gold don't come off

So afraid to go to sleep, but so tired. I don't want a repeat of last night's dream. I'm still feeling so scared. Why does everything good in my life have to change?

Imagination can be the worst. I need to just constantly read, like legit stuff, so my mind can only think of whatever I'm reading about. I know just where I'll start.

I wish that when you dream you could relive memories. I'd relive being in Maine, my first year of college, using some leftover painkillers from having my wisdom teeth removed and watching an Ellen DeGeneres comedy special. That's a happy memory. I wish I could do it again.

They say "you get what you give" but I don't think that's necessarily true. People take what you give.

Pretty sure I'm delusional. I think I'm better than I am so when I realize I'm nothing it hurts...but then I do it again.

So, watched Twilight today at the behest of the only person who could possibly get me to do things I might not want to do. I can say that I probably would have been all over that shit if it had come out earlier. Watching the second one tomorrow. Technology betters my life.

Late at night I cry a lot. I don't know why. I think things just get to me then. And there are a lot of things.

But what's it like to just be a normal person?

Wow, Little Miss Sunshine makes you realize how fast time flies. That kid is a grownup now. I swear I just saw that like yesterday. Time will kill us all.

Legit just wrote a sentence that said, "the longer they're there their eyes adjust to the dark."