I feel so lost

happy birthday to me

2 months. Thanksgiving without you was just dad making dinner (not making anything I like) and us just staying in our rooms. He did make rice and beans with the beans and sauce on the side but he said that was for Michael and asked if I wanted mac and cheese and never made it. Today I came home from work and dad moved your shoes, clothes and purses to the garage and was telling titi Cindy he'd just donate your clothes and shoes without even talking to me and sharlene. You haven't been gone that long amd all of your stuff is in the garage its like he just went oh well time to move on but goes on and on about how you were all he knew and never even asks me how I am. When he said he had 12 weeks he was able to take off he said it was to make sure michael and kolby were okay. Fuck me I guess. Me losing my mom that I actually spent time with doesn't mean shit to him. He doesn't care about me. No one does anymore.