Mind Salad

I don’t know what to call it, but I have recently experienced it.  There is indeed an inner energy that is present within all of us.  Call it a soul or whatever you want.  I’m not big on definite labels. I unknowingly put myself in a situation where I would open a portal to my inner being.  I feel that all of my pain, anguish, worries, sadness, frustration, loneliness, uncertainty, and anger were unwillingly released into a broader realm of energy into the universe.  At that point in time I did not perceive the experience as something worthy at all.  All I could feel was all of those sentiments rolled into one.  In fact, I felt quite ashamed I was allowing myself to release these feelings.  I was temporarily insane and I could not control my mind.  I knew I was not in my normal state of mind but I could not pull myself out of it.  It was one of the most terrifying experiences of my life.  I relinquished control.  I know that that release of intense energy from the deepest and darkest place from within me was heard.  It made a disruption, a blip if you will, in the fabric of universal energy flow around me.  I unknowingly sent an S.O.S signal out to the universe.  To release of this dark energy, I realize that I had to open that portal and thus allow the reverse flux of energy back into me.  I simultaneously allowed positive energy to fill me.  I feel like the past couple years have been filled with misfortune and recent heartache.  I was holding an accumulation of negative energy inside me.  Since that night, my life has been changing in ways I couldn’t even start to describe.  Some good things and some odd things have presented themselves to me recently.  I’m not sure how events will unfold but I feel optimistic and excited for the future.  I am allowing myself to become open and to invite new and positive opportunities to enter my life.  I feel that 2012 will be the year I gain much insight, knowledge, and success.  This will be the year where things head in a positive direction and all of the years of hard work I have put in will start to pay off.  I open myself up to the vastness of the universe and its infinite wisdom.  I may not understand why things are happening the way that they are, but I feel it.  And I thats what matters.  Namaste.

As hard as it may be, meditation is key to calm a disruption in inner energy.  Namaste.

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