Wayfinder

Okay, so I'm gonna do this.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry for many things in fact regarding our interactions.

I'm sorry that I grew uncomfortable with you after you mentioned self-harm despite me telling you the word itself was a trigger. Hence leading me to feel uncomfortable talking with you.

I'm sorry I blocked you despite calling it a trigger.

I'm sorry for telling one person that you were shit talking me, when what I was actually told was that you and Vix did not like me.

I'm sorry for blocking you, despite feeling it was in my best interests because you did not like me.

I'm sorry for my anxiety after I got anonymous hate, and wanting to block everyone who might send hate my way.

I'm sorry for not responding to your apology for the soft blocking, despite saying I would hear you out on that matter. That was the time I found out you did not like me, and had voiced that to others.

I'm sorry that against better judgement, I decided to jump head first into your drama because the threats against my friends pissed me off.

I'm sorry that you are under the assumption that I am popular and spread rumours about you. However, I do not talk about you, and had completely forgot about you until Vix had come to me, and only when they mentioned Gold did I know what they were talking about.

I'm sorry that this seems to plague your mind constantly, but you don't have to worry, because I don't want anything to do with this drama any more.

I'm also sorry that Shae asked you to publicly apologize, despite my requests that she did not involve me in the apology at all, because I didn't want to deal with this any more for my own mental health.

I'm also quite sorry, that you do not seem to understand that someone might want to block you for the sake of their own mental illnesses, while stating that they should not for the sake of yours.

I'm sorry that at least one of your friends decided to instead start harassing me only making me want to deal with you less.

Honestly, I don't give a fuck about any of this any more. I don't want anything to do with you, your friends, your fiance. I don't talk about you, I don't thing about you. You do not consume my every thought, as I seem to do yours.

I'm sorry it seems such a big deal to you, however, this situation has literally driven me to self harm. So no. I am not interested in any of it any more. Feel free to block me here as well. Just so you know though, Cori and Shae have kept up their end of the bargain and have not blocked you again.

I don't know who demeaned you or attacked you for wanting an apology. And I cannot apologize for that, as I have no control over anyone else's actions.

I will say however, never once have I decided like I am better than anyone else, nor have I decided to step all over someone who I disagree with. However, when I feel personally attacked, then I will fight back. It is an instinct ingrained in me since a child. So no, my problem, and my actions towards you, were because I felt attacked, or threatened. Anyone else's actions towards you is on them, and their own decisions.

I just want you to know, if anyone does have issues with you, it is not because of me, but perhaps because you decided to bring up the issue and make it public.

If you read this, thank you. If you delete it, whatever.

“Let’s go.”

“Sorry for being confused, never seen you before miss.”

“should I change my outfit for this?”

                       “… I always look for a reason to beat people.”

‘‘I have a lot of raw physical strength is all. Anytime I use it something or someone gets hurt.’‘

                        “… As  you wish.”

                       “… Name the time and place.”

“why do you think i said it in the first place.”

                       “… Have you asked her? She might think that it’s fun.”

                        “… Training. Interesting.  So, are you and Kairi going to train against each other?”

                       “… I thought we were supposed to pick. our. battles.?”