ninety-nine

I have decided to start a new blog and felt that I should let you know why.

Why? Because I started this blog when I was sixteen years old and have a lot of stuff on here than I personally am not very proud of anymore, find kind of cringy and icky. I am twenty now and feel like continuing trying to run this blog gives me more stress than happiness, which it entirely should not do. This is supposed to be fun not stressful. I wanted to leave everything behind and start anew.

What will happen to this blog? I’m not sure yet. I’m definitely not going to delete the blog or take anything down, but the account I will from now on be logged into regularly is my other blog.

Will you continue writing? Yes, but only when I really feel like it. I’m very picky and self-critical in my process of writing nowadays and pressure myself too much to feel confident enough to do it a lot. But I definitely want to keep writing.

What will happen to Bad? As much as I very truly hate to say it, Bad as of right now will be discontinued. I know there are many out there who really enjoyed it and really wanted it to continue - which will endlessly warm my heart and I will be forever thankful for. But I started that fic when I was seventeen and all of the inspiration and passion I had for it back then no longer exists. I am just a very different person now with more experience and different views on things and Bad doesn’t boil my inspiration-noodles anymore. And similarly to keeping this blog up in general, feeling the weight of Bad on my shoulders brings me much more discomfort and stress than it does joy.

What is the other blog’s name? @tearsofsyrup

Lastly, I want to thank everyone who has been by my side through all the years and thinking about it almost makes me want to cry. I have some amazing followers that I will be forever grateful for and will never forget how happy you guys have made me when I have gone through rough times. If you want to stick it out with me on whatever adventures I pursue on my other blog, I will be more than happy to have you. I love you so much.

I hope you all can forgive me for this but it is something that I feel like I needed to do. I’ll be very thankful if you can respect my decision.

Again, thank you so much for everything and I will love you guys endlessly. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

Labia comes in all shapes and sizes. So don’t be ashamed if yours are bigger or smaller.

Yeast infections are normal and can happen to anyone, even virgins.

Vaginal discharge is NORMAL.

Vaginas are acidic enough to bleach fabric.

It’s NOT normal nor SAFE for vaginas to smell like sunshine’s and flowers. So leave it be.

Having sex has no correlation on how tight your vagina is

Sex is NOTHING like what pornhub posts or what smut tells you(lmao no shade, y’all the real mvp)

Sex is a beautiful thing. But it’s even more beautiful when it’s with the right person. So don’t feel pressured to lose your virginity quickly or have sex with anyone who you aren’t comfortable with.

SYNOPSIS: You try to surprise Yoongi with a night full of romance but he manages to ruin all of your plans.

PAIRING: Yoongi x You

GENRE: Angst, Fluff

WARNINGS: Language, *Implied* smut

WORD COUNT: 4311

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Yoongi: Practice ending in twenty. I’ll be over after. Do you want me to bring anything?

You: Just yourself. ❤️

You drop your phone onto the counter, doing a quick study of the dining room. Plates, cutlery – check. Ambient lighting, candles – check. Dinner that you spent a whopping five hours slaving over – check. You had gone over this checklist in your head about six times now but it didn’t seem enough. Everything needed to be absolutely perfect. It wasn’t an anniversary or birthday, although you know Yoongi might momentarily suspect so when he walks in and sees your usual cluttered apartment so romantically decorated. Perhaps it was the marathons of dramas you’ve been binging lately or perhaps you were just hit with the lovebug, but you craved romance.

It wasn’t that your relationship with Yoongi wasn’t great. It definitely was. Your personalities fit together like a glove, you got along with each others friends and families, you made each other happy. You were … comfortable. And while the two of you had some memorably heated moments, it’s been a long time since you felt that spark of excitement in your relationship. You didn’t blame Yoongi though. Being one out of seven members of the biggest music group in the world at the moment, his mind was always preoccupied – recording songs, producing songs, learning choreography, filming videos and comeback appearances, putting on concerts, etc. You didn’t begrudge him his job and you certainly didn’t expect him to have the energy to initiate anything extra into your relationship.

So that’s why you’re going to do it instead. Tonight.