Spice Of Phife

What’s the safe way

To love or fall in it?

How do you learn from the pain without carrying its bitterness?

That taste on your tongue when you need a reminder

Of that time you reached for love and found a hand full of fire

For those moments you want to melt into someone’s arms and feel each breath sync

You remember when you lost that feeling last time so instead you ice and freeze

I don’t wanna feel butterflies.

I don’t want you holding me.

Because I’m still seeing his eyes

I’m still processing the lies he told me

Don’t tell me I’m different and the ways I make you feel

Because that shit has never been enough to get a nigga to keep it real.

I don’t want to hear that forever shit, or what you think it is you see in my eyes

Because in two months you’ll be just like the rest of them, and what you see is way less than you could ever realize

You’ll never know me

None of them ever got the chance for a reason

I belong deeply to my purpose and myself for now and every season.

I illuminate too bright to be seen by what your eyes can measure

I cry but I smile because this pain feeds pleasure