a woman should be loved: wholly, with tenderness, and with pride.
Because no woman should feel in danger with the man they love.
And he would fight harder to give you the safe and equal world you deserve.
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Prompt: Day 10 - “I never disrobe before a gunfight.”
Pairing: Billy Russo x Reader
Setting: The Punisher
Summary: Billy Russo has always lived in a world made of violence and betrayment, until he met you. And while sometimes you feel you couldn't understand your boyfriend, he cherished your pureness in his own way.
Word Count: 385 (SORRY-)
Warnings: Mature contents, mention of blood, mention of injuries, implied sexual content, dead dove?, innocent reader, no beta'd. Please, tell me if I have missed something else!
A.N. Day 10 snippet from the event "January Jumble Scribbles", organized by @societynsoelsscribbles.
It was supposed to be a Nick Fowler snippet, but it turned out to be a Billy Russo one, my other beloved psycho. I'm not so proud of this, plus I haven't watched The Punisher for years, so forgive me if I didn't give to Billy the right justice!
ENGLISH IS NOT MY FIRST LANGUAGE. I APOLOGISE IN ADVANCE FOR MY GRAMMAR AND VOCABULARY MISTAKES.
JANUARY JUMBLE SCRIBBLES MASTERLIST
Loving a man like Billy Russo was like playing at the Russian roulette.
On some nights, he was caring, passionate, not pushing too much your boundaries; on the other nights, instead, he was quiet and mysterious, his brown eyes never boring into yours as his touch became colder and distant.
He was a man that carried more riddles than certainties, that one day he would give you the moon and the other day he would be so absorbed in his thoughts his walls would raise up, unable to let you in.
You learned not to ask too much, not to inquire: it would be simply worthless. However, a crack in his well-built wall appeared when you least expected it.
You were safely tugged in your bed when you heard one of your windows break. You barely had time to rise before a shadow slipped through the opening: Billy stood there among the broken glass, breath uneven, eyes dark with a vulnerability you couldn't describe. His face was beaten up with purple bruises and trails of blood, his confident smirk replaced with a tired gruff.
You ran towards him as you saw him hissing. "Billy! Oh my God, what happened to you?"
Billy didn't let you finish; instead, he crushed his lips straight into yours, melting into a kiss that made you feel dizzy. The taste of blood lingered between you, metallic and wrong, and it snapped you back to the reality of him standing there, broken and bleeding.
"Stop, Billy," you faintly protested, his lips hovering yours, "you're hurt-"
"Oh, darling. I never disrobe before a gunfight," he murmured with a sinister chuckle, his words so puzzling yet so eager to confess something.
You opened your mouth to retort, but Billy's lips hovered over yours, pushing you in your bed. His hand squeezed your hips, his touch growing urgent as his forehead rested on yours. "It's okay. I got you," he murmured against your ear, his warm voice let you shiver as he devoured you, your mind so clouded by pleasure you were unable to think.
And once again, you failed to ask about his wounds and his puzzled words. Because Billy would never pull you into a world made of violence, coercion and power.
For you being the purest thing he could ever touch.
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Prompt: Day 30 - Do you believe in life after love?
Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader
Setting: Between Infinity War and Endgame
Summary: Devastated by the events of the Snap, you go through five stages of grief, trying to survive in a world without Bucky.
Word Count: 378
Warnings: Estabilished relationship, huge angst, hurt/comfort, mention of depression, anger issues, hopeful ending, no beta'd. Please, tell me if I have missed something else!
A.N. Day 30 snippet from the event "January Jumble Scribbles", organized by @societynsoelsscribbles.
A sad snippet as we're approaching the end of the month, as well as of this cute event.
ENGLISH IS NOT MY FIRST LANGUAGE. I APOLOGISE IN ADVANCE FOR MY GRAMMAR AND VOCABULARY MISTAKES.
BUCKY BARNES MASTERLIST || JANUARY JUMBLE SCRIBBLES MASTERLIST
There are supposed to be five stages of grief.
No one tells you they don’t arrive in order, or that some of them never leave, or that you can wake up one morning and realize you’ve been stuck in the same one for years.
You learned it the moment you saw Bucky turning into dust.
At first, you could only pace around the Avengers compound, tracking every electronic device you found under your eyes, your deluded mind desperate to receive a signal, even just a faint one, from Bucky.
"Please, take some time to rest," Natasha told you one day, heart as heavy as the guilt she carried alone, "There's nothing we can do, Bucky's gone-"
"He's not!" you shouted, looking at her with fury in your eyes, "he's outside there, I know he is. He will come back to me."
Nat stood silent, without interfering with your temporary madness. 'It will pass', she thought.
Then, anger came. It exploded in the moment you saw Tony and Steve blaming at each other. Their voices echoed down the hall, sharp and cruel, accusing each other of things they were indeed guilty, but neither of them had the courage to admit.
"Enough!" you screamed, raw and feral. "He's gone because of this, because of selfish people telling at each other and not listening."
No one dared to challenge you.
Bargain was quieter. Only you looking at every files of half of the people wiped away, supporting Bruce in every search, praying that one day you would open your eyes and find Bucky in front of you again, looking at you with that cocky smile he recovered during his time in Wakanda.
Depression seeped in, consuming your soul slowly. You stopped eating, training, even walking among the remnant of the people. You spent all your days in bed, crying and embracing his red henley, inhaling his scent and wetting your pillow with hot tears.
Then, five years later, you learned to live with a void in your chest, body and mind adjusting in a new reality. You survived each day, carried yourself forward, learned how to breathe around the absence.
Until you received an unexpected call by Steve, and suddenly hope bloomed in your heart again.
'We can bring Buck back.'
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Prompt: Day 29 - “You’re going to do exactly what I tell you… slowly.”
Pairing: Scott Huffman x Reader
Setting: The Last Full Measure
Summary: While recovering after the birth of your second child, Scott brings Luke to introduce his newborn sister.
Word Count: 308
Warnings: Tooth rotting fluff, no beta'd. Please, tell me if I have missed something else!
A.N. Day 29 snippet from the event "January Jumble Scribbles", organized by @societynsoelsscribbles.
Finally something written for my man Scott!
ENGLISH IS NOT MY FIRST LANGUAGE. I APOLOGISE IN ADVANCE FOR MY GRAMMAR AND VOCABULARY MISTAKES.
JANUARY JUMBLE SCRIBBLES MASTERLIST
Late afternoon light spilled across the hospital room as the door clicked open. Your newborn daughter rested warm and sure in your arms, safely tucked against you, nursing—small, perfect, utterly unaware of the world beyond your heartbeat.
Turning your gaze towards the door, you saw Scott stepping in the room, holding an excited Luke in his arms. The child's eyes lingered on his new baby sister in your arms, blinking and watching her breasfeeding with open, reverent curiosity.
"Here we go, buddy," Scott murmured softly, putting his son down and crouching at his level, "You're doing exactly what I tell you. Here's you mommy with you new baby sister, you can go and say hi. But slowly, your sister is still very delicate."
Luke nodded, his excitement instantly reined in by the seriousness in Scott’s voice. “Slow,” the child repeated quietly, then he looked at you.
"Hey, Luke," you murmured, one hand stretching towards you, "come here, look at your sister."
The boy instantly approached you, climbing the bed with care. Scott stood beside him, holding him from his hips and steadying him.
"She is so little, mommy," Luke stated, looking at you first, then at his father, as if he was seeking confirmation in what he said.
You replied with a light chuckled, moved by his innocence, "Yes, and this is exactly how you were when your father and I held you for the first time."
Luke carefully leaned closer, one of his hands brushing the back of her sister's hands. She stirred, fingers tightening into a little fist before settling again.
“She moved,” he announced with wide eyes, and Scott laughed. "See? She knows you're here."
You watched with teary eyes your husband and firstborn son looking at the new arrival with love, feeling blessed of everything you and Scott build together over these years.
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