WHO ARE WE TO JUDGE EACH OTHER

WHO ARE WE TO JUDGE EACH OTHER turned 3 today!

Who am I? That’s what a stranger would ask me if I walk up to them. Who am I? If someone who knew me was asked that they would have a response. Some may say she’s a sweet heart loves to help others and loves to sing and write. She’s shy but she’ll talk every now and then. Others may say she’s a weirdo she’s a nobody she’s ugly. She’s just a lonely depressing chick. She’s just some fat chick. She’s weak and gullible. She doesn’t talk she might be a psycho. Who am I? I’m a lost person. Idk who I am? My past has destroyed me. It has destroyed my image. I’m slowly rebuilding myself. Eventually I’ll be able to answer to answer that question. Who am I? Right now all I can tell you is that I’m Jozett and I’m trying to find myself and love myself

I know I’ve been MIA for a long time. I had given up because I felt like no one really paid me or my stories attention and I didn’t think I was helping anyone out. Going through the things I went through you often wonder do people even care and if they really wanna hear your story. I had given up. I thought I was wasting my time but, I realized that writing is a way for me to vent and get away and go into my own world and we’ll be myself. I might have a mask on but you’ll continue to get to know me as I continue to write.

Just want to know “Can you hear me”

BUCK TOOTH, BUGS BUNNY, FAT ASS, POOR these are some of the words I use to hear on a daily bases. I mean what could I say? Most of those words described me. I was buck tooth and looked like bugs bunny and I was fat. I always thought why should I get mad at people for being honest. The truth hurt and I wonder did I need to hear the truth come from others? Some people would say all those things are fixable and why didn’t I fix all those problems so people could stop talking about me? I got braces to fix my teeth and then i was called brace face. If I would lost weight I know I still would’ve been an outcast and I would’ve still gotten bullied. No matter what anyone does to try to avoid getting bullied people will still find some kind of flaw. Flaws makes us different but it’s up to us to realize that we’re still beautiful despite our flaws. Those words will always stay with me. They say turn a negative into a positive. As I got older I had to learn to remind positive. I still get discourage but I have to realize that I’m a strong black woman. I got through all those obstacles. I went all the way through I didn’t take the easy way out. I’m still a work in progress and I want everyone to understand that it’ll be okay. It’ll get better. Remember to talk to someone and don’t be afraid to face your obstacles. Learn to love yourself and be positive. Stand up for those who don’t have a voice. Some times all you have to say is STOP. I want everyone to learn to say that word. We can stop the bullying we can stop the violence. We can stop children from taking their own lives. Let’s be great together and STOP ALL THE NEGATIVITY

I know I’m late with posting another blog. I’ve been dealing and fighting with myself. You know bullying can leave a bad taste in your mouth and also do some other damage to you. Although I’ve shared my story of me being bullied I still have flashbacks. Some of the things that were said to me still haunts me and to this day I still sometimes wonder is what they said true. This might sound so crazy but if I hadn’t gotten bullied I wouldn’t know how strong I am and see that I will always get up when I’m down. I tell my story to help those who were like me. I want to help those who hides in the corners, the ones who doesn’t have a voice to speak up for themselves. I want to help the outcasts. I know what it’s like to be silent and not having anyone else in your corner. I was on the train one day and saw these kids. Reminded me of the ones in high school loud and wants to be seen. One of the kids was talking about how they were going to beat someone ass. I ignored them until we got to a train station and the police grab one of the kids and put them in handcuffs. I’m appalled at this moment. Why is the child in handcuffs? After all this police killing I got worried for the child. Then I heard another lady yelling at the kids and I’m wondering why? Come to find out the kids were going to jump a young girl who was on the train and apparently they also spit on this girl. THIS IS A PERFECT EXAMPLE OF BULLYING. I saw that girl and saw myself. She was alone and quiet. She didn’t even want the tell the police on them. The kids were going to jump her when she got off the train but the older lady told her to stay on the train. Thank God there are good people like that in world. All this chaos that’s going on in the world and these kids wanna jump and spit on another child. I wish I could’ve gotten her name. That broke my heart to actually know and see that bullying is still going on. Make sure where ever you are if you see a child just make sure they are ok and not in harms way. LETS STOP THE BULLYING

I was hestitant to write anything. My mind is so overwhelmed with thoughts and questions. 2020 has definitely shown it’s ass and we’re just in the month of June. I still have faith that we will survive this and we will get through this. The world is dangerous. We have to keep looking behind our backs. Yes it’s dangerous for the black men and the women, but it’s also dangerous for everyone else even our children. PEACE AND UNITY. EQUALITY. JUSTICE. LOVE. I think....no I know that’s what everyone wants. Especially black men and women. As I look at the tv I wonder is there ever good news or has the world just become that negative. I try not to look at cops differently. Not all cops are bad. You have have cops who knows the rules and are fair to everyone. When I see these Cops who been fired and arrested for shooting and killing these black men I ask the question again ARE THEY HEROS OR BULLIES? Some Officers take their job seriously and they know it’s dangerous but they know they have orders and protocols they have to follow. Then you have some officers well who remind me of the popular kids when I was in high school. They just wanna be loud and be seen. They know they have the upper hand and can do whatever they want to do. They also show off what they have which is their badge which they know will frighten some people. They use their title for bad mostly good. When their backs against the wall and they see someone not listening or backing down from them instead of going for the taser or anything they go for the gun and shoot not to harm but to kill and in the end they always say I had to do it. I was justified. Most of time I don’t believe it and sometimes I do. You know how some children have tantrums when they can’t have what they want well I think it’s time for to Come together as one and start having our tantrums until we get what we want and that’s PEACE, UNITY, EQUALITY, JUSTICE AND LOVE. NO MORE BULLYING NO MORE KILLING

Soooo I finally watched George Floyd arrest video and I can say I’m outraged. I see why some people did what they did during the riots except the looting part but WE’RE ANGRY WE DEMAND RESPECT. I AM GOD’S CHILD I AM A HUMAN BEING. I ALMOST CRIED HOW DARE THOSE COPS KILL THAT MAN AND DIDN’T HAVE A CARE IN THE WORLD. Even when they put him on the stretcher they just dragged him. They didn’t have a care in the world. They treated him like some animal. THEN THEY HAD THE NERVE TO STILL HAVE HIM HANDCUFFED AS THEY PUT HIM ON THE STRETCHER........UNBELIEVABLE. PEOPLE LIKE THAT HAVE NOTHING BUT HATE IN THEIR HEART. I can’t say I hate them because I don’t hate anyone BUT THIS RIGHT HERE IS SOME LOW DOWN TRIFLING SHIT. Even though I’m a black woman I still fear for my life. I shouldn’t be scared of the men/women whose job it is to protect me from the those causing harm. I HAVE TO AFRAID OF COPS NOW BECAUSE THEY WILL ASSUME BECAUSE IM BLACK IM UP TO NO GOOD OR SINCE THEY THINK THEY HAVE A BADGE THEY CAN DO WHAT THEY WANT. I actually want to go to a protest. All of our voices need to be heard including mine.

I always wondered What gives someone the right to even talk about anyone else? Everyone has flaws no one is perfect. Of course you have those who’s very confident in themselves and thinks they have the right and privilege to bully others. I wasn’t the kind of child who has all the finest things and name brand clothes and shoes. I was appreciative of what my mom and dad gave me. I know they didn’t have money just laying around to spend so I humbled myself and appreciates what they were able to provide for me. Since I wasn’t following the “POPULAR TRENDS” I was an outsider and therefore I was the perfect target to bully. I wasn’t skinny and didn’t wear my natural hair or have a perm in it I WAS THE BIGGEST AND EASIEST TARGET TO BULLY. So people think that since I wasn’t trying to fit in and I didn’t want to look like everyone else I was bullied. What a person have or don’t have shouldn’t be a reason to bully anyone. You don’t know the struggles of others . As I said in my last blog you don’t know what goes on behind close doors. Bullying anyone shouldn’t be for fun or entertainment. You want attention from your peers so you decide to make fun of someone and make others laugh. I can’t change the past but I do want others to know who possibly is being bullied or who is bullying someone that don’t be like anyone else. Being different is good and shouldn’t be a crime. How I look how I dress how I act shouldn’t be a reason to bully anyone. Just be kind to others. Popularity should t even be a goal while you’re at school anyway. I don’t have kids but if I did I would make sure they know everyday that they are special and beautiful and can’t no one destroy them. You have to stay and be encourage. I had to encourage myself. No one knew what I was going through and I didn’t want anyone to know. I was my only friend. I had to encourage myself and push myself. I had God by my side but on Earth I was alone. I don’t want anyone to ever go through that alone. This is why I started my blog. I want to encourage someone who probably think they’re alone. Remember this being different isn’t bad. Being different is nothing but amazing.

I know some people wonders why I picked to talk about bullying. Bullying isn’t talked about as much as other problems that’s going on in the world. Bullying can lead up to a few things and I don’t want anyone to go through the things I went through. You never know the things that a person is already going through behind close doors. Behind close doors I wasn’t going through anything but I was already feeling like a black sheep I already felt like an outcast. I saw my cousins always having fun had friends and actually enjoying going to school. That wasn’t what I had going through my mind at all. Behind close doors I wanted to be as happy as they were. Behind close doors I already felt like an outsider. I felt out of place. When I was home I had these other kids that I lived by. These other kids didn’t go to school with me they were friendly but even still I felt out of place. They were popular and I wasn’t. So outside of school I was still dealing with personal stuff. My mental state was already gone. So when I went to school and got bullied it didn’t help me at all. When I heard those words that came out of those kids mouths my mental state was already so weak that I start to instantly absorb everything that came my way. My brain was like a sponge it took everything in. I’m not saying everyone is like me but again think before you speak. No one doesn’t want to go anywhere and have to worry about what will be said about them next. They say kill them with kindness but what if their words kill the person first. Think about it.

Sooo our next topic is going to be about the cyber bullying. Cyber bullying is done on all these social media websites we’re using today. Facebook, Instagram, Twitter even on here (Tumblr). People might call it Trolling but it’s still cyber bullying. I’ve seen many people get their feelings hurt through cyber bullying. Even I dealt with it. Some times I wonder is it a form of jealousy. You see this girl and she post a picture and you leave a comment such as “Go and kill yourself for posting this ugly picture”. That’s another problem people have they don’t think before they speak. Why would you post that for everyone on that girl page to see. If that’s no bad enough here comes some more “TROLLERS” adding on to the fire that’s already spreading. Why do we go and look on people pages and leave comments like that? Think about. Do you know what you said hurt and embarrassed that girl so much she went ahead and took her own life. Words can hurt. Calling women hoes, sluts, and bitches isn’t empowering women. Someone tell me this what’s the difference between being fat and a BBW and being Thick. To me it’s not a difference because as soon as some troll or some woman who’s jealous or someone who just want start trouble comes around the first thing they’re going to call them is FAT. I’ve been called fat all my life at first it hurted. When I realize after all the bullying I went through and I realize that I was beautiful Calling me fat didn’t hurt me at all. Some kids and teenagers haven’t gotten to that point. I want everyone to love themselves and I want everyone to stop the bullying stop the negativity and stop the violence because what’s the point? What is it going to solve? If you’ve done or said anything to hurt anyone you should apologize to them because you never know what goes through a person mind what all they have to endure during the day.

As I walked through the halls I still saw those eyes but those eyes realized that I was here to stay.

If you’ve been reading my blogs, then you should know about some of my experiences of bullying. I shared my experience with you because I want to help anyone who thinks they are alone. I don’t want no child or teenager to take their life because of bullying. Bullying isn’t just done at school bullying is done online as well. It’s called cyber bullying. These social media websites can be dangerous as well. Yes I’ve experienced being bullied online as well. I also realize that the person being bullied would also get jumped be others. That’s a coward move to me. If you can’t fight on your own if you have to bring a whole group to help you fight one person you’re nothing but a coward. I do want to know something. What is the purpose of fighting the person that getting bullied? Do you think fighting will boost your popularity? The victim already has to deal with so much and now they have to worry about fighting. I never got into a fight. Like I said in my blog I always depended on my cousins to defend me and I never knew if I could fight or not. I would always hear I’ll whoop your a** but what was I suppose to do. I didn’t know if I was going to get jumped or not. Those who pick fights with the victims also tends to backfires. That saying don’t judge a book by its cover is right. You can’t judge a person base off how they look and how they act. Just because someone is quiet, skinny or looks weak doesn’t mean they can’t fight. I’ve seen videos where the person being bullied has beaten the person who bullying them. I want us to stop the violence. It’s enough going on in the world. I want everyone to know that they matter and we can get through this together. I’m here for anyone who’s going through this or who’s been through bullying

Soooo this is the conclusion of Who is Jozzy blog. High school was hell for me. I was all alone. I had male and females talking about me and I knew if I stood up to them it would only make things worse. I didn’t know if I knew how to fight for sure. I was so comfortable with having my cousins protect me and take up for me that when it was my turn to do it for myself I failed. I didn’t know how to stand up for myself. I didn’t know what to say. All I knew how to do was sit there and take what they said to me. All I knew how to do was keep my mouth shut. During my junior year I started to come out my shell more not all the way. I was in JROTC and being in that class gave me some confidence and it gave me some strength. I actually started dating and I smiled for the first time in forever. Although my relationship didn’t last I still felt positive about myself. I started to find my inner self. I still had people talking about me but this time I was able to stand up for myself and ignore what they said. I even went to my senior prom and I enjoyed myself I didn’t care who was watching me and who said anything. I felt beautiful and I knew I was beautiful. My bullying almost had me to take my own life. Bullying had me skipping classes and even skipping school. I was too weak to fight and clap back at anyone. I let others destroy my life and I wasn’t able to enjoy it. So for those getting bullied or that’s been bullied don’t let anyone break you down. Don’t let anyone destroy you to the point where you wanna give up. Don’t give anyone that much power. You’re strong you’re beautiful and you’re something special. That’s what I had to tell myself it took awhile but I got through it. BE GREAT AND LET THE OTHERS HATE

On my next blog I will finish Who is Jozzy with pt 3 and tell you how I overcame all the bullying and I will give advice to the ones who are experiencing or who has experienced bullying. Have a great evening! ✌🏾💜💙❤️

Just a little bit about me. I’m 28 and I’ve dealt with bullying. Bullying started for me in elementary school . At first it didn’t bother me, but I started getting tired of hearing the same thing everyday. As I got older and went to middle school I completely shut myself out. I barely talked to anyone. I figured that if I stayed quiet no one would notice me and I wouldn’t get bullied. Well that didn’t work. No matter what I did I still found myself getting talked about. I was a big girl and I was developing a lil earlier than some of the other girls and that’s how I became a fat h**. People assumed because I had hips and booty I was having sex. I remember one time I made a statement that a guy was cute and this girl said he don’t want my fat ass leave her “brother” alone. I couldn’t even give a guy a compliment. It was hard for me because I knew I couldn’t ask my parents to change schools. I knew if I told them what was going on nothing really wasn’t gonna be done except I would be called the fat snitching h**. After middle school came high school and this where I really wanted to everything to end. But I’m going to end my background story here and finish the rest in my next blog. Remember to never give up obstacles will keep coming your way. Don’t throw in the towel keep pushing yourself. If you have any questions or just want to chime in be my guest. Until next time be bless and look out for my next blog Part 2! ✌🏾💜💙

Hello everyone!!!!! My name is Jozzy and if you’re reading this let me say WELCOME TO MY TUMBLR PAGE. This my first time ever doing any kind of blogging and I’m sooo excited. I want nothing but positive vibes. My blogging will be on bullying. I’ll also share some of my bullying experiences from when I was in school and I’ll also give advice to anyone who need help. I want to help those who aren’t able to fight for themselves. My blogs is for everyone. Sooo I hope everyone is excited as I am and don’t be shy I would love to hear feedback and OH NO Trolling I don’t have time for that. Thank you and Be Bless