the light from under your bed

I made a thing that I’m pretty obsessed with. Granite, I only made 2 because 1) I do this on the side to escape the mundane work and b) I don’t know if anyone would actually want these shirts as much as I would and I don’t have the space to cary have a ton. Also I’m low energy so let’s be amazed by the fact that I actually made these and I actually took pictures and I actually posted them on my etsy. I’d have 2 other shirts available on etsy eventually, but I need to take better pictures.

Like I’m not asking for a gold star, but like I’m asking for a gold star.

Don’t you just hate having things that suck in your life? It does, it was a rhetorical question. Obviously yes. There are something you are just like “FFFFFUUUCCCCKKKK” cause you can’t really kick it in the booty and tell it bye. But there are some other things where you are also like “FFFFUUUCCCCKKKK” and maybe you can kick it in the booty and tell it bye, but you aren’t see if that’s a totally acceptable thing to do because time and memories. Well I can tell you with some success you can! I say some because haha anxiety with make you question that choice and you’ve got to remind yourself that you matter and if it ain’t cool with you, it ain’t cool.

“But withsmt, how the fuck do I do that? I mean I’ve spent so much time in this relationship and I have some good memories with ma homegirl. How can I possibly dump it all?”

I say grab 

a notebook 

a pen

a metaphorical trash can

and listen up!

Step 1: Make you are making the right choice. Have you brought up these issues with said person and they have totally got what you’re putting down. And then you find out that they totally didn’t even pick up like anything, not this hints, not the straightforward mentions, nothing? Next question, is this something that will continue to bother you for all of time if it’s not fixed? If you’ve answered yes, then great you now know you have made the right choice to continue with this DIY.

“Wait why did I need that list of things you previously mentioned?” So you can take notes if you are a notes person, I’m a note person gotta write that shit out and get a clear head. The trashcan is for when you are done trying to remember things. Just keep reading.

Step 2: Slowly withdraw yourself from that person, talk to them less, meet up with them less. Learn how to be comfortable without them.

Step 3: Confront said person and let them know that it bugs you that they do nothing to change. How do they respond? Do they finally understand what the fuck you’ve been trying to tell them for the past 2 years and want to work on being a better friend? Then you decide are you willing to wait a little long for more results and stop at step 3! Or do they act as if they didn’t realize that you’ve ever brought it up and act as if they are being genuine and sincere but then throw out a bitch comment like “I really love and value our friendship more than anything and I don’t want a gift from my boyfriend to come between us or cause a loss of my best friend.” Bitch how dare you think I’m a petty ass bitch and I can’t being happy for you that your boyfriend buys you gifts, get them gifts I don’t give a fuck about what your boyfriend buys you. You clearly missed my point for the past 2 years of having to be a 3rd wheel in our own conversations when I want to talk about me or things for us as homies and ...oh this is a DIY hahaha let’s keep going...

Step 4: Have the will power to continue to stand your ground on your person needs. If you’ve withdrawn yourself enough from them you’ll really only notice them gone when you are having a mental breakdown. And if you are anything like me, you’ll get angry at them and let it fester for a bit and you just kinda have to remind yourself that you tried and it ain’t no one way street.

“Was this DIY really for you? Also is this even a DIY?” Well obviously... but it’s good to share, isn’t that the spirt of DIY? Making shit to help yourself and show others that they can do fun DIY things too. And yes, I’m doing it myself, so why not?

I’ve added more Disneyland FastPasses styles to my etsy! If people are interested I have more Indiana Jones, World of Color, and Haunted Mansion, plus Big Thunder Mountain, Sorin’ over California, and California Screamin’ ready to be pressed.

New items available at my shop! Will be adding my zines (and new pieces that are soon to be finished but energy so those will take a bit longer to finish then print then assemble then add to etsy) and eventually more jackets once I get around to finishing those as well.