Stay Calm

People really suck sometimes. The answer you give isn't good enough and they've got it in their mind that there's no other right way or thing to say but their own. Fucking arrogance. But it must just be me. Intentionally being negative. Trying to stress myself out. Oh and looking for attention. Obviously. Looking for attention on a blog with no followers. Looking for attention when I go out with our friends and want to be included in shit. But I guess that's the 13 year old girl in me going through a phase. "Mom just doesn't understand" right.

1. Try to find something positive out of every day 2. To not dye my hair and let it grow and be healthy until the wedding I'm in in July of this year 3. Join snap and start out by working out at least 3 times a week. 4. Cut my cheat weekends down to a single cheat day, even if we go out 5. Better my relationship with my cat so she stops peeing on my stuff 6. When I get overwhelmed by the state of our apartment to focus on one thing that I can clean and resolve 7. Show my wonderful fiancé how much he means to me every single day 8. Want less material items. 9. Save at least $50 per pay cheque and do not take it out of my savings account 10. Drink more water 11. Make more of an effort to spend time with my family 12. To not take things so personally and be obsessed with what other people think 13. To not over think every single little detail 14. To not take my anxiety and frustrations out on darren 15. Remember that school takes priority/ not let that get me down Here's a start. Seems like a lot but if I can successfully manage one of these goals I'll be proud of myself.

I'm already sucking at this. It's just been so busy. I'm almost through it, and then after the 24th, I'll be (mostly aside from work and one online class) free!

Wish me luck, non existent internet friends. The countdown begins.  

Let’s see if I can actually commit to voicing my thoughts on the internet, and manage not to offend anyone all at the same time shall we.